A new god has appeared to us. Yes, the usual smoke and fire, loud booming sounds from the heavens. The fire grows brighter, the smoke blacker. Clearly, the new god is angry, or just pretending to be angry as a show of force. It will probably demand worship, as do all the rest of those tiresome gods; sacrifices, too, I suppose, which will mean less food for our children, fatter priests and prophets. [Click ‘Random Post’ above – be astonished] … [Read more...]
“Pulling Our Strings” / Memorable Fancies #1566
[“We represent on earth as we are in heaven” – W.S. Merwin] We are the self-marionettes, the self-puppets. No one else can pull our strings – we do this just as dreadfully, ourselves, as the heavenly puppet-master would. I dance to my own discordant strings. … [Read more...]
“The Second God” / Memorable Fancies #1508
[“...the land not worthy of a second God...” – Thomas Bernhard] I guess we got off easy – here, there’s only one. … [Read more...]
A Dystheist Creed
"I'd rather be nothing." - Alien 3 A dystheist * belief: There is a God; atheists vainly wish there were not. God is a farmer, and the crop he's raising is souls - human souls being the tastiest, if a bit tart. More souls, more "soul-food" for Him. He sees homosexuality as a threat to the bountifulness of His harvest. But He’s not a conservationist - it's grow as much food as possible, strip the soul/soil, and move on. * aka “maltheist”; not the same as “misotheist.” … [Read more...]
“The God Arrives” / Memorable Fancies #1468
There were so many violent rumblings in the earth, so many prophecies, so many voices shouting exultantly in the sky, that we were sure the great and awesome god had finally come at last. And so it had, but instead of a towering figure gazing down at us, the god was so tiny – just a few inches tall – that we laughed at it with relief. That was the last time anyone laughed. <END> Buy it at amazon.com/author/terencekuch: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“The Datebooks of Angels” / Memorable Fancies #1364
[“I wrote my name in the datebooks of angels / And did not care if they were fallen.” – after Noelle Kocot] In fact, the fallen angels are easier to get in touch with; they actually answer their phones once in a while. <END> Buy it at amazon.com/author/terencekuch: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“For Babylon” / Memorable Fancies #1357
“ ... Babylon of the golden sandals ... ” — Sibylline Oracles, Book 5 [The following is a free-verse adaptation of the Biblical Apocalypse of John (the book, also known as “Revelations,” that D.H. Lawrence called “A Hymn of Hate,”) Chapters 14-18] What I saw: Angel a-wíng in heaven, proud Gospel in its claws, crying Fear God; for his judgment is surely come. And there followed a second angel, saying, Babylon is fallen, is fallen, that great city. And the smoke of her … [Read more...]
“Who Are You?” / Memorable Fancies #1350
[“How can it not know what it is?” – Blade Runner] I’ve overheard them telling each other that I don’t know who I am. That I’m not “authentic.” But I do know. I’m not an authentic of anything they recognize, true; but I’m an authentic me. <END> Buy it at amazon.com/author/terencekuch: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“The Big Thing” / Memorable Fancies #1336
[“We live in the aftermath of the Event; everything – the Big Thing – has already happened.” – Slavoj Žižek] There is an unspoken agreement among us: we will not speak of what happened, especially since there’s no way of undoing the Event, restoring our world, bringing back to life all those ... all those we no longer speak of. <END> Buy it at amazon.com/author/terencekuch: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“Port-a-Soul” / Memorable Fancies #1279
[“take your soul with you, / nobody wants it” – Brian Patten] So I took my soul with me. At first, I was glad to have it for company, strolling in the noonday sun or lying around at night, but soon it became a bore, tedious with admonitions, heavy with accusations. Then I knew why nobody wanted it. <END> Buy it at amazon.com/author/terencekuch: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“Regret” / Memorable Fancies #1272
[“Power is afraid of itself, and fear corrodes each day.” – Roberto Calasso] God is afraid of what He might do in a fit of anger at observing the repeated sins of His people, like cover the earth with water or consume it in flames. He has done these things time after time. But then He REGRETs, sets the world back to the way it was. But next time, He says every time, next time He will tell Himself that it is good, whatever happens, whatever He’s done in rage against His imperfect people. … [Read more...]
“The Final Heresy” / Memorable Fancies #1251
[“Rheterians – A sect of heretics. They approved of all the heresies before them and taught that they were all in the right.” - Encyclopædia Britannica, 1769] Church members were required to pore through old books and find more ancient heresies, and more – so the faith could grow. Then, having run out of old heresies, they made up new ones. Eventually the Rheterians declared their own doctrine to be heretical, and thus the circle was closed and they could rest from their scholarly … [Read more...]
“I Made This” / Memorable Fancies #1243
[“I made this, I have forgotten / And remember.” – T.S. Eliot] Sometimes I think I made the world – my world, anyway, perhaps not yours as well – and other times I think that the world was here long before I came and I’ve done nothing but watch the billiard balls of cause and chance collide, carom to their destined pockets. <END> Buy it at amazon.com/author/terencekuch: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“Watching” / Memorable Fancies #1236
[“in hell, / where there is nothing to do / but see–” – Louise Glück] In hell, to be the eternal spectator of others, yourself silent, motionless, unchanged. Like sitting in front of a TV forever – without a clicker. <END> Buy it at amazon.com/author/terencekuch: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“Leftovers” / Memorable Fancies #1223
[“The soul is what’s wanted, the body they’re allowed to keep.” – Nietzsche] Perhaps our souls were taken from us at birth, the hungry god wandering from place to place ravenously seeking newborns. Not having known our own souls, we’ve never missed them. And yet, we’ve always had the feeling that something about us is incomplete, not quite right.... <END> Buy it at amazon.com/author/terencekuch: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“Tourists in Hell” / Memorable Fancies #1216
[“In Hades, the shades of the dead repeat the same gesture ad infinitum.” – Sergio Agamben] What this gesture means had been a mystery to tourists and casual visitors such as myself. Some of us thought it meant “repent before it’s too late!” or “we’ve abandoned all hope, y'know,” or just “tourists raus!” But then we found ourselves repeating that same gesture, again and again – and unable to leave the place of our own Hell. Now we know what the gesture … [Read more...]
“Your Spiritual Name” / Memorable Fancies #1189
[“Every Christian has two names – one corporeal, the other spiritual.” – Albert Camus] You seek to discover your spiritual name. The exercise is simple: you ask a friend to look you in the eye and read off all the words in the Dictionary of Adjectives, one at a time. If your eyes widen or their irises pale, you have just been called by your spiritual name: ‘able,’ ‘active,’ ‘adorable,’ ‘adventurous,’ and so on. There are, of course, certain risks... <END> Buy it at … [Read more...]
“ ‘I shit you not’ ” / Memorable Fancies #1183
[from the shooting script for the film Alien 3: Every few seconds, one of the candles goes out. BOGGS: What the shit is doing that? GOLIC: You're not supposed to swear. BOGGS: Shut up. It's alright to say “shit.” It ain’t against God.] Swearing is asking God to witness that what you say is true. (“I swears it!” – Gollum). Cursing is condemning someone to Hell. Both are risky, as the god sometimes listens, sometimes takes you at your word, sometimes wreaks vengeance or just … [Read more...]
“Forgiveness” / Memorable Fancies #1176
[“Time flows in strange ways on Sundays, and sights become mysteriously distorted.” Haruki Murakami] People move more slowly on Sundays. Some dress up and disappear into pointy-topped buildings. Singing is heard; pleas for mercy; words of forgiveness that no one quite believes – or deserves... <END> Buy it at amazon.com/author/terencekuch: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“Where Are the Bodies?” / Memorable Fancies #1149
[“I have put out of my mind what we did with all the bodies.” – Lucy Corin] I’m afraid to remember where the bodies are, where we hurriedly put them after our party that, unfortunately, did not end with warm expressions of friendship, but only farewell; afraid that if I do, I might find the bodies nearby ... near me ... very near ... <END> Buy it on Amazon: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“Ritual of Freedom” / Memorable Fancies #1142
At long last the colonizers are gone, those cruel and violent people who called us “primitive,” “uncivilized.” Our valiant insurgents drove them out, or perhaps our diseases did; no matter. Now we have picked one of our own to revive the long-suppressed ritual. The joyous virgin mounts the pyramid’s steps. I wait, knife in hand. <END> Buy it on Amazon: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“The Name” / Memorable Fancies #1128
[“Perhaps the sacred name had been misspelled / or in its uttering been jumbled or weak.” – Jorge Luis Borges] So let’s try it again, shall we? Sooner or later our pleas will arouse the god. In the meanwhile we, his humble ministers, need to live, and your donations ... <END> Buy it on Amazon: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“Belief” / Memorable Fancies #1121
[“Which gods may we believe in, and which not?” – György Lukács] “Never mind,” said God; “belief is the booby prize. I want OBEY.” <END> Buy it on Amazon: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“The God Ponders” / Memorable Fancies #1115
The god is thinking about how ungrateful the people He created are, how obsessed with their own desires instead of His. Perhaps they need a lesson. How about SMITE? Yes, a few SMITEs might solve His problem with these people. And if it doesn’t? If they remain stiff-necked and obstinate? Well, there is always DESTROY. <END> Buy it on Amazon: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“Weight” / Memorable Fancies #1108
[“Without God the world has become lighter and man heavier.” - Octavio Paz] Now, there’s no one Up There to blame. Can we get Him back, please? <END> Buy it on Amazon: At All Adventure, a Maltheist gospel. … [Read more...]
“Waiting” / Memorable Fancies #843
[“A god is always threatening on the horizon.” – E.M. Cioran] A halo appears above my head; the god has struck once again, claiming yet another. But this time He picked the wrong man; He chose someone who could fight back. Calmly, I pretend to be saved while waiting my chance. <END> THE PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or on Facebook or other social websites. For an author profile, list of publications, and … [Read more...]
“Two Gestures” / Memorable Fancies #822
[“Layers of cold gestures” – Roberto Bolaño] I am in a far and impoverished country, one that does not appreciate our vital military assistance. What do the peoples' gestures mean? This one might be a man throwing a rock; another, a woman setting a fuse... <END> THE SUNDAY PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or in StumbleUpon, Reddit, Facebook, or other social websites. AVAILABLE NOW on Amazon and Other Outlets: “At All Adventure” … [Read more...]
“The National Myth” / Memorable Fancies #816
[“The absence of myth is also a myth.” – Georges Bataille] Why are there no myths in this country? No tales of dragons and fair maidens, ever-sleeping princesses, or kings longing to return? Everything is factual here; in fact, the people are proud of it, proud of their myth that everything is factual. <END> THE SUNDAY PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or in StumbleUpon, Reddit, Facebook, or other social … [Read more...]
“Audience Response” / Memorable Fancies #809
[“Theatre’s functions of surveillance...” – Alain Badiou] The audience is scanned to see who is laughing when, when a lip wrinkles, when a fleeting look of disgust or annoyance or boredom crosses a face. These observations are fed into the next evening’s production, and the next. Eventually, perfection is reached and only a vapid pleasure survives. <END> THE SUNDAY PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or in StumbleUpon, … [Read more...]
“Clarity” / Memorable Fancies #785
Recently announced: a program to enable people to find out what they really believe – not those solemn things said on solemn occasions but really – down deep – one’s ultimate beliefs unsullied by the demands of everyday dishonesty. So I made an appointment with the local office of Credere, Inc., to help me sort all this out, discover what I really believed, what my “values” (as they called them) really were; to end my doubts and confusions. Credere would, their ads claimed, make … [Read more...]
“Photograph of a Young Man Slumped on a Bench” / Memorable Fancies #778
So many worries! I walked right up to him and took his face. I wanted to ask, but it’s easier just to shoot. What’s your problem? What are you, anyway? Twenty? Twenty five? <END> [note: there was an actual photograph, but I think the prose bit can stand alone - tk] THE SUNDAY PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or in StumbleUpon, Reddit, Facebook, or other social websites. AVAILABLE NOW on Amazon and Other Outlets: “At … [Read more...]
“Photograph, Railroad Station, Staunton, Virginia, Year 1976” / Memorable Fancies #771
See the crowds? The station rests from crowds. The boys came back in ’45 and everybody went away. The place was hardly worth a picture then, before paint flaked and iron gates rusted shut. Look out! when they start to call it Old Town: already the dread / antique / boutique. <END> THE SUNDAY PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or in StumbleUpon, Reddit, Facebook, or other social websites. AVAILABLE NOW on Amazon … [Read more...]
“Little Murders” / Memorable Fancies #764
Fluffy caught a mouse. The other cats startle stiff at what she’d dragged into the house: bloody, disassembled, played to shreds. They stroll away with rigid eyes and glassy legs, pounce on dustballs, practice desperate death. <END> THE SUNDAY PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or in StumbleUpon, Reddit, Facebook, or other social websites. AVAILABLE NOW on Amazon and Other Outlets: “At All Adventure” – an alternative … [Read more...]
“The Tweetiapp” / Memorable Fancies #757
The famous writer bought a tweet-generator app to keep his name in front of his fans, so he could get back to writing. An in-app upgrade composed return tweets: loving and admiring messages as if from the writer’s own fictional characters. This app became very popular, not only among writers. Were there, at last, any real people, or only their frantic retweets? <END> THE SUNDAY PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or … [Read more...]
“Strings” / Memorable Fancies #750
Punch and Judy shows terrify children when they see the strings, realize that whoever is pulling Punch’s strings is the real evil being making Punch punch and hit and punch again and maul. They wonder who might be pulling their own strings. Perhaps something they heard last week in Sunday School ... <END> THE SUNDAY PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or in StumbleUpon, Reddit, Facebook, or other social … [Read more...]
“The New Chord” / Memorable Fancies #743
The old musician walked carefully down the street toward home. I’ve heard everything, he thinks, all the music my century knows. I’m very old and I can’t seem to die. There’s nothing left to do or say, and even this I barely remember minute to minute. But then he heard a tune a child nearby was playing on a pennywhistle. Not the basic tune itself, which seemed ordinary enough, but the structure, the hints of what might at one time have been a novel chord progression now reduced to … [Read more...]
“Competition” / Memorable Fancies #736
In the poor mining town, funerals are the only theatre. Only there can people show extreme emotions without causing scandal, indeed are expected to do so. There are coaches, classes, competition for awards as the death of a loved one nears. [– after Thomas Bernhard] <END> THE SUNDAY PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or in StumbleUpon, Reddit, Facebook, or other social websites. AVAILABLE NOW on Amazon and Other Outlets: “At All … [Read more...]
“A Shaggy-Computer Story” / Memorable Fancies #729
A patent application described the new machine in detail. 56 pages of text were provided, along with 443 schematics. An external HD drive appendix contained its operating system. In terms of the machine’s function, or what apps it could perhaps host, however, the patent application was phrased with such obfuscatory verbiage that any reader (or patent examiner) would conclude that what the machine would do really was unique and clearly worthy of a patent, even though they didn’t really … [Read more...]
“The Robot Quanders” / Memorable Fancies #722
Am I the only robot, or are there more? Perhaps only some of the people I work with are robots. But which ones are they? Or, how do I know that everyone else isn’t a robot and I’m the only one? The others look like me, they talk like me, they have emotions (at least a few of them seem to). But if I can’t tell the difference, perhaps there is no difference. Who built us? The others seem to be very religious, say pretty much the same thing, that God built people, … [Read more...]
“Five Briefs” / Memorable Fancies #708
Some people say they saw Jesus in the clouds once and they never were the same after that ’cause they kept looking up looking up looking up # I made a second body for me. He’s my playmate. No, I have plenty of friends, so it wasn’t loneliness that led me to invent my other body. It’s just that my friends aren’t – aren’t me. # Hot, foul air poured into the subway stations from the tunnels: a breeze, then a gale. There were faint sounds, then louder. At first, we thought it was just … [Read more...]
“Understand?” / Memorable Fancies #701
I was infatuated with a man I knew slightly. I began to dress like Rob (that was his name), talk like him, develop the same interests. People noticed; some were amused. All this time, Rob didn’t know what I was up to, but eventually someone told him, and then that person told me what he’d done. I waited in embarrassed dread for Rob to accuse me, belittle me as some petty impostor. After several days, he did call. But he wasn’t angry or even amused, just regretful. “Look,” he said, … [Read more...]
“Five Briefs” / Memorable Fancies #694
Living on a planet of a two-sun system, each of us has two shadows. Sometimes one overlays the other, looking like an eight-limbed two-headed beast. Sometimes the shadows fight over who’s on top and who’s beneath. # Sleeping quietly will pass for a theatre-goer’s mild critique of a play. Coughing is the next level of disapproval, followed by nose-blowing. Snoring is the most devastating critique; it is widely appreciated, and often reported in the press. # Perhaps, we thought in the … [Read more...]
“At the Shrine of Apollo, 524 B.C.” / Memorable Fancies #687
There were visitors on our island this morning, rich pilgrims. I overheard them saying that Apollo may not have been born here on Delos as our old stories say, but somewhere else. We must make sure that our visitors say this no more: loud gold-giving pilgrims may hear, bright Apollo’s shrine - dim. <END> THE SUNDAY PITCH If you liked this post, please tell your friends and share a comment here or in StumbleUpon, Reddit, Facebook, or other social websites. AVAILABLE NOW … [Read more...]
“Five Briefs XXXII” / Memorable Fancies #680
The temple statue says: I am not a representation of the god, I am the god. If not me, then where is the god? Let it for once show itself! # The Story: A narrative appears, then a different version, then yet another, as if someone were reluctantly confessing, searching to find the right story one whiplash at a time. # What happens in the audience IS the play. Sneezing, groping, fights. The plot unfolds in the audience as the actors do some trivial and irrelevant performance, stage business … [Read more...]
“Five Briefs – XXXII” / Memorable Fancies #673
The mirror must be destroyed: it saw me as I am, never mind that tomorrow I will reform. # A TV is invented that customizes a show in response to our wishes. In Washington, for instance, the Sunday talk shows display the deep respect Republicans and Democrats have for each other. # Why do we sometimes remember events that never happened? This puts the whole concept of “happened” into question, doesn’t it? Why do we remember our shameful defeats that surely never happened? Couldn’t have … [Read more...]
“Revelation” / Memorable Fancy #666
A young priest came to me today. Most worshipfully he stared at my feet and asked for a blessing. Then he said that he had – regretfully, in all modest humility - founded a Reform movement to supersede my revelations, or at most preserve them as thoughts known to an earlier age, beliefs no longer relevant to modern life. I told the priest that if there were to be a Reform movement I would found and lead it myself, not him. Then I sent him away to do penance. I know I will … [Read more...]
“Five Briefs – XXX” / Memorable Fancies #659
More statues of me appear every day. One would be an honor, perhaps two or three would show even more honor. But now there are dozens, with a deteriorating level of craftsmanship as each new one appears. I suspect a joke, a silent protest. # The place our shadows went, the old legend says – is the shadows’ new country. They won’t ever admit there were people, that they are not their own originals. # If all the noise suddenly stops, what would we hear? What sounds … [Read more...]
“A Clear Conscience” / Memorable Fancies #652
“The state in which we are is sinful, irrespective of guilt.” – Kafka The feeling that we are all guilty spreads through the country like a dread disease. There is disagreement as to what we are guilty of, but each of us can remember something – a petty crime, a cruel act, a long-held grudge, a wish for an enemy to die in unendurable pain. The guilt-plague spreads from person to person. Cures are sought. If we could find one person who is not ridden by these guilt feelings, … [Read more...]
“Third Epistle to the Corinthians – What If…” / Memorable Fancies #645
Therefore I write these things being absent (2 Corinthians 13:10) In our last letter, Paul wrote "God saved us from dying in Asia, and he will save us again." But by now you know that Paul is dead in Rome, and Timothy in hiding. Before he died, Paul asked me to write you in his name, that you remain strong in the faith. I know how much you venerate the two letters he wrote you. You copy them to other churches. You settle doctrine with them. You decorate them with gold. You touch … [Read more...]
“For Demetrios, 226 A.D.” / Memorable Fancies #634
They say that few have been killed by the sweet forbearing god, never mind the shaking angry sky above or tyrant’s crushing rule below. No one but Demetrios was killed by the god, no, not even he, but only one of his thieving guards, splayed bleating on the altarstone, pressed down hard by some invisible hand until his various moistures leaked like rotten fruit. They say the sweet avenging god has left you for last, Demetrios! <END> THE SUNDAY … [Read more...]