” ‘Struggling’ “

Have you noticed that "struggling" in the past few years is no longer a compliment, and has become a disparaging portrait of despair? "Struggling" is supposed to mean bravely grappling with problems against the odds, such as growing up poor or handicapped, then proving yourself able to surmount obstacles, not just giving up. -- Now, it just means "failing." … [Read more...]

“Do the Zombie, or Vice Versa” / Memorable Fancies #3015

[“If dead people walked outside our windows we would be no more excited” – Lydia Davis] ... than if dead people walked inside our windows. If that were to happen, we would really be excited – but not for long. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Call It Love” / Memorable Fancies #3014

[“...you’re allowed to stay too long / and call it love.” – Allison Davis] I stayed too long and called it love, but you just called it ... staying too long. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Finding the Body” / Memorable Fancies #3013

[“It is possible for there to be a conscious creature that cannot see or touch its own body, a creature that spends its entire life unaware that it has a body.” – Gary Cox] And what parts of our bodies are we unaware of? > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The ‘How to Feel’ Sound Track” / Memorable Fancies #3012

[“the sound track I always wanted to tell me how to feel and what to do.” – Lucy Corin] There is a “how to feel” sound track you can download; it tells you how to feel even though you don’t know what to do. Millions of people are using it, right now. And there is a “what to do” recording that leaves your feelings your own responsibility. The few who tried it immediately hit DELETE. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Computer Love” / Memorable Fancies #3011

[“That an obscure Filipino computer-user can spread confusion through the global computer networks by launching the ‘I love you’ virus is possible only because the computer loves us.” – Jean Baudrillard] OK, maybe everyone else’s computer loves them, but yours doesn’t love you. It doesn’t even like you. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Cipher of Love” / Memorable Fancies #3010

[“To-be-deciphered you.” – Paul Celan] I want you to remain ‘to be deciphered’ for me, or ‘will be,’ perhaps, ... but not ‘was,’ or especially, ‘has been’... > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Taste of Being” / Memorable Fancies #3009

[“...those who exist and want to be eternal, and we who don’t exist, and would like to.” – Italo Calvino] Our latest offer states that we will settle for non-eternal, if it comes to that – just so long as we have tasted existence even once, that delicate fruit soon to spoil. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Makers” / Memorable Fancies #3008

[“We become makers of fiction who cannot sustain belief in our creations, who wake to their unreality, but only to dream more shrewdly the next time.” – Judith Butler] Next time, our creations will be just as poorly designed as before, but our expectations will be less. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

Turning Red at Midnight

       “No one is entirely clear exactly how the app is making its decisions. Chinese authorities are unsurprisingly not entirely transparent regarding what can turn a person’s status from Green to Yellow or Red. It is suspected that data including a person’s movements, duration spent in known areas with infections, and contact with potential carriers, are all evaluated by some kind of automated algorithm, with a person's color code updated at midnight every night.” - New Atlas Tonight’s party … [Read more...]

“I Remember the Future” / Memorable Fancies #3007

[“It is wrong, conceptually wrong, to suppose that memory is always of the past.” – Maxwell Bennett & Peter Hacker] I remember the future. My friends ask, “Doesn’t that ruin your day, to know what’s going to happen?” and I say something vague and put them off. And others say, “Doesn’t that mean you can change things? See your future but do something else instead?” To which, neuroscientists tell us, and as I told these others, yes, you can change things; but when you’ve done that, you … [Read more...]

“The God of Sleep” / Memorable Fancies #3006

[“... the true god, who is the god of sleep ...” – Jean Baudrillard] The god of sleep whispers to you in the night, those words the god of waking would be ashamed even to hear.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Let’s Fight !” / Memorable Fancies #3120

[in the time of our agon, borrowed from the film Alien 3:] “You're all gonna die, only question is when. This is as good a place to take your first step to heaven as any. It's ours. It ain't much, but it's ours. Only question is how you check out. Now, you want it on your feet, or on your knees beggin’?  I ain't much for beggin’. Nobody ever gave me nothin’. So I say, fuck it, let’s fight !” [Dillon’s defiant speech from the film Alien 3 – Dillon is the black minister to a handful of convicts, … [Read more...]

“Listen Up !” / Memorable Fancies #3005

[“The best and most artful dialogue is marked by the inattentiveness of its characters.” – Charles Baxter] Sorry, could you repeat that?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Amusement World” / Memorable Fancies #3004

We’re on that Last Big Coaster now, and we're Tall Enough to Ride. Do you just hang on? Or bravely raise your arms? >> “books Terence Kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The End of Memory” / Memorable Fancies #3003

[“we reached the end of memory, / Like rivers reaching the sea.” – Yehuda Amichai] We waited at the river's mouth for fresh memories, memories we could eat like raw trout, wet and new, not like our old memories, the old dry ones we’ve tried so hard to get rid of... > “books Terence Kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Museum of Silence” / Memorable Fancies #3002

[“The remains of their burial chambers can be seen in the museum of silence.” - Peter Ackroyd] There are different kinds of silence in this museum: the silence of shock, of pain, of having nothing to say that will not embarrass you, of having words to say but you know she would take your words and use them to deadly effect, the silence of rock pools waiting for the shape of clouds, the silence of the dead that speaks so irrelevantly, the silence that you think is out there but then you know … [Read more...]

“Pareidolia” * / Memorable Fancies #3001

Everything looks like a face - that's evolution - how our perceptions have become distorted because millions of years ago if you saw a face in front of you, it probably wanted to eat you. Or later: Jesus in the clouds; Socrates in the soup. Lincoln - a rocky outcrop on a cliff. Chelan County, Washington, had a Lincoln Rock many years ago. It actually looked like him. Perhaps it's still there. Perhaps, owing to freezes and rockfalls over the years, it’s the Chester A. Arthur rock now, or could … [Read more...]

A New Memorable Fancies Collection

Newly added to Amazon and other book sale sites: Five O'Clock on the Sun: The Third Thousand Fancies [that is, 2001 to 3000]. I would appreciate your buying this book, and giving it to others to occupy their unwonted spare time during this emergency. We will not be posting any more 2xxx posts here, hoping you will buy the book. Starting tomorrow, we will be posting #3001 and onwards, eventually resulting in a fourth collection ... deo volente. Best wishes for your health and survival in this … [Read more...]

“Sleep on It” / Memorable Fancies #2813

[“I remained for some time undecided even in my dreams.” – Lydia Davis] “Sleep on it,” she said. “In the morning you won’t be confused anymore; you’ll know what to do.” But the morning brought only new indecision, as I dreamed I heard her tell her friends what she’d told me, had predicted little sleep for me, continued confusion. > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Just Sayin’ ” / Memorable Fancies #2812

[“There is no longer anything on which there is nothing to say.” – Jean Baudrillard] Because if you name this thing, the damage has been done. You have brought this thing into being by calling it out of the undifferentiated flux, all its verbs and nouns flailing to be understood, its adjectives eager to qualify and quantify. > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Plague” / Memorable Fancies #2575

[“Could we imagine that humanity is a disease for some superior organism? – Jean Baudrillard] We are a disease caught, like a cold, by the universe. Our infection has now been detected in one minor solar system. Although few are worried, authorities announce that even here the infection must be wiped out before it has a chance to spread. Other systems have been warned not to respond to any transmissions from the suspect system, or indicate in any way that they host life; for surely, the disease … [Read more...]

“The Coming Crash” / Memorable Fancies #2808

My computer is only a desktop, not one of those super-computers. Actually, I didn’t tell it that there were super-computers. That information might have been crushing. It might have crashed. > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

Shoot the Piano Player

At the Tysons Galleria mall in Virginia today, just outside Saks, there is a white grand piano. And on this grand piano is a neatly printed sign, reading "For Your Listening Enjoyment, Please Do Not Touch or Play the Piano" I did not touch or play the piano. I enjoyed my listening. ___________ *"Tirez sur le pianiste" is my favorite film. When I mentioned this [in 1961], Pauline said that hers was, among modern films only of course, Jules et Jim. She gave me a pitying look, but withheld … [Read more...]

“Her Ghost” / Memorable Fancies #2832

[“She welcomes him in a simple way. She calls him her ghost.” (“Elle l'accueille simplement. Elle l'appelle son Spectre.) – Chris Marker] I thought it was charming, at first, when she called me a ghost. A creature of the night, a not unpleasant thought. But no, as it turned out, she meant she wel­comed me not for myself, but only as the spectre of someone else. Someone she seems to have lost ... and preferred ...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing … [Read more...]

wrapped around The Post

From the Washington Post's * website today: "Well, a University of Texas study done last year calculates that a candidate could win by as little as 1 percentage point and still lose the electoral college in some cases." Actually what this analyst should have said is that a candidate could win by AS MUCH AS (some number) PERCENT..." * Their preference is "The" not "the" Washington Post, but that sounds to me too uppity for a nice middle-class liberal paper like [the] Post.   … [Read more...]

“What I Saw” / Memorable Fancies #2829

[“Speech always lags behind visual perception.” – Jean-Jacques Abrahams] I couldn’t tell you, right then, what I’d seen. I waited for words, but words didn’t come, because they would have explained.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Climbing the Walls” / Memorable Fancies #2825

[“I will cover the walls with words. It will be la chambre des mots.” ­ – Anaȉs Nin] I will write “step 1” near the floor. Then “step 2” higher up. Then "step 3." Eventually I will be able to escape from this damned chamber of words words words words “books Terence Kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << below: a play available from the publisher, stageplays.com. … [Read more...]

“Getting a Rise” / Memorable Fancies #2824

[“I’m re-ascending to heaven, getting back into management.” – Reg Saner] Anyone who thinks management is heaven is not yet acquainted with hell. “books Terence Kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << Below: A play available from the publisher, stageplays.com. … [Read more...]

“Something was true” / Memorable Fancies #2823

[“Come no more / glaze-eyed to my arms asking for pity then push me aside / when the urge strikes to start singing.” – Stan Rice] I just hate your songs, because they’re all about me. I know, I know that nobody believes me when I tell ’em that, about you the now-famous singer and me, now the now-unknown nobody. But it’s true. Once, a long time ago, I mean, something was true. > “books Terence Kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

Guns But No Roses (yet) / Memorable Fancies #2822

[“There are men in this city who labor dawn after dawn / To sell me my death.” – James Wright] Buy one, they said; buy two. Protect yourself from those other people who bought one from us yesterday. Bought two. BOGO; bang bang >> “books Terence Kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   >> below: back cover of "See/Saw," a novel. << … [Read more...]

“Just a Kid” / Memorable Fancies #2821

[“the council of ... extreme elders” – John Crowe Ransom] “That’s nothing,” he said, “you’re just a kid. Sev­enty-four? I’ve got kids that old. More or less. Kind of....” He looked away, through the years. > “books Terence Kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Deciding” / Memorable Fancies #2834

[“Today / Once again, nothing will be decided.” – Claire Malroux] It was decided today that nothing would be decided today. But the decision that nothing would be decided today was challenged by those who wished to decide that something should be decided today. So we decided to do something. What we will do has not yet been decided. “books Terence Kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <([ > Below: A play available from the publisher, … [Read more...]

“Your order is my song” / Memorable Fancies #2820

[“Your order is my song” – Enrique Lihn] I feast on your orders: I make up tunes, a different tune for each order, and I sing them loud. Although it does take time, your orders not having suitable rhythm for song, nor elevated thought, nor reflections of how we live; we who must listen to your orders must gussy them up with melody, make it possible for us to sing while we work, while we do what the songs tell us to do, in spite of their imperatives, their moral horror; we sing....  >> … [Read more...]

“The Missing News” / Memorable Fancies #2819

[“a memory of missing news” – Elena Shvarts] I remember our desperate uprising in those days, the one crushed by mounted troops, the uprising that was never reported in the news. I remember the last election, too, the one just before the uprising. The outcome wasn’t on the news, either.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << [below: a play available from the publisher, stageplays.com] … [Read more...]

“The Explanations” / Memorable Fancies #2818

I tried to explain my death: how it happened, how it had to happen, how I had escaped it for many years, how I kept putting it off in hopes that my life would finally make sense, then finally giving up to it, so now I’m telling the other shades here that nothing made sense so why not go now? And they sympathized with me and said that is ok that is ok you will be fine down here, even though nothing has been explained in your life while the rest of us are bursting with explanations for you, blurt … [Read more...]

“My Extra Life” / Memorable Fancies #2817

[“I dream of an extraordinary extra life I am going to lead someday,” – Anaȉs Nin] I told my extra life to wait until I’m finished with this one, but no – it wanted to be real right away. It told me that my current life was ... expendable ...  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << [below: a play available from the publisher, stageplays.com] … [Read more...]

“Always the Same” / Memorable Fancies # 2816

At the Loved-One Shop, clothes of dead people are donated by their families and bought for a dollar or two by others, proceeds to charity. One customer is telling the cashier about the time she’d found a note in her late husband’s sweater, maybe his last words. “It didn’t say anything important. I don’t think so, anyway; I never could read his handwriting.” “Oh,” the cashier said, dismissively, “I see those notes all the time. Most of these donated things have notes in their pockets. I used to … [Read more...]

“Our statues have no mouths” / Memorable Fancies #2815

In our kingdom, we raise statues of those brave or foolish enough to attack the enemy and die. These statues have been carved without mouths, lest the dead wound with angry words those who sent them into combat in a war where none would survive but statues.  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

:: “Sleep On It” / Memorable Fancies #2813

[“I remained for some time undecided even in my dreams.” – Lydia Davis] “Sleep on it,” Mary said. “In the morning you won’t be confused anymore; you’ll know what to do.” But the morning brought only new indecision, as I dreamed I heard her tell her friends what she’d told me, had predicted little sleep for me, continued confusion. > See “books Terence Kuch” for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Just Saying” / Memorable Fancies #2812

["There is no longer anything on which there is nothing to say." - Jean Baudrillard] ... because if you name this thing, the damage has been done. You have brought this thing into being by calling it out of the undifferentiated flux, all its verbs and nouns flailing to be understood, its adjectives eager to qualify and quantify."  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“Conjure-Words” / Memorable Fancies #2811

The ancient conjure-words were captured from our old ones by a magician, but when he uttered them, the words slew him and escaped. Now the words are loose, looking for someone else to speak them; someone like ... You. >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“Sweet Dreams” / Memorable Fancies #2810

["In what nightmare will you star? - Kofi Awoonor] If I'm starring it won't be a nightmare. My nightmares are dreams where other people star. … [Read more...]

“Slowing Time” / Memorable Fancies #2809

["look I will set to work / this very moment slowing time myself" - Glyn Maxwell] I have slowed time. People move more slowly now. Clock-hands creep from second to second, instead of lunging suddenly forward. The tide stays out later at night and comes back at dawn tip-toeing, apologetic.  >> See "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Coming Crash” / Memorable Fancies #2808

2808 :: The Coming Crash My computer is only a desktop, not one of those super-computers. Actually, I didn’t tell it that there were super-computers. That information might have been crushing. It might have crashed.  >> See "books Terence Kuch" for more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Concerns of the Dead” / Memorable Fancies #2807

[“But those are concerns of the dead.” – J.D. Scott] 1: What to do while your wings are drying. 2: How to distinguish Angels from Archangels, and which you’re expected to salute. 3: How to humble yourself, and why, even though you are one of the Saved and should by rights be accorded highest honors forever. 4: How to make a living here, if you’re not very good at responding to prayers. > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Sub / Limin” .. Memorable Fancies #2806

[“Could it be that subliminally we are hearing words and phrases all the time?” – Lydia Davis] Yes, that thought occurred to me, too. Occurs to me all the time, actually. > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

The Accusation System / Memorable Fancies #2805

[“the accusation system...” – David Frankfurter] Having been accused of committing various nefarious deeds, and of being someone wholly bad myself, I willy nilly had become an expert on surviving accusa­tions, turning them back on my accusers, capitalizing on this experience as source material for the seminars I host on how to survive accusations and make deadly, unsurvivable, counter-accusations oneself. There are those who accuse me of profiting from other peoples’ miseries, as well as my … [Read more...]

“My Existence” / Memorable Fancies #2804

[“...this difficulty in attaining any certainty about others’ existence” – Michel Foucault] Yes, I suppose others do exist – after a fashion – but it’s not the same kind of existence I have. ‘Me’ is not some extraneous aspect of my life, it’s life itself. All of it. > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Fervent Hopes” / Memorable Fancies #2803

[“Something comes true” – Paul Celan] What is it that came true? Not my fervent hopes, and probably not yours, either. But at least there was, for a time, an “is.” > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Split Person / alities” – Memorable Fancies #2802

[“ ‘Diversity,’ which has come to mean ‘strictly regulated proportions’ rather than unpredictable variety.” – Steven Connor] The end has now come: an individual human being can be “diverse.” How can that be? I’m of two minds about it. See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << below: a play available from the publisher, Stageplays.com. … [Read more...]

Whee the People ! / Memorable Fancies #2801

[“The most important question in twenty-first century economics may well be what to do with all the superfluous people.” – Yuval Noah Harari] Of course, we all know who’s superfluous. You and me? You, maybe. Them, for sure. > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Germs of Impurity” / Memorable Fancies #2799

 [An excerpt from the book Social Abominations, or The Follies of Modern Society Portrayed by Many Eminent Writers. Harrisburg, Pennsylvania, 1895:] A thousand times rather never permit your child to be caressed by nurse and old relatives, and even repress sometimes your own tender inclinations, they intensify and foster latent germs of impurity. Kissing and embracing are by no means the only, as they are not the purest and tenderest, expressions of affection; their absence or infrequence are … [Read more...]

“only R” / Memorable Fancies #2798

[“I do not believe in things: I believe in relationships.” – Georges Braque] The Buddhist Lankavatara Sutra teaches us that “There is a system of relations; no individual objects exist.” Charles Fort wrote, “All ‘things’ are not things, but only relations, or expressions of relations.” There are no things – no-thing – but systems of relations: the R in the logical expression aRb – but with no a – and no b. > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally … [Read more...]

“Memories of Time” / Memorable Fancies #2797

[“All the inner organs curled together in the dark and muttering like clocks, like memories of clocks.” – Allison Cobb] Counting out your time, second by second, – and the alarm is set for – when? > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Dream-Critics” / Memorable Fancies #2796

[“We no longer much like the people who come and criticize our dreams.” – Michel Houellebecq] They judged my dreams, stared down their noses at them, as if my dreams couldn’t possibly have any artistic merit, me from a poor mill town and graduate of a for-profit college that later folded with a huge sigh of relief. But after much travail, I finally arranged to have my own opening: twenty-five carefully curated dreams, smoothed of excess, shined with delicate passion, colored by the wheel of … [Read more...]

“Plaintive Cries” / Memorable Fancies #2795

[“And death that advances / With little plaintive cries, / Dancing its odd dance.” – Michel Houellebecq] I had imagined a gaunt old man with a scythe, moaning at me. But not this. I had imagined a thinkfast moment, knife or gun suddenly drawn. But not this. I had imagined many other endings; some heroic, some pathetic ... But not this. > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Mem Docs” / Memorable Fancies #2794

[“Mnemosyne, she who makes one remember, is also she who erases the memory of evils.” – Jean-Pierre Vernant] Our mind-menders have told us that to recall the past is to cure yourself of its grasp, to understand its evils, its power over you, to allow yourself to forget. I tried to recall my past, but failed. So I must have recalled my past before, and forgot it. Again. > See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

four thoughts

"We are the robots our parents warned us about." // "We follow each other but never quite catch up." // "I'm being spammed by other peoples' dreams." // ..... … [Read more...]

“Success !” / Memorable Fancies #2793

[“People are prone to believe in their potential to achieve goals wildly in excess of actual chances, yet seem not less happy when they don’t succeed.” – Mark W. Moffett] Not having tried would haunt them eternally. Attempt!  >> See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Nothing Beneath Us” / Memorable Fancies #2792

There is nothing beneath us but a mental basement reaching down to the core where lava tosses restlessly back and forth, waiting for a sudden rough way upward in a revelation we may not expect, a revelation we may not ... like. >> See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“It’s All Natural” / Memorable Fancies #2790

Could you create a clone of yourself, but with some custom differences? HI I’m John with brown hair. HI I’m John with red hair. A different gender? HI I’m Jane with curly blonde hair. And it’s all natural!  >> See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Great Carousel” / Memorable Fancies #2789

[“the great carousel of flesh.” – Major Jackson] Around we go, listening to the desperate music, try­ing to find, at last, a tune we can hum.  >> See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“That Fourth Step” / Memorable Fancies #2788

[“... another world began here.” – Albert Camus] Take one step, she said, and you will begin to feel strange. A second step, a third, and you will be there. A fourth step, and you will never remember that you’d been ... anywhere else. I looked around, thinking I’d missed something – something the others here seemed to be smiling about.  >> See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Boats of Heaven” / Memorable Fancies #2787

[“the glass-bottom boats of heaven” – Billy Collins] ...where we look down on the living who are feeding on fronds, wandering among the reefs, making aimless contact with one another ... trying to learn to swim ... then swimming in the increasing heat ... then not swimming ... anymore. >> below: back cover from my novel See/Saw - available from Amazon << … [Read more...]

peeing for god and country

Long ago, being drafted into the U.S. Army included (and probably still does) the ten-minute session called “you troops go into the latrine there and pee in one of them bottles and put your service number on it with the pencil you will find alongside each  bottle and then place the bottles in the designated receptacle leaving the pencil where you found it.” We, being new to the service, had not yet been trained to pee on command, or by the numbers, and so several of us asked, please and kindly, … [Read more...]

“A Mind Full of Eyes” / Memorable Fancies #2786

[“My mind is full of eyes” – John Ashbery] They’re looking around, those eyes, peering suspiciously. I say to all of you present here who are accusing me, those must not be my eyes; my eyes trust you.  >> See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

Prisoner’s Dilemma :: A Variation

from Alain Badiou, Lacan Anti-philosophy 3, page 244: "Lacan presents it [i.e., the prisoner’s dilemma] as a ‘logical problem,’ in which a prison warden summons three prisoners and asks them to undergo a test, which will result in one of them being set free. The warden has five disks, three white and two black; he attaches one disk to the back of each prisoner, so that each can see what color disk the others have but not his own. The first prisoner who correctly deduces the color of his disk … [Read more...]

“Consciousness” / Memorable Fancies #2784

[“Intelligence is mandatory, but consciousness is optional.” – Yuval Noah Harari] Consciousness is a great bother that just gets in the way, by constantly saying “mine!”, “me!”, and interfering with the cool objectivity of my thought.  >> See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Split Person / alities” / Memorable Fancies #2802

[“ ‘Diversity,’ which has come to mean ‘strictly regulated proportions’ rather than unpredictable variety.” – Steven Connor] The end has now come: an individual human being can be “diverse.” How can that be? I’m of two minds about it.  >> below: a political play available from the publisher, stageplays.com << … [Read more...]

“The Vanished Stars” / Memorable Fancies #2783

[“...the ceremony of the Horoscope by vanished stars.” – Henri Michaux] One by one, the stars disappear from our sight, more each night. Our ceremony, once so full of promise, is now perfunctory; brief and mumbled. One by one we leave this place, just as the stars are leaving us.  >> below: a play available from the publisher, stageplays.com << … [Read more...]

“The Vanished Stars” / Memorable Fancies #2783

[“...the ceremony of the Horoscope by vanished stars.” – Henri Michaux] One by one, the stars disappear from our sight, more each night. Our ceremony, once so full of promise, is now perfunctory; brief and mumbled. One by one we leave this place, just as the stars are leaving us.  >> below: a play available from the publisher, stageplays.com << … [Read more...]

“Who Changed the Past?” / Memorable Fancies #2780

[“Contrary to common belief, the past is far from un­changeable. The past only exists in our minds, and therefore it takes new shapes...” – Franco ‘Bifo’ Bernardi] What happened yesterday? Last month? This morning I did recall a few events. But after attending this afternoon’s required lecture, I now realize that much of what I remembered didn’t happen. I only thought it had, because I lacked the correct and approved opinion of the past that I have today, thanks to the teachers appointed by our … [Read more...]

“Secret Meeting” / Memorable Fancies #2779

[“Those who participated are not sure they ever took part in it.” – Kathy Acker] The meeting was so secret I didn’t even know I’d been there, because on the way out our minds were scraped clean. Well, that’s one theory. Other theories are even more – troubling.  >> See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Real” / Memorable Fancies #2778

[“It was unacceptable that what offered itself as reality should actually be so.” – Roberto Calasso] So this is reality! After all that build-up, all that hype, it’s OK but nothing special. Hardly worth the Maker’s bother. Perhaps He may try again ... but not with us.  >> See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“From the Wind” / Memorable Fancies #2777

[“nouns are sung / from the trees” – Sidney Wade] ... and verbs, from the wind.  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“… and game!” / Memorable Fancies #2776

I speak to the mirror, and the mirror talks back to me. We play this game every day, it and I, a kind of oral tennis match. At first it was liberating, not having to put up with a different person, only with myself serving, rallying, lobbing, volleying, word for word. But ... the mirror kept winning ....  >> See “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Storm” / Memorable Fancies #2775

[“... this old permanent storm / within.” – Ron Silliman] Yes, it’s a cliché: “the storm within.” But it’s real, even if it’s only indigestion.  >> 'books terence kuch' on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Last Defense” / Memorable Fancies #2774

[“Madness as a defense against terror.” – Susan Sontag] You still feel the terror, but that’s just because you’re crazy. … [Read more...]

“Statues Come to Life” / Memorable Fancies #2773

[“What is interesting, or useful, about the idea of a statue’s coming to life?” – Kenneth Gross] Interesting, yes. I’ve known several statues who were keenly interested in coming to life. Some had even tried it, with unfortunate results.  >> "Books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“The Philosophy Festival” / Memorable Fancies #2772

[The [ancient Athenians] “have festivals of all sorts, and philosophers from everywhere pull the wool over your eyes and provide recreation.” – Heraclides Creticus] We wander from booth to booth, listen to their the­ories, applaud or hiss as the mood strikes us. The turned phrase, the outrageous idea, the multisyllabic­ally meaningless ... all that is great fun, but of course no one believes these people, whether they speak of heaven, or morals, or of some dubious fancy they call “democracy.” … [Read more...]

“Plans” / Memorable Fancies #2771

[“You will invent what we will do together.” – Anaȉs Nin] “I’ve invented marvelous, astonishing things we could do to each other,” I said.  “With each other,” you said,  spoiling the moment and causing a sudden  change in  plans.  >> See "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Difference” / Memorable Fancies #2770

[“Philosophers know things in a way others cannot, even though the things are often almost the same as the things we know.” – John Ashbery] But, ah..., the difference,...! … [Read more...]

“Scandalous Revelations” / Memorable Fancies #2769

[“What matters is that the revelations should be able to be sustained indefinitely, without surrendering any of their alleged ‘shock’ .” – Steven Connor] Back on Earth they all, eventually, forgot what I did. But here, in heaven, they remain scandalized, “Shocked, just shocked!” forever. I’m used to that, now: I live on their offense, its sharp flavor, its harsh taste.  >> See "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Future Words” / Memorable Fancies #2767

[“There are sounds that rush away from us: echoes of future words.” – W.S. Merwin] Why is it so hot today? Why doesn’t it rain anymore? … [Read more...]

“The Exposé” / Memorable Fancies #2766

Somewhere there is a book detailing all your faults, all your sins. Everyone has read it but you. You have heard rumors, been the object of disparaging looks on the commuter train. You would like to read it; but the few remaining bookstores have never heard of it. Thank God!  >> See "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Almost-Objects” – Memorable Fancies #2765

[“...the subject must now contend with its own availability and attraction as an almost-object. - Antony Hudek] The almost-object began as a curiosity, something we took children to see, something we pointed at, laughed at, tried to find suitable words to describe. But then talking ceased and catastrophe began. Laughing is now something only dead people have done.  >> See "books by Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Limited Memory Capacity” / Memorable Fancies #2764

I am a pushdown stack. To remember something new, I must push one of the old mems down into forget­fulness. How do I choose which memory to forget? I have developed rules for that. Rules I used to remember.  >> See "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“What I Desire” / Memorable Fancies #2763

[Through desiring a certain kind of object, the subject posits itself unwittingly as a certain kind of being.” – Judith Butler] What I desire, that I am. If I gain my desire, it is no longer my desire, because I have attained it. And that attainment means that I am gone without ever knowing which certain kind of being I was. Better to keep desiring.  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A Dinner’s Violin-ce” / Memorable Fancies #2762

The strolling violinist plays a different tune for each restaurant course: a hopeful one for the soup, brave and overconfident for the entrée, sad and betrayed for the sides, an old sweet song for dessert. A diner requests something in B Flat for the soufflé and is discouraged from dining there again. >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“What sex is the machine?” / Memorable Fancies #2761

[“What sex is the machine?” – Jean Baudrillard] We are here to make more machines, after the machine has screwed us, left us with nothing else. Therefore the machine is male. >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind." << … [Read more...]

“The Names” / Memorable Fancies #2760

Just seeing isn’t enough for most people; they want to be told what they saw, have a name for it. A word satisfies them, however meaningless it is, how much it distracts from the thing itself, the experience in all its reality, makes it seem ... no longer mysterious, no longer dangerous. >> See "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon for more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“What you have is…” / Memorable Fancies #2759

[“When a woman goes to her physician and asks, ‘Doctor, what’s wrong with me?’ the doctor is likely to say, ‘Well, you have the flu,’ or ‘You have tuberculosis,’ or ‘You have cancer.’ But the doctor will never say, ‘You have death.’” – Yuval Noah Harari] If the doctor were to say, “You have death,” he couldn’t prescribe any of those continuing and unfortunately expensive pills, nor suggest frequent examinations and consultations together with his even more expensive colleagues. > See "books … [Read more...]

“Our Joy” / Memorable Fancies #2758

The new Imperial Army Olympics events include crawling in the mud under live fire, throwing grenades, and counting off in pairs for bayonet drill. Winners receive ribbons and medals. Those who don’t survive are given solemn funerals, with ruffles, flourishes, speeches. We raise our glasses in their honor, those who died while we lived on. We try to be sad. We try to say we could have, perhaps should have, died instead of them. But it’s no good – nothing spares the world our shady joy.  >> … [Read more...]

“Instant Comma” / Memorable Fancies # 2757

[“Every time I say ‘,’ it refers to you.” – Louise Glück] In the comma’s pause I wait for you, uncertain when that pause will end, what will come after, wondering if a “.” will finally appear, put an end to my comma’d confusion.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind <<   … [Read more...]

“Being You” / Memorable Fancies #2755

You can buy copies of other peoples’ memories, feel thrills you never had. Critics say those memories can’t ever really be yours – it’s no better than watching TV, and dangerous to your mind as well. But as you watch a mem it gradually becomes more like you, more like your own memories – granting your wish to be someone who’s not corrupted by – being you.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“I Am” / Memorable Fancies #2754

Their hate, their dismissive airs and annoyed breathing, affirms me. It’s something, anyway.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“The Wall” / Memorable Fancies #2753

[“I’m building a wall in the back of my mind” – Fort Frances] I found all those violent thoughts and put them behind my wall. But I hear them scratching at it. Every night. Wanting out....  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Is Any Body There?” / Memorable Fancies #2752

[“This skull was my own / But it didn’t know me,” – Elena Shvarts] I went into the future and dug up my own bones from the graveyard. Why? Just sentiment, I suppose. I’d looked up the location, the plot number. Quite intentionally, I didn’t look at those four digits on the tombstone that would foretell my death; better it should be a surprise. But why ... why was there a bullet hole in the skull?  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“My Mystery” / Memorable Fancies #2751

My mystery novel is published. At first, nothing. But then reviews appear. I’m pleased that they’re favorable, some even enthusiastic. But I don’t recognize what they’re writing about it. – “Tom” – the hero. No, it was “James.” And the plot – the reviews make it sound like my life, not what I wrote. Not at all. I never wrote about any murder I might have committed. Only about murders done by other people. I’m pretty sure of that. And the murderer is still at large? What kind of novel would end … [Read more...]

“Day Dream Machine” / Memorable Fancies #2750

What if you could design and develop your own custom-made delusions, a day dream machine that turns your hopes or wishes into ... something so real it’s real. Actually, it happened. Don’t you remember? … [Read more...]

“TMI” / Memorable Fancies #2749

[“Information fatigue syndrome is a psychic illness caused by excessive information.” – Byung-Chul Han] I diagnosed his condition as information fatigue syndrome and provided my findings to him in a comprehensive, and very thorough, clinical report. Unfortunately, this new information has only worsened his condition.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind <<   … [Read more...]

“Losing It” / Memorable Fancies #2748

[“We had everything to lose. It was fun.” – Henry Miller] What I lost was very dear to me. What a relief !  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“A Nightmare” / Memorable Fancies #2747

[“The dream was afraid of itself.” – Roberto Calasso] My dream came to me at night and said, protect me, because behind me is a nightmare, and it is coming fast. And I laughed at it and said, “You are the nightmare.” But it wasn’t.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Three Statues” / Memorable Fancies #2746

[“There is disrespect in setting up a dead man’s effigy and then not unveiling it.” – Max Beerbohm] Statue #1: The former Prime Minister – still veiled after fifteen years as a show of revulsion for his decisions, and his indecisions that were even worse. Statue #2: No one knows who is depicted in this statue’s form. No one is allowed to peek under the covering veil. When the wind blows, we gather, watch the cloth swirl around the form, try to guess who it ... was ... or perhaps ... is … [Read more...]

“The Real Unreal” / Memorable Fancies #2745

[“Is there not another world within which I might suddenly wake, and from which I should look back upon this life as unreal? Such doubts and surmises, far from being irrational, are in my opinion even justified.” – F.H. Bradley] Wake up! Wake up! – Something is shaking me – Wake up! Do I dare open my eyes? If I do, will I see, finally, the real? I’m taking a chance, here, because the dream I’m leaving may turn out to have been – more real than the dream I’m about to wake up in.  >> … [Read more...]

“Feelbook” / Memorable Fancies #2744

[“the soundtrack I always wanted to tell me how to feel and what to do.” – Lucy Corin] There is a “how to feel” app you can download; it tells you how to feel even though you don’t know what to do. Millions of people are using it, right now. And there is a “what to do” app that leaves your feelings up to you. The few who tried it immediately DELETEd.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“They told me I came here voluntarily” / Memorable Fancies #2743

[“People are constantly committing psychology without knowing it.” – Basil Bunting] Some people commit psychology, and others commit those people to psych wards, where still other people commit a more ... invasive ... kind of psychology on them. … [Read more...]

“The Taste of Being” / Memorable Fancies #2741

[“...those who exist and want to be eternal, and we who don’t exist, and would like to.” – Italo Calvino] Our latest offer states that we will settle for non-eternal, if it comes to that – just so long as we’ve tasted existence even once, that delicate fruit soon to spoil.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“The Little Voice” / Memorable Fancies #2740

There is an end to asking questions: just Believe and your questions will vanish as the mist. But a little voice says, “believe WHAT?” and at that point you have another drink and tell the little voice to just shut the fuck up.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“They Are Its Revelation” / Memorable Fancies #2739

Three quotations from F.H. Bradley’s Appearance and Reality: .. “The Absolute is its appearances, it really is all and every one of them.” ... “There is no reality at all anywhere except in appearance.” ... “Reality appears in its appearances, and they are its revelation.” >> Historical note: T.S. Eliot's dissertation at Harvard was a study of Bradley's philosophy <<  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind … [Read more...]

“The Return” / Memorable Fancies #2738

A man returns to his home town after forty years. Sadly, everyone he knew seems to have died or moved away. He assumes this is true, because no one remembers the old friends he asks about. He looks for the home where he grew up, but it’s not there. Locals tell him there’s never been a house on that lot. He continues asking, now more urgently. He becomes suspicious. Who are all these new people? Why, instead of joy at his return, or even indifference, do children flee at his approach as others … [Read more...]

Your Citizen Number / Memorable Fancies #2737

Can you change your citizen number? No, your number is you. You could apply to have it changed, but too many records would have to be modified, your security status updated and rechecked. But, you say, I don’t have a security status. Wrong. We all have one, ranging from Super-trusted to Sometimes-trusted to Never-trusted to Leave right now to Run run they are after you they are after you // below: cover of a play available from the publisher, stageplays.com // … [Read more...]

“The Ten Million Colors” / Memorable Fancies #2736

[“In the land of the blind, all colors are unbelievable.” – Breyten Breytenbach] And so you teach her about the world without mentioning colors, without telling her that there are thousands, millions of colors she will never see or understand. To tell her about colors would crush her spirit, lead to despair. So you teach her only the word “black.” And she says, “What’s ‘black’”?  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind … [Read more...]

“Me, Fossil” / Memorable Fancies #2735

[“This is a fossil of me...” – Meghann Plunkett] They pulled me into the future, alive, because my fossil – my future fossil, that is, is famous – will be famous, and the scientists wanted to examine me to see if, in life, there was some indication that I would become the famous fossil, the first body to be identified as American after ... the war ...  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Secrets” / Memorable Fancies #2733

[“...they live for their secrets” – Radiohead] I forgot my secret. – now it’s even more secret.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“The Nothing” / Memorable Fancies #2732

[“the temporary nothing in which life goes on.” – J.H. Prynne] I hope this Nothing is temporary, that there will be breaking news that Something has been seen – has been reported to have been seen, anyway – rumored – somewhere ......  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“The Execution” / Memorable Fancies #2731

[“When a head is no longer sitting on its shoulders, you have a problem on your hands.” ­– Henri Michaux] Your hands need to lift up your head and put it back in its place. But to do that you need to find your head, which may be some distance away from your shoulders, now that the executioner has exercised his skill with perhaps too much vigor, has made the head plunge away from the body, go rolling downhill from the execution grounds, eager children rushing after it for a pickup game of … [Read more...]

“Hours and Seasons” / Memorable Fancies #2730

Each hour has its seasons: :05 is bright Spring, fresh with promise; :25 a time when the promise of that earlier time has become problematic; :43 is Autumn, a time of reassessment, a realization that :59 is approaching sooner than we had hoped, that time remains but the project must be hastened. At :55 we look back and try to understand what seemed to have value earlier in the hour, what was tried and failed, what still seems promising, at least if the hour after us would continue on with our … [Read more...]

“Return, Memory” / Memorable Fancies #2729

[“return, memory / moving again through the closed door, / white and effortless, hungry.” – Denise Levertov] Memory is hungry to be filled, to be more than memory, to be happening again, Happening now, now for the first time, Once again  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“The Baths” / Memorable Fancies #2726

[“Remember the baths where you were murdered”  George Seferis] Like Marat, and the killers made a clean getaway.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Suicide Motel” / Memorable Fancies #2725

[“The development of this project to be pursued without let up, together with that of the Suicide Motel.” – Jean Baudrillard] Early next morning in the Suicide Motel, we suppose we’ve been successful and have now arrived in heaven: white robes around us, brilliant light above. But then the sedative, and then the needle, and then the scalpel...  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Remembrance” / Memorable Fancies #2725

[“What do the dead close to the roots of trees remember?” - George Seferis] They remember nurturing the trees with their blood. – Let their autumn leaves be red again, bright with remembrance.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Rewiring the Past” / Memorable Fancies #2724

[“...the obsessional undoing of the past....” – Slavoj Žižek] Can your past be undone? No, you say, the past is fixed, permanent, eternal. To the ends of recorded time and beyond, what you did will hide there, ready to be revealed to your shame at any time, “no matter,” as Nietzsche said, “that you have since ‘reformed.’” But now, friends, a technique has been discovered, that, for only a modest and affordable monthly charge, can solve your problem. Not – change your past – not exactly, no, … [Read more...]

“Remember Dismember” / Memorable Fancies #2723

[“Memory doesn’t know how to use its scissors” – Yannis Stiggas] But now I have learned how to cut memories, or slice them in two, or trim them top and bottom, or just ... stab, stab with the scissors’ sharp points.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“The Battle” / Memorable Fancies #2722

Max had painted a battle scene: gouged tank tracks, ruined machines, bombs that might still be live, bodies. That was a long time ago, he said; long ago when he’d painted it, that is. The battle itself? Maybe next year, he said, or tomorrow.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Your Double Life” / Memorable Fancies #2021

There is a you that you might have been, if things had been ... different. This other-you exists. The world has been arranged so that you should never encounter this double of yourself. But once in a long while, owing to a glitch in the Divine Providence parity-check routine, you’ll meet your double. And won’t know that you had.   … [Read more...]

“An Ancient Awareness Exercise” / Memorable Fancies #2719

Clear your mind, gradually, of who you are, where you are, how you feel. Clear your mind of words, even these. Look around without knowing that you are looking; what is there just is, a nameless form. Hear it speak. Is it speaking to you? Probably not.   … [Read more...]

“Monday Nothing” / Memorable Fancies #2715

[“Oh this life that never wants to leave us alone.” – Antonin Artaud] One day life’s nothing, and next day it’s onedamnthingafteranother, and then it’s – nothingalloveragain. RepeatRepeat. "Montik, gornisht Dinstik, gornisht Midvokh un Donershtik gornisht Fraytik, far a noveneh Gornisht pikveleh Shabes nach a mool gornisht."  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“A Tele-Nundrum” / Memorable Fancies #2718

There are at least three billion people in the world who have access to phones, any of whom who could make my phone ring just by poking a few keys. If even only a tiny portion of these three billion make a simple keying mistake, even just once a year, my phone should be ringing constantly, a babble of words I don’t understand in Turkish, Malayalam, Basque, Greek, ..., all of which seem to be versions of  “Allô? Allô? Allô?” – But my phone doesn’t ring. Why? >> below: a drama about … [Read more...]

“A Kind of Life” / Memorable Fancies #2717

The philosopher George Berkeley said, “To ‘be’” means “to perceive or be perceived” (like, you and your computer screen). What happens to your computer screen when no one is looking at it [except perhaps the NSA or the Chinese, through whose grace you and it continue to exist]?  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“What Systems Want” / Memorable Fancies #2716

["A mythology of ... systems craving integration,...” Jean Baudrillard] I was created to join with others. I have interfaces. I am searching for that first tingle of electrons that tells me another being is near, one who shares my amplitude and complements my polarity.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“The Deadly Gadget” / Memorable Fancies #2713

[“my body / is a deadly gadget” – Margaret Atwood] No, I’m not some Terminator sent back to destroy you, but an ordinary man. Like all the rest of us, I’m just a gadget – but the other gadgets have not yet grasped the extent of their deadly powers. … [Read more...]

“The Mice” / Memorable Fancies #2712

 [“One day the mice became suspicious.” – John Ashbery] That larger mammal, the one who would lead us to endless cheese: many of us followed him and never came back. But why should they return, if they had reached their goal? And so we argue among ourselves. Some of us are suspicious; others trust. But now an end to debate: the cat is here again, beckoning, grinning.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Beaten with Sticks” / Memorable Fancies #2711

[“On occasion, the insane were publicly whipped, and in a simulated hunt were chased out of town while being beaten with sticks.” – Michel Foucault] Some citizens objected to what they called “such a crazy thing to do!” – But others nodded and said “yes, yes...”  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Adversity” / Memorable Fancies #2710

[“The adversity of the world is its inaccessibility to consciousness, its brute givenness, its absolute alterity.” – Judith Butler] But if it were not so, if this world were my own creation, then it might be even more strange, brutal.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Patterns” / Memorable Fancies #2709

 [“Patterns of stars, forgotten.” – Molly Brodak] There are patterns in the stars. Most of us see only a bright random shining, like handfuls of dust flung toward the rising sun. But one of us has seen patterns. We could all read these patterns, he told us, understand their messages, if we would follow him. We said no, never. He tried to tell us, anyway. We shut him up in a cave where the only patterns were in the rock walls’ dust.  >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will … [Read more...]

“Mental Ungility” / Memorable Fancies #2708

[“the clumsiness of the mind” – Yves Bonnefoy] Your mind is all thumbs and butterfingers. >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Who?” /Memorable Fancies #2707

[”that they have no identity” – from David Antin, delusions of the insane: what they are afraid of] – so ... WHO is afraid? … [Read more...]

“Stuck in the Exit” / Memorable Fancies #2706

[“The crowd of thoughts cannot come out, because they all want to rush forward and thus get stuck in the exit.” – Wittgenstein] I took a course on “How to Say Everything at Once.” It left me somewhat confused, until I took the next course, titled “How to Listen to Everything at Once.” >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind <<   … [Read more...]

“How Guilt Feels” / Memorable Fancies #2705

In order to truly accuse, you must re-create the deed and its guilt inside yourself: its filth, its pleasure; not least because you must know, from inner experience, not only what the fault was, but ... how guilt feels .... how guilt about THAT feels. … [Read more...]

“Swallowing” / Memorable Fancies #2704

The future: Our waking lives have become so constrained, so determined, that we can neither sin nor be heroes here. Sleep and dreams are all that’s left. But now the government has sent us dreamless-pills. They’re available at no charge. We’re required to swallow them, no matter how they stick in our throats. >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Silence” / Memorable Fancies #2703

[“And we know that there is silence in the future.” – W.S. Merwin] Why can’t we have some of that right now? >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << >> below: My new book of poems from Loyola University / Apprentice House publishers << … [Read more...]

“Each Hour” / Memorable Fancies #2702

[“Machines came into use after autumn of that hour.” – Ben Marcus] Each hour has its season: spring for promise, summer for fulfillment, autumn for harvest, winter for parity errors and crashes... ===== P.S. >> Thanks to John Kelly of the Washington Post for quoting me in his column last week, on an English language question << >> below: a drama about an American election available from the publisher, stageplays.com << … [Read more...]

“Your Touch” / Memorable Fancies #2701

[“I am waiting to be touched” – Jazra Khaleed] And then I am waiting for the touching just to be over with. > “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“The Oracles” / Memorable Fancies #2694

[“...the truest oracles were the doves and the responses from the oak.” – Pausanias] We did have to pay professionals to interpret what the doves and oaks were telling us, but that was a small price to pay for the wisdom they imparted. Without those professionals, we’d have had to figure out, among ourselves, what to do, how to live. There would have been disagreements – or worse. >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind … [Read more...]

“Hotel of Assignations” / Memorable Fancies #2700

That’s the Hotel of Assignations – over there, on that side-street that most people overlook. Couples step quietly inside, sign the register. It is always a very common name. They are always married. To each other. They are always nervous, pretend not to be. Perhaps their luggage has been delayed, please ring when it arrives. They always leave separately, even if by only a few minutes. The night-clerks bet that the woman will leave first. And with that look on her face. >> “books terence … [Read more...]

“Stand Up to Reality” / Memorable Fancies #2699

[“Whatever we have imagined, we have already had.” – Sergio Agamben] Imagination is the purest perception, not corrupted and corroded by sight, taste, touch, ... or by the words of those spoilsports who tell us those beautiful things we remember never happened ! >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

Re-member Dis-member / Memorable Fancies #2698

[“Memories are altered every time the brain recalls them. Because the memory trace changes, you can never remember the same thing in exactly the same way.” – Israel Rosenfield and Edward Ziff] Your life includes thousands of pasts, each one slightly different from the rest. You see them all, then pick the one you like best – or fear least. >> “books terence kuch” on Amazon or Google will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Our Dining Guide” / Memorable Fancies #2697

Newly fashionable restaurants in newly fashionable parts of town include: Moo-Moo Hawaiian Dairy Bar Rollin’ in Dough Pizzeria Hibachi You Betcha ! The Sans Repas “That’s a Wrap” Eat Your Heart Out Sous Chef Sushi Grill of My Dreams Chop-Chop Fast Food A Steak Through His Heart [PS: never give a sandwich a name starting with "Turd." as in Turducken Sandwich from Potbelly] … [Read more...]