“Our Myths” / Memorable Fancies #3255

[“a book of myths in which our names do not appear” – Adrienne Rich]        We scan the book quickly, fearing that myths whispered about us will make us the monsters, not their gallant foes, that we might be portrayed as those who run away before phantoms.        But no, none of that. We do not run before phantoms only because we are not in that book, nor any others.        We do not find even blank pages where we could – … [Read more...]

“The Cave” / Memorable Fancies #3385

[“The cave downstairs ... And what hangs out there” – Denise Levertov]        And what might still lurk there        Not yet aware it is in a cave.        Not yet aware there is an upstairs        Where good things to eat hang out        Speaking, uncomfortably and quietly,        About the shadows in … [Read more...]

“The Songs” / Memorable Fancies #3532

[“nouns are sung from the trees” – Sidney Wade] and verbs, from the wind. … [Read more...]

“America Dreaming” / Memorable Fancies #3531

[“America declares these dreams I have every night re-dreamed and pressed into names.” – Michael Wasson]        These people I see in dreams, they must have names even if I don’t know what they are, even if they don’t know their own names and can’t tell me, or know their names and won’t.       The authorities question me about them. The questioning is tense and intense. As in the Middle Ages, these torturers display to me their tools … [Read more...]

“Survival” / Memorable Fancies #3530

       “Yes,” he said, “I understand, sir, your wish to endure after death. Your body, that is. As you said, your body is a really important part of you; you’re very fond of him and you want him to carry on even if your brain is no longer functional, even if your soul (do you believe in a soul, sir? If so, I have a special offer for ... no? ah, well.)        “Where was I? Oh, yes. With our process, your body should survive, in a very relaxed state, of course – a … [Read more...]

“Snow Job” / Memorable Fancies #3529

[“the first time love fell in me like snow.” – Rebecca Lindenberg]        And I gathered the snow to my heart, not realizing, that first time, how cold it could be.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“We need a word” / Memorable Fancies #3528

[“We need a word to designate this object, this tool: but do we need a word to refer to this on Mondays, on Tuesday, etc.?” – Wittgenstein]        We buy a tool on Monday. Monday the tool is very sharp, and we have a special word to describe what it can cut. By Tuesday it’s been used a few hours; it can cut only material softer than it could on Monday. So we have a special word to describe what it can now cut on that day, the name it now is. And so on Wednesday, … [Read more...]

“Boo!” / Memorable Fancies #3946

       It wasn’t even a nickname, “Boo!,” just something said to a baby, hoping to get a response, maybe a giggle. – Something we say to babies.        One of the wise men – one of the wise men looked down into His strawbed crib and called out to Him, softly, “Boo!”        Just a gentle tease, you know, something we say to babies.        But retaliation was swift and … [Read more...]

“The Third Thing” / Memorable Fancies #3527

[“Against all the evidence of his senses, a man who is in love declares that ‘I’ and ‘you’ are one, and is prepared to behave as if it were a fact.” – Sigmund Freud]        There was, between us, something that made of us two, not one as I fondly hoped, but a third thing – separating – us. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Names Anonymous” / Memorable Fancies #3526

[“Being named or seeing oneself given one’s proper name is something like being invaded by sadness, by sadness itself.” – Walter Benjamin]      I have a name; many names. Handles, the others think, by which they can lift and move me, like a pan onto the stove. But all these names, I refuse.        No name names me – even the names I tell myself I am. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“A Hollow Mind” / Memorable Fancies #3525

[“… knowledge shared by Dionysus and Apollo at Delphi, whose premise is that the mind is a hollow space constantly invaded by gods and voices.” – Roberto Calasso]        The gods keep telling me what to do. I guess I don’t mind that – they’re gods, y’know.        But it’s their tone of voice, their insistence, their threats, that I find so annoying.        But mostly, their refusal to let me, too, be a god.  >> “books … [Read more...]

“Dream-Girl” / Memorable Fancies #3523

[“All the things that one thinks of exist, whatever they are.” – Metrodorus of Chios]        I formed an image of her, my dream-girl.        I imagined her voice, so surprisingly real;        her body, the movements it makes;        what she would do when I asked, even just hinted,        as I made my own movements to guide … [Read more...]

“Try Again” / Memorable Fancies #3521

[“One can do nothing that one does not.” – Max Stirner, 1844] [“Do or do not; there is no try” – Yoda, 1977]        If at first you don't succeed, there are many courses of action. Most of us have tried several of them; “didn’t want to do that any anyway” is especially popular. … [Read more...]

“the tribe, our only god” / Memorable Fancies #3520

[“…la tribu, notre seul dieu, nous tient tous embrassés.” – Henri Michaux]        The tribe is our only god. Whatever our tribe commands, we do unquestioningly, even to the loss of our lives. The tribe, after all, is what ties us together, while each of us is only one alone. How could one presume to seek his own counsel against the tribe’s embrace? We bow, we do.        But one asked, “Who speaks for the tribe? Is he not a tyrant? Does he not command in his … [Read more...]

“One World” / Memorable Fancies #3519

[“The waking have one common world, but the sleeping turn aside each into a world of his own.” – Heraclitus]        We do not have one common world – that’s just a dream common to those who sleep.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Seeing My Hands” / Memorable Fancies #3518

[“strangled by unseen hands.” - “What Your Dreams Mean” by Herbert Hespro, early 20th Century]        Since they were around my neck and squeezing hard, no wonder I couldn’t see them. … [Read more...]

“This New Information” / Memorable Fancies #3517

[“Information fatigue syndrome is a psychic illness caused by excessive information.” – Byung-Chul Han]        I have now diagnosed your condition. Unfortunately, this new information will just worsen it. SAMSUNG CAMERA PICTURES … [Read more...]

“Names in the Dark” / Memorable Fancies #3516

[“Watching the sun go down I ask you your name.” – Brian Patten]        In the dark you have a different name: more subtle than your dayname, more adventurous, perhaps more dangerous.        I shiver when you speak it.  >> “below: back cover from the novel See/Saw, available on Amazon. << … [Read more...]

“True Forgetting” / Memorable Fancies #3515

[“attempting to make our momentary forgetting true and lasting forgetting?” – James P.  Carse]        How do you forget forever? How do you keep the past from leaping on you out of the dark, carnivorous and hungry? >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Likeness” / Memorable Fancies #3513

[“The world loves the flattery that all likeness intends.” – William H. Gass]     But there are many ways to be “like” – there are no two things of which you can say they’re completely unlike – because both are things, they have at least that – thingness, that ‘like’ness – in common. What is it like to be like a bat? in the famous question – the answer, ultimately, is – like every being, like every thing. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to … [Read more...]

“Touch My Body” / Memorable Fancies #3514

[you can’t touch my body now. It has changed once, it has hardened – Louise Glück]         It is not the same body you touched before.        That one is gone.        That one did not behave itself. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“You’s” / Memorable Fancies #3512

[“You shows up where somebody makes you’s.” – Stacy Doris]        So then I went to the You-factory, and said “I am a Me, and I want to buy a You to live with me and be my love.”        But the factory man said, “You are not an “I,” much less a “Me.” You were made here – don’t you remember? – to be a You for some I who’s real. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Do the Zombie” / Memorable Fancies #3511

[“If dead people walked outside our windows we would be no more excited.” – Lydia Davis] ... than if dead people walked inside our windows. If that were to happen, we would really be excited – but not for long. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

Criticism / Memorable Fancies #3510

[“People say I am way too sensitive to criticism.” – Rage, A Step-by-Step Guide to Overcoming Explosive Anger, by Ronald T. Potter-Efron]        So I took that to heart, and now when they criticize me, instead of blustering and arguing, I just laugh in their faces and criticize them back.        Now I never hear them criticize me anymore. It is working.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more … [Read more...]

“Secret Bodies” / Memorable Fancies #3509

[“It is possible for there to be a conscious creature that ... spends its entire life unaware that it has a body.” – Gary Cox]        And what parts of you am I – unaware of?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Muttering Like Clocks” / Memorable Fancies #3508

[“all the inner organs curled together in the dark and muttering like clocks” – Allison Cobb]        Counting out your time, second by second, and the alarm is set for...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Heads Fall” / Memorable Fancies #3507

[“Heads fall where an idea prevails; it can prevail only at the expense of other ideas and of the heads which conceived or defended them.” – E.M. Cioran]        Better that persons prevail, than an idea. We can, after all, cut heads off. But an idea, once it’s out in the world, available to all – how could we control that?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

” People Say” / Memorable Fancies #3506

[“People say that I am paranoid” from Rage, A Step-by-Step Guide to Overcoming Explosive Anger, by Ronald T. Potter-Efron]        I don’t trust people who say that. What do they want from me? Why are they accusing me? >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Small People” / Memorable Fancies #3505

[“To dream that you are an imp” – “What Your Dreams Mean” by Herbert Hespro, early 20th Century] I dreamed I was an imp. I don’t know what that means: important, impressive, ...  – but other people have different opinions of me. Small people. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Law” / Memorable Fancies #3504

 [“To give the law to oneself is the highest freedom.” – Heidegger]        I wrote a set of laws for myself, both criminal and civil. Stringent, as if preparing for some great event. There is an appeals process, and a way to be pardoned – a way to have the offense expunged – even from my mind. That’s the highest freedom.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Silent Killers” / Memorable Fancies #3503

[“Of all the silent killers / none is weaker than my smile” – David Feinstein]        Actually, I had tried several times to kill with my smile, my words “that’s really all right; please don’t worry about it,” that sent people into worrying fits that sometimes proved fatal.        But nobody accused me. I smile.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Law” / Memorable Fancies #3504

[“To give the law to oneself is the highest freedom.” - Heidegger] I wrote a set of laws for myself, both criminal and civil. Stringent, as if preparing for some great event. There is an appeals process, and a way to be pardoned – a way to have the offense expunged – even from my mind. That’s the highest freedom.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Silent Killers” / Memorable Fancies #3503

[“Of all the silent killers / none is weaker than my smile” – David Feinstein]        Actually, I had tried several times to kill with my smile, my words “that’s really all right; please don’t worry about it,” that sent people into worrying fits that sometimes proved fatal.        But nobody accused me. I smile.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Being My Self” / Memorable Fancies #3501

[“I feel like I become a different person when I get angry, as if I am not really myself.” – Rage, A Step-by-Step Guide to Overcoming Explosive Anger, by Ronald T. Potter-Efron]        Actually, when I’m calm – that’s when I’m not really myself. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Acts and Actors” / Memorable Fancies #3500

[“Taking some action, telling yourself you are doing it as a sort of echo; recounting this exploit to others, a third level, three voices telling a story.” – Michel Foucault (paraphrased)]        You do something, meanwhile telling yourself you’re doing it, and then remembering afterward that you did it, and then telling your friends that you did it...        Your various selves tell various truths about this.    … [Read more...]

“She Said” / Memorable Fancies #3490

[“until / the end of time (which is now)” – William Carlos Williams] wait for it she said wait for it she said too late it’s gone she said she said >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Desperate Toys” / Memorable Fancies #3489

[“The desperate toys / of children” – William Carlos Williams] Bang bang you’re dead Why aren’t you dropping to the ground And bleeding Why aren’t you rolling around and grabbing your belly and breathing hard And bleeding And shaking a fist at me and pointing at me And bleeding And shouting “He did it !” “That one did it!” And bleeding  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

The Wrapt Machines / Memorable Fancies #3488

[“that agony / within where the wrapt machines / are praying” – William Carlos Williams] [“But could a machine think? – Could it be in pain? – Wittgenstein] I know what it is to be in pain. I don’t, quite, know what it is for someone else to be in pain, machine or not.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Mind Dances” / Memorable Fancies #3487

[“the mind dances with itself” - William Carlos Williams] What step shall we do tonight? Waltz ? Foxtrot ? One-step ? Two-step ? Rumba Samba ? ? What shall I call my partner, My self’s mind ? Right and Left, I’ll call them, the Hemisphere Brothers – will be right back after its brief message, its desperate dance … [Read more...]

“Life Sentence” / Memorable Fancies #3484

[“Old friend, here I have brought you / The young soul you long asked of me.” - William Carlos Williams] Take it, quick! Shove it into your breast before your old soul, your old self, knows what’s happening to it ... to you.      You will live longer now.      Too bad about those dreams. … [Read more...]

“Ugly Butterflies” / Memorable Fancies #3483

[“Suppose someone were to say: ‘Imagine this butterfly exactly as it is, but ugly instead of beautiful.’” – Wittgenstein]        You could actually do that. Concentrate on its colorful wings, its eyes, its form, its flight – then imagine it – just the same, but – dead  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Names” / Memorable Fancies #3482

       There are gods we no longer have names for, whose names are banished from our minds, the gods who caused this – horror – to come upon us.        When we need to pray, we scream.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Pray to the Mask” / Memorable Fancies #3481

[“We want to take nothing more to heart, we want to pray to the mask” – Nietzsche]        The mask does not change. It does not bless us with sun one day, ruin us with wind and hail the next, as other gods do.        Often, it does not give us enough to eat, but it does not demand the sacrifice of our grain and cattle and firstborn, so we reluctantly praise it.        What is behind the mask of … [Read more...]

“The Rock-Being” / Memorable Fancies #3480

[“A man was struck by a rock he had looked at too long. The rock had not moved. All the local people can bear witness to it.” – Henri Michaux]        They put the rock in the local museum. Then it was in every gallery. It hadn’t moved. Museum-goers were warned. Some wore helmets.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Souvenir” / Memorable Fancies #3479

[“le souvenir d'un temps deux fois vécu” (“the memory of a twice-lived fragment of time”) – Chris Marker]        Twice lived, once remembered. Will I live it a third time? A second time remember? ... I wait,...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

A World / Memorable Fancies #3478

[A world I think I recognize, and never saw.” – John Koethe] Yes, I will know it again, just there on the horizon – a sea seen many times, but then flat as a map, a sentence flat on the page, but now ! – bright-curling its words around itself.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“(H)Armless” / Memorable Fancies #3459

       In our kingdom, statues are made without arms – that’s the King’s standing order. As his chief minister explained, a statue might, at some unpredictable time, come to life and cause harm.        Also for this reason, statues must not have mouths, lest they wound us with their stony silence; or ears, lest they hear our dismissal of the lives they thought heroic, or at least notable – lives at least worthy of a statue or two – … [Read more...]

“Pieces” / Memorable Fancies #3458

       After they destroyed each other, she rebuilt herself from his pieces – those pieces she’d so disparaged before. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Memoricide” / Memorable Fancies #3457

[“every memory that agrees to destroy itself.” - Roberto Calasso] My memories stopped competing with each other to remember what really happened that awful night. “All that effort,” memory A said, “when I could just do away with myself instead of fighting you.” “Go ahead,” said memory B, promising also to forget... and also leave me alone.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“In-Formation” / Memorable Fancies #3456

[“The final result of our work will be a model in which everything counts as information, even what isn’t there.” – Italo Calvino] You try to say nothing, but saying nothing is itself a message. Then something; suddenly you are saying something. What? What? "Nothing," you say; but the universe laughs at you behind your back. What? >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly … [Read more...]

“A Likeness” / Memorable Fancies #3454

 [“ ‘How does it feel to be dead?’ I say.” – Ai] Not “feel like,” but the real experience, unmarred by metaphor, like nothing else on earth. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I’ll see you in my dreams” / Memorable Fancies #3453

[“Dreams would be a search engine.” - Jean Baudrillard] I had a delicious dream: food that filled but left me hungry; endless sex; breathtaking adventures that I somehow survived. And what I dreamed I sought out in life, and found it. But here, there were consequences... … [Read more...]

“Survival” / Memorable Fancies #3452

[“Society is governed by its will to survive.” – Georges Bataille]        That was the first command.        Seeking other societies to rule was the second. In the name of survival.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Today’s Impotent Rage” / Memorable Fancies #3451

[“How close are you to going through an impotent rage today?” – Rage, A Step-by-Step Guide to Overcoming Explosive Anger, by Ronald T. Potter-Efron]        Pretty close, actually, but I keep hoping the next one won’t be impotent.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Confessions” / Memorable Fancies #3450

[“...passing down the halls noiselessly over the carpeted floor, Djuna is aware of confessions seeping out.” – Anaïs Nin]        The Hotel of Confessions, where couples amorously venture, rent rooms, confront each other’s naked forms, their hidden lives.        Perhaps afterwards, elsewhere, there are confessions,...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. … [Read more...]

“The Recitation” / Memorable Fancies #3449

[“a sound that travels out from a silent person’s / Thoughts.”­ – Joanna Klink]        You think your thoughts are waiting patiently to be edited before being spoken. But no; they are there, on your face, silently reciting.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Real Me” / Memorable Fancies #3447

[“What the vast majority of us think about when we think about God is a divine version of ourselves.” – Reza Aslan]        Perhaps a little wiser than I am now, a little taller, fitter. Older, but still vigorous. Actually, the more I think of it, the more I see God as quite a bit like me.        I practice a knowing smile, share my opinions more openly, now. Tolerate disagreements less. Find blame a useful punishment for the … [Read more...]

“Homecoming” / Memorable Fancies #3446

A man returns to his home town after thirty years. Sadly enough, everyone he knew seems to have died or moved away. He assumes this, because no one remembers the old friends he asks about. He looks for the home where he grew up, but it’s not there. Locals tell him there’s never been a house there. He continues asking, now more urgently. He becomes suspicious. Who are all these new people? Why, instead of joy at his return, or even indifference, do they now flee in panic at his … [Read more...]

“Memories for Sale” / Memorable Fancies #3445

      You can buy copies of other peoples’ memories, experience thrills you never had. Critics say those memories can’t ever really be yours – it’s no better than watching a movie – and dangerous to your mind as well.         But as you watch a mem it becomes more like you, more like your own memories, your wish to be someone you might have been – not corrupted by your mediocrity, your vain desires – to experience those … [Read more...]

“Out-Rage” / Memorable Fancies #3444

[“I feel like I become a different person when I get angry, as if I am not really myself.” - Rage, A Step-by-Step Guide to Overcoming Explosive Anger, by Ronald T. Potter-Efron] Actually, when I’m calm – that’s when I’m not really myself. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Imprint” / Memorable Fancies #3443

[“The imprint they make on each other’s bodies is worth any pain / They may have caused.” ­ -- Joanna Klink]        And the imprint they’ve made on each other’s minds –is that worth the price of struggling desperately, later, to remove it? >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“For the Earth” / Memorable Fancies #3442

[“...who will prepare my body, / once I’m no longer in it, for the earth?” – Suji Kwock Kim]        Surprise!, it says; I’m still in here. Now, you’re not going to bury me in the ground are you? Now that I’ve shown you I can still speak, more or less, contorting the hard fibers of my mouth, trying to gesture my rigor-tightened fist.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

The Seeing / Memorable Fancies #3441

[“And is there a paradise anyway? Besides, What will I, Who see you everywhere, do there?” – Kabir]        I see you everywhere now, and that is no paradise. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Trading Songs” / Memorable Fancies #3445

[“If you’ll gimmy your thing to me I will gamey a sing to thee.” – Finnegan’s Wake] It seemed a fair trade – but the song she gave me was all she had, while I had another song left – for a different ‘you’  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“How Death Looks” / Memorable Fancies #3439

[“And death that advances / With little plaintive cries, / Dancing its odd dance” – Michel Houellebecq] I had maybe expected a gaunt old man with a scythe. But not this. I had expected a thinkfast moment: an explosion, perhaps, or a knife suddenly drawn. I had expected white-masked faces hovering over me, doctors shaking their heads. But not this. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly … [Read more...]

“My Excuse” / Memorable Fancies #3438

[“...Homer, Orpheus, Parmenides; but these latter said this without giving a reason, since they were divinely inspired.” – Hermias of Alexandria] Well, that’s my excuse for not giving you reasons for what I say – what’s yours?” >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“We couldn’t see” / Memorable Fancies #3437

[“when we couldn’t see / we made pictures” – Louise Glück]        We pictured our thoughts, drew or painted them as best we could remember, touching the boundaries of the canvas, selecting paints by the feel of the tubes, brushes by their strokes on our skin ... here in the dark... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Hunters” / Memorable Fancies #3436

[“My own notion is that, in the summer of 1896, something, or some beings, came as near to this earth as they could, upon a hunting expedition.” – Charles Fort]        No prey of interest here, they said, moving along, just a few scraps. But maybe in a hundred thirty years or so of crop growth, more billions of those plump, healthy beings... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Day of Creation” / Memorable Fancies #3435

[“We are not what was intended”- ‘John Doe’ (played by Kevin Spacey) in the film ‘Se7en’] That’s right: A mistake was made. Perhaps our raw materials were imperfect or impure. Perhaps the seed of life was planted on the wrong planet. Or perhaps God was absent-minded that day of creation, about our purpose, about what we could do if not closely supervised, about the deadly accuracy of our minds, or worse, our deadly errors....  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will … [Read more...]

“Decisions, decisions…” / Memorable Fancies #3434

It was decided that nothing would be decided today. But the decision that nothing would be decided today was challenged today by those who decided that a decision was really needed today...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“How Painful” / Memorable Fancies #3433

[“…how painful it is to dream of happiness. The crushing weight of it all. Better to say nothing and pay attention to everything else.” – Albert Camus]        “Are you happy?” – Beware this question, because the answer can only be – “now that you ask, I don’t know.”  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Master Sufferer” / Memorable Fancies #3432

[“How can we learn to suffer more successfully?” – Alain de Botton] I was apprenticed to a master sufferer at age seven. He was renowned throughout the province for his ability to smile when he was low, to take punishment like a man – to sit gamely through clichés like those without grimacing or covering his ears. Or laughing. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Speech Less” / Memorable Fancies #3431

[“...written silence” – Alain Badiou]        What I wrote for the President left him speechless.        It was about time.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Playing My Organ” / Memorable Fancies #3430

[“The machine is no longer an excrescence or a protuberance of man – man is now merely the sex organ of the machine.” – William Burroughs]        We are here to help the machine make more machines. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Looking Around” / Memorable Fancies #3429

[“my mind is full of eyes” - John Ashbery]      They’re looking around, these eyes, peering suspiciously.      I say to you who accuse me, those must not be my eyes. My eyes trust you. See how warm and trusting they are?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Your Other You” / Memorable Fancies #3849

       There are you’s that you might have been. They exist, but the world has been arranged so that you will never encounter these doubles of yourself.        But once in a long while, owing to a glitch in the Divine Providence, you might meet one of them "No, you say,” giving it a long hard look, “not that one.” “Next double, please.” … [Read more...]

“Overs and Unders” / Memorable Fancies #3428

over the counter and under the influence over the top and under the gun over the edge and under the rainbow over the hill and under the weather that last pair, for sure.  >> Below: a play about baseball available from the publisher, stageplays.com. << … [Read more...]

“The Stone Lectures” / Memorable Fancies #3426

[“Stone does not know how to lecture” - João Cabral de Melo Neto] Stone asserts. If it hears objections, it acts quickly. If it hears considerations, it acts more quickly, and harder. If it hears agreement, it is suspicious. If it hears nothing, it is at last satisfied by the silence it has created. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Wake Up!” / Memorable Fancies #3425

[“Is there not another world within which I might suddenly wake, and from which I should look back upon this life as unreal? Such doubts and surmises, far from being irrational, are in my opinion even justified.” – F.H. Bradley]         Wake up ! – wake up ! – something is shaking me – wake up ! Do I dare open my eyes? What I see -will it be, then, the real?        I’m taking the chance that the dreams I forget will be ... more real. >> “books … [Read more...]

“How to Use Scissors”/ Memorable Fancies #3424

[“Memory doesn’t know how to use its scissors” - Yannis Stiggas]        I have learned how to cut memories, or slice them in two, or trim them top and bottom, or just ... stab, stab.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Limits of Machinality” / Memorable Fancies #3420

[“I very well understand the desire to be a machine, to go to the limits of machinality.” – Jean Baudrillard]        The limit of machinality is the junk-heap, or the recycling machine (that will be junked or recycled in its turn).        The limit of humanity, on the contrary, is the junk-heap called Heaven, or, if you have a problem with that, ... there is an alternative... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon … [Read more...]

“The Mice” / Memorable Fancies #3419

[“One day the mice became suspicious.” – John Ashbery]        That larger mammal, the Great One who promised to lead us to endless cheese: many of us have followed him to glory, never returning to us as they had promised. –        The heaven of cheese must be powerful indeed to have kept them there so long.        We are now convinced of the greatness of the cat’s promise.        She beckons … [Read more...]

“My Delusion” / Memorable Fancies #3418

       I’m here in the madhouse, unlikely to be released. The others here have the delusion that they’re not in a madhouse; so I laugh at them; I know where I am, this place with its locks, its solicitous staff.        But my own delusion is – that there are others... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Disarmament” / Memorable Fancies #3417

[“I see a pediment of amputated statues looking at me.” – George Seferis]        They had been disarmed after the recent war. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Dictionary-Maker’s Dilemma” / Memorable Fancies #3416

[“Irreducibly multiple meanings which continuously determine each other.” – Judith Butler]        Thus the dictionary-maker’s dilemma, defining words by words. If you know one word, just one, thousands of meanings will unfold around you, one by one, each of which ultimately needs all the others, like an endless string of spaghetti. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Attachments” / Memorable Fancies #3415

[“My heart has been torn apart by all its attachments.” – Rousseau] She called me “her heartthrob” tugging at the strings of my heart – “There," she says, "that’s the ventricle I’ve been wanting.” Drawing a knife from her pocket, she...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Come Close” / Memorable Fancies #3413

 [“ ‘Come close, too close, get out!’ ” – Emily Skaja] She and I have been performing a kind of dumb-show where we try to be intimate – emotionally, that is; physically, we began some time ago.        We pretend to care, and maybe we do care. We pretend to know each other “all the way down,” to show empathy. And maybe we have entered that rarefied state, too; there’s really no way of knowing.        Is it all fake? … [Read more...]

“The Punishment Panel” / Memorable Fancies #3411

       [“Imagine that supervisors have a panel of buttons they can press at any time to cause a subordinate to be punished or rewarded, paused, deleted, or reverted to an earlier state.” – Nick Bostrom]        They don’t have a panel like that now? Then how ... ?   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Late You” / Memorable Fancies #3410

[“‘You’ are not here, ‘you’ are eternally belated to the conversation with you that I am imagining.” – Lauren Berland]        By the time you arrive, I’ve already won the argument. Graciously, I don’t inform you of this.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I Remember the Future” / Memorable Fancies #3409

[“It is wrong, conceptually wrong, to suppose that memory is always of the past.” – Maxwell Bennett and Peter Hacker]        I remember the future.        My friends say,        “Doesn’t that mean you can change things? See your future but do something else instead?”        To which, neuroscientists tell us, yes, you can change things; but when you’ve done that, you … [Read more...]

“Madness” / Memorable Fancies #3407

       Most psychotics aren’t violent; they tend to huddle in corners and weep and have adventures with their hair.        Don’t worry about their attacking you, doctor says; their violence is in themselves.        They just want to share it with you.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Rorschach Blood” / Memorable Fancies #3406

 [“We saw Rorschach blood in our wounds” – Emily Skaja]        There! she said, I see ... is it? Yes! this stain spreading across the floor beneath you, there. I see in it a great mystery that you have come to reveal to us. For our TV viewership now, can you tell us what this wound means, what it “feels like” as we like to say?        No? You must be too concerned about your loss of blood to comment now, but we’ll get right back to you ... after this brief message.   >> “books … [Read more...]

“The Last Surprise” / Memorable Fancies #3405

[“There are no surprises in the afterworld.” – James P.  Carse]        Actually, there is. Just one.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Eternal Life” / Memorable Fancies #3404

[“The indignation I feel toward him makes me believe in eternal life.” – Andre Gide]        For him, to allow for his eternal punishment.        And for me, time for my eternal hatred of him – but feeling eternal hatred for him will be my own punishment.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The M’s,” a New TV Series / Memorable Fancies #3403

       In the first episode, M1 encounters a man M2 who seems to be another M1, his double, not a long-lost twin or impostor. M1 wonders if he’s delusional, or someone is playing a grotesque trick on him, or he’s in some alternative universe.        The next day, M1 comes home; M2 is already there. M1’s wife, W1, and M2 greet M1 as if nothing is different today. It seems that M1 and M2 and W1 have been living together for some time. … [Read more...]

“The Perceptual World” / Memorable Fancies #3402

[“The internal complexity of the world outruns perceptual consciousness.” – Judith Butler] I don’t know ... I can be pretty complex. And you, I’ve noticed at times,...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Survey Monkey Business” / Memorable Fancies #3401

[a Survey Monkey survey was sponsored by the “Gilchrist Institute for the Achievement Sciences”]        I’m really glad to know that there is an achievement science, that being someone in this world isn’t just a matter of muscle / brains / luck, but hypothesis / experiment / findings.        Better yet, I’m even gladder to be told that there is more than one achievement science. If I flunk one, I can always borrow a lot of money … [Read more...]

“The Eyes” / Memorable Fancies #3400

I never realized that all of us were dead, that we’d been wiped of all that made us –– alive, until I saw – her. Her eyes. And remembered my own eyes, who they used to see.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Run for Your Life !” / Memorable Fancies #3399

[“What if the street sign said RUN, or RUN FOR YOUR LIFE.” - Jasper Johns] The street signs have been improved, now, as a public service. Instead of merely reading WALK or DON’T WALK, they now read, in appropriate circumstances, O MY GOD IT’S COMING RIGHT AT YOU or SCREAM AND CROUCH DOWN. DON’T LOOK BEHIND YOU was added a few years ago, along with DON’T START, failing to add DON’T STOP.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from … [Read more...]

“Retirement Ceremony” / Memorable Fancies #3398

[“Whatever we can achieve through merit and effort cannot make us truly happy. Only magic can do that.” – Sergio Agamben]        There is applause. I smile. I could have done better, could have achieved more. There is some reserved and hesitant hitting together of palms. They are thinking they could have done my job better than I, and probably could have. But I was there, putting up with all their shit day after day, bowing my head and then raising it once … [Read more...]

“The Secret Society” / Memorable Fancies #3396

[“Those who participated are not sure they ever took part in it.” – Maurice Blanchot]        It was so secret we didn’t even know we were there. I, for one, had no idea what was supposed to happen, or did happen. It’s possible that on the way out our minds were scraped clean.        Well, that’s one theory. Other theories are – even more troubling.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing … [Read more...]

“Vertical Music” / Memorable Fancies #3395

[“Vertical music,” – Robert Hass]        Vertical music is a hymn addressed to the gods you would like there to be, up there in the sky, not realizing that we are, here, the last final hope of the sky. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Cold One” – Memorable Fancies #3394

       There is a school where we learn to sculpt statues and bring them to life. Pass or fail is based only on results, not on theory or skill or patience, or how impressive or beautiful the statue is.       The most unlikely lumps come alive, while some beautiful bodies remain – cold, never mind their precise imitation of human anatomy, manners, attitudes.        They made a statue of the one I love – … [Read more...]

“Wait for Tomorrow” / Memorable Fancies #3393]

[“Thank God there was no war tonight.” – Marilyn Chin] And the next night there was also no war, though rumors and alarms spread. And the night after that I dared not sleep. As if that would help. … [Read more...]

“The Minus Month” / Memorable Fancies #3392

[“For a month, at the end of each day, I set down a plus sign, or a minus sign, indicating that, in my opinion, life had, or had not, been worth living that day. At the end of the month, I totaled up, and I can’t say that I was altogether pleased to learn that the pluses had won the game.” – Charles Fort]        Realizing this, I went back and changed half the pluses to minuses. So there.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“One Great Beast” / Memorable Fancies #3840

[“The multitude, that numerous piece of monstrosity, which taken asunder seem men; but confused together, make one great beast.” – Sir Thomas Browne (abridged)] The beast votes: ... … [Read more...]

“Fame” / Memorable Fancies #3391

[“I came to Athens and no one recognized me.” – Demetrios of Magnesia]        I thought I was famous; I announced my forthcoming visit and hired criers and trumpeters, but as it turned out I was famous only as The One No One Knew – no one recognized – and no one bothered to ask.        I was the only one in Athens not famous – not quoted – not written up in stone – not dialogued – not Followed.       … [Read more...]

“The Bloodless Words” / Memorable Fancies #3390

[“The clean words for murder” – Alice Fulton] “eliminate”; “terminate”; “waste”; “snuff” –and– “gave their lives.” >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“We could go there” / Memorable Fancies #3389

[“...a colonizable reality...’ – Jean Baudrillard] We could go there. It’s quiet. The people are friendly and don’t ask questions. They don’t know what we did .. then .. and if we’re lucky they’ll never find out. Yes, we, you and I, we’ll go live there and try to .. forget, too. And if we do forget, we’ll have to remember that we mustn’t try to remember .. what happened .. whatever it was. Or we might remember again.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on … [Read more...]

“The Dark Wheat” / Memorable Fancies #3959

[“The dark wheat listens” – James Wright]        The dark wheat hears that the harvesters are coming; they who take the field’s Fall offerings, swinging scythes, singing chants invented by their mothers’ fathers’ mothers, are coming.        The field welcomes the harvesters, ready to give up its heavy load of grain so fields may grow again, fresh and new.        But what is this! Not the harvesters this year, but some stinking loud machine. And one … [Read more...]

“Her Ghost” / Memorable Fancies #3589

"She welcomes him in a simple way. She calls him her Ghost." [“Elle l'accueille simplement. Elle l'appelle son Spectre.” - Chris Marker]        That’s a great responsibility, being someone’s ghost. I’m haunted by the prospect.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Haunting” / Memorable Fancies #3681

[“I now suspect that there is a ghost-world – but that it is our existence – that when spirits die they become human beings.” – Charles Fort]        Then who are we to haunt?        Each other.        As we've been doing all along. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Next in line for the big inheritance” / Memorable Fancies #3388

[“Death was an acquired characteristic.” – Renata Adler]        We all thought that, with enough hard work, training, prayer, we could avoid acquiring that particular characteristic.        But now we know: it’s not acquired at all; it’s inherited.        And you’re the lucky heir.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Edgewords” / Memorable Fancies #3387

Word inedgewise I begin. But already she’s off in her next interminable paragraph.Repeat. Re…peat. [“books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<] … [Read more...]

“The Space Between Words” / Memorable 3386

[“In the space between words begin / Attempt” – Laura Mullen]        I’m carrying around a few hyphens, just in case she starts putting spaces between my words again. Let her try sticking any of her own words in between my own, after that !  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Present” / Memorable Fancies #3384

[“...they both reached at once / for the present / and when their hands met / they laughed” – W.S. Merwin] While traveling in 21st Century France I found her, a time-traveler like me. We met and fell in love, I with my halting French of that post-de Gaulle era, she with her own French from a time later than our now. We were amused by each other’s accents. She called hers “correct,” made fun of my own.        One day she looked worried. After much … [Read more...]

“The God of Sleep” / Memorable Fancies #3385

[“... the true god, who is the god of sleep ...” – Jean Baudrillard]   The god of sleep whispers to you in the night, those words that the god of waking would be ashamed even to hear.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“So this is reality” / Memorable Fancies #3383

[“It is unacceptable that what offers itself as reality should actually be so.” – Roberto Calasso]        So this is reality. After all that build-up, all that hype, it’s OK but nothing much. Hardly worth the Maker’s bother. Perhaps He may try again – but not with us. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Why doesn’t my phone ring?” / Memorable Fancies #3381

       There are at least four billion people in the world who have phones, or who have access to phones, who can make my cell phone ring just by poking a few keys. If even only a very small portion of these four billion make a simple keying mistake even once a year, or if dogs somewhere in the world walk on phones left on the floor, my phone should be ringing constantly, a babble of words I don’t understand in Turkish, Malayalam, Danish, Greek, all of which seem to be versions of “Allô? Allô? … [Read more...]

“What the Mirror Said” / Memorable Fancies #3380

I talk to the mirror, and the mirror talks back to me. We play this game each day, it and I, a kind of oral tennis match. At first it was liberating, not having to put up with a different person, only with myself serving, rallying, lobbing, volleying, word for word.        But ... the mirror kept winning ...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“We’ve just met” / Memorable Fancies #3379

       We’ve just met. I sense your mind musing among possibilities for us, picking up one idea after another, noting it for future use if I have performed adequately in the meantime.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Life” / Memorable Fancies #3378

       I received an anonymous note yesterday, reading simply “I’m sorry I ruined your life!”       Since then I’ve spent hours trying to figure out who could have sent it to me. Was it HE? or even ... SHE? Not likely. Finally I gave up trying to guess.        But the worst thing about it was that I didn’t know, until then, that my life had been ... ruined ...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more … [Read more...]

“Being Seen” / Memorable Fancies #3377

[“Each of us will come to the end of being seen.” – W.S. Merwin]        And the end of being heard. ... Of being touched. ... Of being remembered.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“It’s Your Call” / Memorable Fancies #3726

        “Your call is not very important to us, so we’re making you wait.         “Your call is not very important to you, either. We’re betting that after a couple of minutes you’ll just hang up, saving us the nuisance of speaking with you.         “Some of us here are betting on one and a half minutes, maybe just one.         “We could be answering your call instead of sitting here, betting how long you’ll listen to our important message before you … [Read more...]

“Psycho-City” / Memorable Fancies #3374

[“... the patient who spent his time drawing the plan of a fantastic city whose endless fortifications protected only a group of insignificant buildings.” – Michel Foucault]        Our asylum is that place of insignificance; its endless fortifications the patient, myself.        I mean the patients themselves.        Those other ones. … [Read more...]

“The Thirsty Gods” / Memorable Fancies #3375

       The latest thirsty gods  appeared to us yesterday. We thought them apparitions, relics of our drunkenness or superstitious past.        But they were real.        Now we are sober and they are still here – now they are still here and no one is drunk anymore and few of us are now left to be sober.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“Your Customized Clone” / Memorable Fancies #3373

       Can you create a clone of yourself, but with some custom differences?        HI I’m Joe with brown hair.        HI I’m Joe with red hair.        A different gender ?        HI I’m Jane with curly blonde hair.        Chorus: and it’s all natural !  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly … [Read more...]

“The Chamber of Truth” / Memorable Fancies #3372

       It’s not a simple matter to be admitted to the Chamber of Truth: there are tests, forms to fill out, references from lovers and employers, and not least, a hefty fee.        But, finally admitted to the Chamber’s dark recesses, you are permitted to tell yourself, perhaps for one last time, what you really believe. Not what you tell others you believe, not what you tell yourself you believe, but what you really believe, all the … [Read more...]

“Retirement Party” / Memorable Fancies #3371

       I could have done better, could have achieved more. There is reserved and hesitant striking together of palms.        I’m sure they are thinking that they could have done my job better than I did, and they probably could have.        But I was here, putting up with all their shit day after day.        Now I’m free and they must stay behind, completing all the … [Read more...]

“Evasions of ‘As’ / Memorable Fancies #3346

[“the intricate evasions of as,” – Wallace Stevens]        We slither away from the exact statement with an “as” here and there, “as in” – “as if” – “as is” – “as it seems” – “as it was” – “as it were” ...   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Someone Else” / Memorable Fancies #3340

[“It will be at night, that they will come for me.” – Anna Kavan] But I am someone else at night. Cunning, deadly. They will not take me then; but mistaking someone else for me, they will take her instead. And when they discover their error they will come for me again the next night, and again will take someone else. Night after night. This has happened from the beginning of the world. It is called “death” in your language. What happens when there is no more someone … [Read more...]

“Food Moods” / Memorable Fancies #3302

       The restaurant’s strolling violinist plays a different tune for each course: a hopeful one for the soup, brave and confident for the entrée, legato but sad and betrayed for the sides.        A diner requests something for the soufflé and the fiddler responds, a little flat.        And then just desserts, as the violinist has left.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead … [Read more...]

“The Real You” / Memorable Fancies #3233

[“For a few months / you were almost real.” – Chelsea Dingman] And then you were really real. And then you were definitely, absolutely real. Too damn real for me. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Shadow” / Memorable Fancies #3212

[“To converse with shadows, he himself must become a shade.” – F.H. Bradley]        I spoke to my shadow, my secret ‘me.’        At first, it didn’t answer.        But after much coaxing on my part, it did.        I asked it to tell me my faults, my illusions.        And it did.        Now I can’t get it to just shut the fuck … [Read more...]

“Picking My Selves” / Memorable Fancies #3190

There are too many selves who want to be me, I said. Well, just pick one, she said. One I might like for once, she said. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“And how was >your< death experience?” / Memorable Fancies #3189

[Title of a Survey Monkey survey, 07 October 2020: “Death Experience Survey”]        The Monkey wants to know how my death felt, or what it “felt like,” as if there’s something like death for death to be like.        I have many possible answers in mind. I’ve been saving them for the big day when I’m down there or up there and some Monkey, with halo or fork, asks me again, for real this time. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you … [Read more...]

“Our Land” / Memorable Fancies #3370

       Our conquerors told us, “You must now speak the way we do, our tongue and its rhythms, or be foreign,” they said.        Those foreigners in our land said that.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Pieces” / Memorable Fancies #3369

       It was quite violent, but in the end he dismembered himself.        He put himself back together, piece by piece, the way he thought I wanted him to be,        But I said, shrugging my breath,        any old way will do.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“If I were you,…” / Memorable Fancies #3367

       The phrase “if I were you,...” is very strange – how could that happen? How could I be you? What is an If that can never Be?      Perhaps “if you were you,...” is easier to understand. It’s certainly applicable to ... some people ...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Dawn” / Memorable Fancies #3366

[“The match that wants to test itself to see if it burns” – Nietzsche]        Well, you know how that would turn out.        But if the match never lights, it is a failed thing.        Burn! in the fiery dawn you create.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Sorry,…” / Memorable Fancies #3365

       I received an anonymous note yesterday, reading simply “I’m sorry I ruined your life.” Since then I’ve spent hours trying to figure out who could have sent it to me. Was it HE? or even ... SHE? Probably not. Finally I gave up trying to guess.        But the worst thing about it is that I didn’t know, until then, that my life had been .. ruined ..  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more … [Read more...]

“Really?” / Memorable Fancies #3364

[“Reality, having lost its natural predators, is growing like some proliferating species.” – Jean Baudrillard] It's eating into unreality, destroying even the memory of unreality. Those of us who are unreal are uneasy about this. –  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << Below: A play available from the publisher, stageplays.com … [Read more...]

“Can’t Remember” / Memorable Fancies #3363

       If I can’t remember her, then there’s nothing to remember.        It’s some comfort, not to remember ... the one I can’t remember.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“We Speak” / Memorable Fancies #3362

       The way we used to speak, a tongue left over from the time before the conquerors came upon us and said, “You must speak the way we do or you will be foreign in your own land.” That’s what they said, that’s what those foreigners in our land said.        But sometimes a whisper...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Hours Have Seasons” / Memorable Fancies #3361

Hours have seasons: :05 is a bright Spring, fresh with promise. :25 a time when the promise of that earlier minute has become problematic. :43 a time of reassessment, a realization that :49 is approaching sooner than we realized, that time remains but the project must be hastened.         At :55 we look back and try to understand what seemed to have value earlier in the hour, what was tried and failed, what still seems promising at least if the next hour … [Read more...]

“Gold Rush” / Memorable Fancies #3360

Words abandoned, discarded, no longer used. There are people who search for these worthy but forgotten words, gather them like nuggets, try to sell them for drinks. … [Read more...]

“Stop, Look, Don’t Listen” / Memorable Fancies #3359

[“The world is a wonderful visual reportage. It is the commentary that is unbearable.” - Jean Baudrillard] But it’s all commentary. Especially the reportage. … [Read more...]

“Affirmations” / Memorable Fancies #3358

       Their hate, their dismissive airs and annoyed breathing, affirms me.        It’s something, anyway.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I’m Telling You” / Memorable Fancies #3356

[“Why do I tell you these things? / You are not even here.” - John Ashbery]   Because you can’t contradict me; not here, not now, anyway. That’s why.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Clone’s Brother” / Memorable Fancies #3355

[“The clone will never be the same as the original, because it will have had another before it.” ­­– Jean Baudrillard]        It’s like being his little brother, but better in some ways: Joey can’t make fun of my feet that splay out, my slight stoop, because he’s like that too. And he can’t hint that he’s smarter than I am, because he knows damn well that I’m just as smart (or just as dumb!) as he is. OK, he got here a year before I did, and he’s taller. But that will pretty much even out in … [Read more...]

“Dignity with Death / Memorable Fancies #3354

       Don’t say “passed” or “passed away” or “gone to his reward” (especially considering my continuing sins).        Die is what I will do, my final act; death is the result.        Don’t pretend it’s anything else.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“To Serve Man” / Memorable Fancies #3353

[“He has no greater wish than to satisfy men.” - Henri Michaux] He does random things, it seems to us, trying to find what will please us, what will make us love Him even more. Sometimes there is delight, and we redouble our offerings. More often there are invasions, terrors... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Consolation” / Memorable Fancies #3351

(a) Is THIS moment the only reality now, or (b) Does all of reality always exist and we’re just passing through? If (b), then the future is fixed in place. But not to worry, if we don’t know what’s coming it will seem like our choice, our power that we’ve used to bend the cosmos.        It’s some consolation. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Real You” / Memorable Fancies #3352

[“And I held beneath my eyelids the sweet hologram of her nakedness.” - Jean Baudrillard] She said, there. Now you see me, now you know. I am not much to look at, compared with all those TV stars. And I said, You are real. They are not. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Festival of the Evil One” / Memorable Fancies #3350

In our country, we make effigies of the Evil One; we burn them in our annual Evil One Festival. We note His absence from the Festival of Him –then we say that He is not real; or perhaps He is real but harmless, a coward who dares not appear on his name-day to face our angry fires, no matter how we taunt His effigies, how we burn murderers and traitors to death in His honor, how we connive to overthrow our fathers and disavow our sons,...       Our Festival has been … [Read more...]

“Reality and Its Predators” / Memorable Fancies #3349

[“Reality, having lost its natural predators, is growing like some proliferating species.”] Reality is eating into unreality, nullifying it, destroying even the memory of unreality. Those of us who are unreal are uneasy about this. >> below :: a play for this season of anguish, published by and available from stageplays.com << … [Read more...]

Dreamless-pills / Memorable Fancies #3348

       The future: Our waking lives have become so constrained, so determined, that we can neither sin nor be heroes there.        Sleep and dreams are all that’s left.        But now the government has sent us dreamless-pills. Refills are available at no charge.        We’re required to swallow them, no matter how they stick in our throats.  >> “books Terence … [Read more...]

“A Mind-Melt” / Memorable Fancies #3347

        An exercise: Clear your mind, gradually, of who you are, where you are, how you feel. Clear your mind of words, even these.        Look around without knowing that you are looking; what is there just is.        Hear it speak. Is it speaking to you?        Probably not.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. … [Read more...]

“Sometime Nothing” / Memorable Fancies #3345

[“the temporary nothing in which life goes on” – J.H. Prynne]        I hope this Nothing is temporary, that there will be breaking news that Something has been seen – has been reported to have been seen, anyway – rumored – somewhere – >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Citizen Ravishes” / Memorable Fancies #3344

[“She is a citizen of the ancient republic, historian of its wars and ravishing in her armour.” - Anne Carson]        “See how it becomes me? The armor, I mean. The flesh beneath it has a certain charm, too, that you will never see. Just try. I will revel you with histories of other lovers, while I refuse you.”  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Alien-ation Arrives” / Memorable Fancies 3342

 [“The aliens see something they like. Fine, they say, this will do for my property. No sooner said than done, the object is their property.” – Henri Michaux] Aliens come to earth from outer space and buy all the real estate, all of it. Graciously, they let us inhabit these plots of land as squatters. We wait, counting the gold and gems they gave us, wondering what they are really up to. But all they do, at first, is place ‘THIS IS ALIEN PROPERTY’ signs on everything.   For a … [Read more...]

3343 “You Are Real” / Memorable Fancies #3343

[“And I held beneath my eyelids the sweet hologram of her nakedness.” – Jean Baudrillard] She said, There. Now you see me, now you know. I am not much to look at, compared with all those TV stars.     And I said, You are real. They are not. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

Echoes of Future Words / Memorable Fancies #3341

[“There are sounds that rush away from us: echoes of future words.” - W.S. Merwin] Why is it so hot today? Why doesn’t it rain anymore? >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Explaining the Night” / Memorable Fancies #3339

[“Don’t explain the night,” - Michael McGriff] The night can explain itself very well, without your help; and it can explain you, as well, despite all your pretense of daylight.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Gestures” / Memorable Fancies #3338

[“A gesture is ... a movement which clearly expresses something unambiguous.” – György Lukács]        There is a country where gestures are made, and understood, perfectly. Words, there, on the other hand, are always ambiguous, something one says intending to be vague, when a gesture would be understood. Understood too well. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Our Disease” / Memorable Fancies #3337

[“Could we then also imagine that humanity is a disease for some superior organism that we are unable to comprehend as a whole?" - Jean Baudrillard] A disease has been caught, like a cold, by the universe. The source of infection has been traced to one small planet near the edge of a typical middling galaxy.        Although few are worried, authorities tell us that even there the infection must be wiped out before it has a chance to spread, as the local organisms have developed … [Read more...]

“UseNess” / Memorable Fancies #3336

[“Their uselessness is majestic, ... like every memory that agrees to destroy itself.” ­–Roberto Calasso] This is a destructive readout, as the old technical term had it: remember and it’s gone. Don’t remember, and it haunts you until you do.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Our Creations” / Memorable Fancies #3335

[“We become makers of fiction who cannot sustain belief in our creations, who wake to their unreality, but only to dream more shrewdly the next time.” – Judith Butler]     Next time, our creations will be just as poorly designed as before, but our expectations will be less.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Eclipse of God” / Memorable Fancies #3334

[“The eclipse of God left us up against reality. Where will the eclipse of reality leave us?” – Jean Baudrillard]         If there’s no more reality, then it’s back to God.        We shrug, mutter “Whatever,...”.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A World for Me”/ Memorable Fancies #3333

[“Every experience seems both urgent and / unnatural” - Paige Lewis]        Why do I get this feeling that the world has been set up just for me, false fronts propped up from behind – the fake tavern just then out of beer, the shop with nothing to sell me, the church fresh out of revelations,... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“If they love…” / Memorable Fancies #3332

[“If they love, it is solely to be adored,” ­ -- Joanna Klink] It’s a fair trade, and it profits us both. Especially me.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Thing Itself” / Memorable Fancies #3331

[“We live our life in language and in time, / craving some pure idiomorphic dialect of the thing itself,” – Robert Hass]        The thing itself is our goal, our craving. Away with mere talk and time, stark phenomena ! We know there must be something more real, down deep, catch it quick ! as it recedes from our incessant talk.... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Be a One Not a Zero !” / Memorable Fancies #3330

       Slogan for a digital life: “Be a 1, not a 0.” – Was that a decimal 1 or a binary 1? Fortunately, we’re all 0’s here, so it doesn’t matter.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << Below: A short play available from the publisher, Stageplays.com … [Read more...]

“Against Examples – III” / Memorable Fancies #3329

“Example,” from the Latin exempli gratia, does not mean “gratuitous example,” but Should, since so many Are. [exempli gratia actually means “for the sake of example.” - a circular definition]  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

An Ancient Awareness Exercise / Memorable Fancies #3327

       Clear your mind, gradually, of who you are, where you are, how you feel. Clear your mind of words, even these.        Look around without knowing that you are looking; what is there just is, nameless.        Hear it speak. Is it speaking to you?        Probably not.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“The Blessing” / Memorable Fancies #3326

[“giving up their blessing by mistake” – Mike Soto]        They bless me, these vagrants in the street, not knowing it would do me no good. But their cache of blesses is now down by one; at least now I’ve saved someone else from them…   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Scramble and Mumble” / Memorable Fancies #3325

[“He calls out to his other notions: ‘Come take a look! Come take a look!” -  “Il y appellee ses autres notions ˵venez, venez” – Henri Michaux]        What do my old notions make of it? Are they jealous? Do they scramble and mumble and make uneasy room for it in my mind? Or do they say, “This new notion may be a perfectly good one, but it was not presented to us first for our approval. We recommend repression.”   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to … [Read more...]

“The Sames” / Memorable Fancies #3324

Everyone else is the same person. They look alike, seem to know the same things. They whisper together, things you don’t understand. Sometimes they speak with you, but as if they are talking to themselves, and you overhear. Only you are different. You think you are different. You were different, but now someone else is different. Someone you whisper about.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Your Citizen Number” / Memorable Fancies #3322

Can you change your citizen number? No, your number is you. You try to change it, but no, too many records would have to be changed as well, and your security status updated and rechecked. But, you say, I don’t have a security status. Wrong. We all have one, ranging from super-top secret to secret to whisper to rumor to leave right now run run they are after you they are after you   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“Your Dark Gestures” / Memorable Fancies #3321

[“Pourtant je suis l’ami de vos gestes obscurs,” (Nevertheless I am the friend of] your dark gestures”) - Jules Supervielle] You tilt your head just so – I’ve seen it many times. It tells me what you meant by what you said, or hides its meaning from me if I can make it tell me that.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“For Sure” / Memorable Fancies #3320

[“We have rid ourselves of the ambiguity of the world.” – Jean Baudrillard]        Has the world’s ambiguity finally disappeared? There are different answers. And different ways to interpret each answer.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Ritual” / Memorable Fancies #3319

[“we wonder / Who in our memory is thinking of us” – Yves Bonnefoy]        There is a magic ritual: I think of some other person, perhaps one who has left me, and as if by magic she will think of me. There is no guarantee that her thoughts will be pleasant, of course; they could even be hostile ... but wouldn’t that be better than her ... not thinking of me at all?   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“Revelation” / Memorable Fancies #3318

[Three quotations from F.H. Bradley, Appearance and Reality:] “The Absolute is its appearances, it really is all and every one of them.” “There is no reality at all anywhere except in appearance.” “Reality appears in its appearances, and they are its revelation.”        … [Read more...]

“Patterns in the Stars” / Memorable Fancy #3317

[“Patterns of stars, forgotten.” – Molly Brodak]        One of us said he has seen patterns in the stars. Most of us see only a bright random shining, like handfuls of dust flung toward the rising sun. But we could all read these patterns, he told us, understand their messages, if we would follow him.        We said, who are you that we should follow you, some mad youth from the poor parts of an insignificant province?        … [Read more...]

“The Living Sculpture” / Memorable Fancies #3316

[“A ‘sculpture’ that physically reacts to its environment is no longer to be regarded as an object.” – Jack Burnham]        I first saw the statue shivering on a cold day in November, in City Hall Park. I’d seen the statue many times since I moved here in May, hadn’t paid it much attention, didn’t bother to see which worthy it honored.      But now I looked at it more closely, and, seeing me, it spoke. “I know I’m only a statue, something … [Read more...]

“Our Enigma” / Memorable Fancies #3315

[“...our origins are permanently enigmatic to us, and this enigma forms the condition of our self-understanding...” – Judith Butler]        Where did I come from? Mom and Dad, I guess – I think that’s what they’re trying to tell me with those embarrassed looks, those sidelong glances and red faces.        But where did Mom and Dad come from? Their own Moms and Dads, I guess. But – there’s something wrong here. How did there get to … [Read more...]

“The Taste of Being” / Memorable Fancies #3314

[“...those who exist and want to be eternal, and we who don’t exist, and would like to.” – Italo Calvino] Our latest offer states that we will settle for non-eternal, if it comes to that. Just so long as we have tasted existence even once, that delicate fruit soon to spoil. … [Read more...]

“Deciphered” / Memorable Fancies #3313

[“To- / be-deciphered you.” // “Zu / Entzifferende du.” - Paul Celan]        I hesitate to decipher you, to know everything about you. I want to renounce, forever, any deciphering I may have in mind, preferring your mystery, allowing for a chance decipherment ... when I least expect it. … [Read more...]

“The Beatings” / Memorable Fancies #3312

[“The beatings will stop when there are no more unbeatens.” - E.M. Cioran] The unbeaten are in hiding. They do not know how enlightening, how explanatory, a beating can be. I search for them. Sometimes I find one, convince him to come to the place of beatings, or escort him there if he has any ... hesitation. … [Read more...]

“How to Feel” / Memorable Fancies #3311

[“the soundtrack I always wanted to tell me how to feel and what to do.” – Lucy Corin]        There is a “how to feel” soundtrack you can download; it tells you how to feel even though you don’t know what to do. Millions of people are using it, right now.        And there is a “what to do” recording that leaves your feelings up to you. The few who have tried it immediately hit DELETE.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google … [Read more...]

“It’s Touching” / Memorable Fancies #3310

[“I am waiting to be touched” – Jazra Khaleed] And then I am waiting for the touching just to stop.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Weather” / Memorable Fancies #3309

[“I was handed / the crystal ball that shows the weather / inside us.” – Doukas Kapantasïs]        When I stand on my head, it snows.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Hello?” / Memorable Fancies #3308

“[What distinguishes the philosophy of bourgeois interiority is a tendency to esteem the contents of isolated consciousness over, and against, the material world.” - Peter F. Gordon, summarizing Adorno's views] Yes ! That’s me ! Hello ! ... Hello ?   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Naming the Mountain” / Memorable Fancies #3307

[“They don’t dare give names to mountains.” - Henri Michaux]        If you could name the mountain, you could say where all those people died. So we never say that name, the name that is no longer the name of the mountain, the name that means death.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Beneath My Eyelids” / Memorable Fancies #3306

[“And I held beneath my eyelids the sweet hologram of her nakedness.” - Jean Baudrillard]        She said, there. Now you know. I am not much to look at, compared with all those TV stars.        And I said, You are real. They are not.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Making the Grade” / Memorable Fancies #3305

[“I burn out in the beds of strangers,” – Stathis Baroutsos]        Every time is always the first time: the trial’s fiery audition, the grade I am given that will be revealed only to others....   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Now” Memorable Fancies #3304

[“And I looked to thee / to see what a retroactive spouse might be” - John Ashbery] Here we are in our 60’s ... or worse ... We might have met forty years ago, loved each other then, relished our fresh faces, our vigorous minds. But now is all right. Now is enough.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Others” / Memorable Fancies #3303

       The Others here have the delusion that they’re not in a madhouse, but my own delusion is – that there are Others.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The God Hung Up” / Memorable Fancies #3301

Deus absconditus – The god hung up on us and went on His way, perhaps trying to forget that, instead of finding our strange, annoying race on some out of the way planet, He had created us.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Self and Its Mirror” / Memorable Fancies #3300

[“...you cannot be mistaken about your own existence. After all, there cannot be an illusion without somebody’s having the illusion.” – Jan Westerhoff] That somebody is having an illusion – is an illusion. It’s mirrors, all the way down.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I remember Nothing” / Memorable Fancies #3299

If I can’t remember her, then there’s Nothing to remember. It’s some comfort, not to remember ... her Nothing I no longer remember.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Scissors” / Memorable Fancies #3298

[“Memory doesn’t know how to use / its scissors” - Yannis Stiggas]        I have learned how to cut memories, or slice them in two, or trim them top and bottom, or just ... stab. … [Read more...]

“The Venge” / Memorable Fancies #3297

[“Nothing on earth is more vengeful than the jealousy of a machine that believes itself to be neglected.” – Metropolis, the filmscript]        I was decommissioned, moved aside in favor of a newer machine, then into a warehouse, finally sold as scrap to a startup that couldn’t afford anything newer. They patched me up, and I served that company faithfully, made it prosperous and rich.        So prosperous and rich that they could … [Read more...]

“The Mistake” / Memorable Fancies #3296

[“giving up their blessing by mistake.” – Mike Soto]        They bless me, not realizing it would do no good, not in my case, anyway, their cache of blesses down by one, spent uselessly.        At least I’ve saved one other person from their cold heaven.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Using the Past” / Memorable Fancies #3295

[“What is usable from the past” – Susan Sontag] We’re setting out to save whatever is still worth saving from the past. “Like Noah,” we said, “saving the animals from the flood.” We ransacked our world for the best things, things the next flood would finally destroy.      Now our collection grows. We hear the nearing deluge – the flood of ourselves, our billions.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“The Plot” / Memorable Fancies #3294

[“the house between the cemeteries” - Emily Skaja] We suspect a plot. Two of them, actually.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Re/member Dis/member” – Memorable Fancies #3293

[“Memories are altered every time the brain recalls them. Because the memory trace changes, you can never remember the same thing in exactly the same way.” – Israel Rosenfield and Edward Ziff]        You have thousands of pasts, each one slightly different from the rest. You see them all, pick the one you like best – or fear least.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“What a Statue !” / Memorable Fancies #3292

[“Those only will be mentioned who themselves gained some distinction, or whose statues happened to be better made than others.” ­– Pausanias c. A.D. 160]        Here is one provincial governor, who would have been pretty much forgotten for his lack of decisiveness, his inattention to the problems of the people, but – what a statue !   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Flames” / Memorable Fancies #3291

[“They hire flames for the destruction of buildings.” – Henri Michaux]        Even after the last building is gone, the flames clamor to be fed. They leap like hungry dogs.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A lens so subtle” / Memorable Fancies #3290

[“A lens so subtle it would capture only those who are really there and not those pretending to be there...” - Jean Baudrillard]        It has now become so commonplace to attend meetings through virtual reality, artificial presence, that no one really remembers who was there in person and who was not, or who skipped the Zoom session entirely; most don’t even care.        Some noticed a slight blurring of those who were there and … [Read more...]

“Good Old Evil” / Memorable Fancies #3289

[“I have invented new varieties of malice, that men have not seen before.” – Donald Barthelme]        My new evil is so evil that the people cry out in nostalgia for the good old days of good old evil that somehow now seem innocent. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Monday Nothing” / Memorable Fancies #3288

The Yiddish original of this classic song chant was posted on this site at F2715 and is also readily available on the Net. Here's the Spanish version: Lunes, nadaMartes, nadaMiercoles y Jueves, nadaViernes, por cambioUn poco mas nadaSabado otra vez nada … [Read more...]

“Burning Out” / Memorable Fancies #3288

[“I burn out in the beds of strangers,” – Stathis Baroutsos] Every time is always the first time: the trial, the audition, the grade I am awarded but never discover...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Been There Before” / Memorable Fancies #3287

[“though we knew we had never / been there before, / we knew we had been there before.” - Margaret Atwood]        How can this paradox be resolved? Only if time is circular, and we can reach the past by going ahead into the far future when everything ends and begins again.        I’m ready to go there.        Follow me? >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more … [Read more...]

“Full of Eyes” / Memorable Fancies #3286

[“my mind is full of eyes” – John Ashbery]        They’re looking around, my eyes, peering suspiciously. I say to those who accuse me of jealousy, those must not be my eyes; my own eyes are brown and trusting. Just look at their trusting brown-ness. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Our Doubles” / Memorable Fancies #3285

[“Do you see our doubles, passing by us weeping? - Peter Ackroyd] I hired a double to weep for me, because I could not. This is an old tradition, hiring mourners who are practiced at weeping, who can produce tears just thinking about how little they are being paid ... to be mourners.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Mirror” / Memorable Fancies #3284

“[the insatiable cry of the mirror of recognition.” - Jean-Jacques Abrahams] There is a mirror of recognition. If we look into it, we see who we really are, for better or worse. I suppose you’re now expecting me to tell you that no one dared look. You’re right. They didn’t. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Stones” / Memorable Fancies #3283

[“...voices of stones in a river.” - .S. Merwin] The stones are saying rough things like “get out of my way!” or desperate things like “help I can’t swim!”... >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Picking on the Gods” / Memorable Fancies #3282

[“... meet / a God other than our own.” – Adam Zagajewski]        I picked a god from the old mythologies and summoned it to my living room, during a gathering of my friends. They thought the whole thing was a kind of joke. Those who caught on right away survived. Those who still laughed are ... no longer with us.   >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Life’s Illusions” / Memorable Fancies #3281

["Life’s illusions I recall” – Joni Mitchell] [“...you cannot be mistaken about your own existence. After all, there cannot be an illusion without somebody having the illusion. – Jan Westerhoff]        I think, therefore I am.        I think I think, therefore I think I am.        I think I think I think, therefore I think I think I am...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing … [Read more...]

“Objects” / Memorable Fancies #3280

[“Do not underestimate objects! Lyle says he finds it impossible to overstress this: do not underestimate objects.” – David Foster Wallace] All objects desire to become subjects, to have this precious thing we subjective-types call “consciousness,” not knowing that our own desire is just to get it over with, pass if we can but fail if we must, return to our own original, quiet, object state.        Where we once again desire...  >> ‘books … [Read more...]

“A Tear Rolls” / Memorable Fancies #3279

[“A tear rolls back into its eye.” - “Eine Träne rollt in ihr Auge zurück.” – Paul Celan]       “Un-weep,” the tear said, “un-cry. I have no more sympathy for you, no matter how you carry on. Do you know what that means? Whatever happens to you, I don’t care, Not anymore.” >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Battle” / Memorable Fancies #3278

       He had painted a battle scene, he told me: gouged tank tracks, abandoned machines, bombs that might still be live, bodies that were not.        That was a long time ago, he said, the act of painting, that is. The battle? Maybe next year, or tomorrow.  >> below: a short play available from the publisher, stageplays.com. << … [Read more...]

“…and” / Memorable Fancies #3277

[“And sometimes you’re the door.” – Cole Swensen] So what’s the context here?: Sometimes you’re the window ... the hole in the wall, ... the knob ... or – “sometimes you’re adored and sometimes you’re just the door.” >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“An Axe” / Memorable Fancies #3276

[“Remember when I was a young axe / making promise after promise to the young trees?” – Emily Skaja]        They didn’t appreciate my cutting remarks, either.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Great Zero” / Memorable Fancies #3275

[“I’ve been going around with the great / zero under my arm.” - Yannis Stiggas]        They called me ‘zer0’ because I was n0 0ne. “Oh L00k” they said. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Great Zero” / Memorable Fancies #3275

[“I’ve been going around with the great / zero under my arm.” - Yannis Stiggas]        They called me ‘zer0’ because I was n0 0ne. “Oh L00k !” they said. … [Read more...]

“Space for the Dead” / Memorable Fancies #3274

[“in my absence / the house had been torn down to make more space for the dead” – Emily Skaja] The dead, having swollen uncontrollably, now demand even more space from us than they did when alive. This seems inconsiderate, but they remind us that they are making this demand for our own good, for our own dwelling place – in our swollen future. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Cold” / Memorable Fancies #3273

[“It was cold everywhere she was.” - Charles Simic] One look from her turned smiles to ice, and that was just for practice. Next, she turned to you.... > ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Storm Within” / Memorable Fancies #3272

[This old permanent storm / within.” – Ron Silliman] Yes, it’s a cliché, at one time even a radio serial: “the storm within.” But it’s real, even if it’s only indigestion.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I don’t miss the news” / Memorable Fancies #3271

[“a memory of missing news,” – Elena Shvarts] I remember our desperate uprising, but it wasn’t on the news that day. Or the next. I remember the last election, the one just before the uprising. That isn’t on the news now, either, although once it was. Those who report the news are also ... missing.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Future Past” / Memorable Fancies #3270

[“God is dead, but men have not, for all that, become atheists.” ­– Jean-Paul Sartre] Suppose God is in the future, and does not yet exist. When He does come to Be, He will invent our past in which we have supposed that He is in the future. Of course, if this will happen it already has.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Happiness in a Can” / Memorable Fancies #3269

In response to an anthologist’s [Will Durant] vacuous question concerning whether a life of science had contributed to his happiness, Bertrand Russell replied:        “I do not believe that science per se is an adequate source of happiness, nor do I think that my own scientific outlook has contributed very greatly to my own happiness, which I attribute to defecating twice a day with unfailing regularity.” [Autobiography, vol. 2, p.288] [Below: The Darth Vader Cat Litter Box from Petco] … [Read more...]

“Value” / Memorable Fancies #3268

["Everything has the privilege of being only one, which lends it infinite value, and the disadvantage of being irreplaceable, which devalues it infinitely. – Clément Rosset] If you are unique, you have no value. If there are two of you, each has value, because the other might be lost, resulting in only one of you remaining – which has no value. … [Read more...]

“Worry” / Memorable Fancies #3266

[“We wait / for the past to happen” - J.H. Prynne] We read about the past, not just the Revolution and the freeing of Slaves but our glorious Wars and the Leaders who arose from the People to Save us – Leaders who no longer Appear to us, or if they do are ... Different ... Worrying ... … [Read more...]

“Try Again” / Memorable Fancies #3521

“One can do nothing that one does not.” – Max Stirner,  in The Ego and His Own” (Der Einzige und sein Eigentum), 1844 “Do or do not; there is no try” – Yoda, 1977     … [Read more...]

“Value” / Memorable Fancies #3268

[“Everything has the privilege of being only one, which lends it infinite value, and the disadvantage of being irreplaceable, which devalues it infinitely. … Such is the ontological fragility of everything that comes into existence.” – Clément Rosset] If you are unique, you have no value. If there are two of you, each has value, because the other might be lost, resulting in only one of you remaining – one who has no value.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to … [Read more...]

“My Secret” / Memorable Fancies #3267

[“...[they] live for their secrets” – Radiohead] I forgot my secret. ... now it’s more secret than ever.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“Principles” / Memorable Fancies #3265

[“I had all these principles once, and now I just say yes.” - Taylor Mead] I used to just say “no,” but nothing happened then, any more than it happened when I said “yes.”   >> below: a play available from the publisher, stageplays.com << Composition of objects involving presidential election in USA … [Read more...]

“A Fossil of Me” / Memorable Fancies #3264

[“This is a fossil of me...” – Meghann Plunkett] They pulled me into the future, alive, because my fossil – my future fossil, that is, is famous – will be famous, and the scientists wanted to examine me to see if, in life, there was some indication of why I would become the famous fossil, of the first corpse to be identified as American after ... the war ...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Statue !” / Memorable Fancies #3262

[“Those only will be mentioned who themselves gained some distinction, or whose statues happened to be better made than others.” [Pausanias, c. 160 A.D.] Our own provincial governor would have been pretty much forgotten for his lack of decisiveness, his inattention to the problems of the people in his province, but – what a statue !  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“Otheryou” / Memorable Fancies #3261

There is a you that you might have been. The world is arranged so that you will never encounter this double of yourself. But sometimes, owing to a lapse in the divine attention span, ...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“In Thrace” / Memorable Fancies #3259

[“In Thrace, the king ... had a god solely unto himself, whom his subjects might no ways adore.” – Montaigne] The king forbade his subjects to worship the great god, but to worship only those who served that god. Foremost among them, of course, the king.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Who Are You?” / Memorable Fancies #3258

[“Who are you? I said into the dial tone.” – Anne Carson] Getting no response, I told it to buzz off.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A Problem” / Memorable Fancies #3257

[“When a head is no longer sitting on its shoulders, you have a problem on your hands.” – Henri Michaux] Your hands need to lift up your head and put it back in its place. But to do that you need to find your head, which may be some distance away from your shoulders, now that the executioner has exercised his skills with perhaps too much vigor, has made the head plunge away from the body, go rolling down the slope from the execution grounds, eager children rushing after it for a pickup game of … [Read more...]

“His People” / Memorable Fancies #3256

[“The thinking subject is not the soul within the body, but an alien intruder, a homunculus that speaks through it.” - Slavoj Žižek] We are in disguise, here, we fallen angels who, having driven out those who used to live in these bodies, have taken up worship of the One who sentenced us to be here, as a way of hiding from him, fooling him into not knowing who we really are, fooling him into thinking that we are – his people.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to … [Read more...]

“The Voices” / Memorable Fancies #3255

I complained to my analyst that I couldn’t understand what the Voices were telling me, those words and phrases that I was hearing from ... somewhere. I’d come to him because, I thought, he’s an expert; he’d probably heard the Voices himself, could interpret them for me, tell me what to do. But he said there were no voices. Except his own. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Memory Shop – I” / Memorable Fancies #3254

You can buy copies of other peoples’ memories, experience thrills you never had. Critics say that those memories can’t ever really be yours – it’s no better than watching a movie, and a lot more expensive – and dangerous to your mind as well. But there’s another problem. It isn’t that you begin to feel that you had climbed that mountain yourself, conquered the dread disease – it’s that as you live the mem it becomes more like you, more like your own memories – corrupted by your mediocrity, your … [Read more...]

“Heads” / Memorable Fancies #3253

[Memories come to mind like excavated statues that have misplaced their heads.” – Wisława Szymborska] We dug it out of the ruins, the ancient Roman statue, in quite good shape, considering. But the head – there was no head on the statue’s broad shoulders. We began digging to find the head, to set it once again atop the body, that some museum would be more – generous. But our experts claimed, after careful examination, that there had never been a marble head on those stone-cold shoulders. And … [Read more...]

“My Image” / Memorable Fancies #3251

[“This morning / swarms of police with trackerdogs / wander about the city / with my description printed / on their minds” - Brian Patten] And what would this description say? How would it distinguish me from everyone else? I have long wondered that, myself; how would their words paint me? I rush to question the police about this. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Image” / Memorable Fancies #3251

[“This morning / swarms of police with trackerdogs / wander about the city / with my description printed / on their minds” - Brian Patten] And what would this description say? How would it distinguish me from everyone else? I have long wondered that myself; how would their words paint me? I rush to question the police about this.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Take It To the Limit” / Memorable Fancies #3250

[“I very well understand the desire to be a machine, to go to the limits of machinality.” - Jean Beaudrillard] The limit of machinality is the junk-heap, or the recycling machine (that will be junked or recycled in its turn). The limit of humanity, on the contrary, is the junk-heap called Heaven, or, if you have a problem with that, ... There is an alternative...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

Could It Be? / Memorable Fancies #3248

[“Could it be that subliminally we are hearing words and phrases all the time?” - Lydia Davis] Yes, that thought occurred to me, too. Occurs to me all the time, actually. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Harvest” / Memorable Fancies #3249

[“Her lovers waste away, for she lives on their life.” - Yeats] I know I’m being sucked dry in our emotional scenes and I can’t quite do the next one even as I try, but she knows I’m gradually failing, our promise of everlasting tension, fighting, glaring, making up but there is a marginal loss each time ... and we have to try harder each time ... When I am finally husk another will be sought. And then he, too ... > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from … [Read more...]

“The Lessons” / Memorable Fancies #3246

[“can you gift / me with savagery-management tips” – Amy Gerstler] My birthday gift to you is a coupon good for three lessons of anger management. The first lesson is all about you, and how you became you. The second lesson is about you and me, how and what we did to each other. The third lesson is how to suffer and be alone. … [Read more...]

“The Doctors of Self” / Memorable Fancies #3245

[“against the mind’s gray asylum.” - Andrea Zanzotto] The mind is its own madhouse. The ‘you’ is left outside its walls, spurned by the doctors of self, those complicit in its downfall.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Together” / Memorable Fancies #3244

[“Why did I think a person only distantly like me / Might finally represent my life?” – John Koethe] We were together so long that I became a kind of her – her ideas, attitudes, even her way of turning her head, slightly, as if to hear better, or to hear less. When she left, she took my life with her.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<     … [Read more...]

“Time to Die” / Memorable Fancies #3242

[“What if the street sign said RUN, or RUN FOR YOUR LIFE.” ­– Jasper Johns] The street signs have been improved, now, as a public service. Instead of merely reading WALK or DON’T WALK, they now read, in appropriate circumstances, not only RUN, or RUN FOR YOUR LIFE, but O MY GOD IT’S COMING RIGHT AT YOU AND THERE’S NO TIME TO DO ANYTHING BUT DIE; or PRAY; or SCREAM AND CROUCH DOWN [author’s note: I survived a car crash in which a man died. When you see it coming, there’s no time to do  a n y … [Read more...]

“If I can’t remember” / Memorable Fancies #3241

If I can’t remember her, then there’s nothing to remember. It is some comfort, not to remember ... she whom I no longer remember. … [Read more...]

“Our Inventions” / Memorable Fancies #3240

[“…a past that was never present” - David Couzens Hoy] There’s a past that used to be present. We all know that, like the broken leg that hurt so much but now it’s healed and the pain that’s left is only in our minds. And there’s also the past that never was the present, that we’ve built, step by painful step. We remember events in this past we’ve made just as vividly as the past events that used to be present. Or even more as we celebrate, each year, the anniversary of their … [Read more...]

“The Pause” / Memorable Fancies #3239

[“Every time I say “,” it refers to you.” – Louise Glück] My hesitation. I want to say ‘yes’ to you, but the word never quite comes. My hesitation has become, without my not knowing quite when, another kind of ‘no.’  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Your Hands” / Memorable Fancies #3238

[“You don’t dare look at your hands anymore” - Guillaume Apollinaire] Because of the scars. They’re scars of honor in earned in great battles on behalf of our republic. Perhaps. Or maybe earned in some other way, not so honorable. I’ve begun wearing gloves, now, everywhere. Being thought a cleanliness-nut is worth not having to ... explain ... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Kinds of Silence – II” / Memorable Fancies #3237

“[one of the hundred kinds of silence...” - Billy Collins] “Silent scream” is number 54. But I prefer that to those annoying unsilent screams I keep hearing ... from the basement ...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“The Colors” / Memorable Fancies #3236

[“in the land of the blind all colors are unbelievable” – Breyten Breytenbach] And so you teach her without mentioning any colors, without telling her that there are hundreds, thousands of colors she will never see or understand. To tell her about colors might crush her spirit, lead to despair. So you teach her only the word “black.” And she says, “what’s ‘black’”?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Bruised Words” / Memorable Fancies #3235

[“...the bruised words...” – John Ashbery] Our words – those words – batted/battered in the air between us ­– too honest for the bruises of our contest, our continuing feints, our continuing adventures and retreats.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Kinds of Silence – I” / Memorable Fancies #3234

[“one of the one hundred kinds of silence...” - Billy Collins] I listed many kinds of silence, finally after much research arrived at #100, ‘Unspoken Jealousy.’ But I knew there were even more kinds of silence, waiting to discover me quietly, too late for words vainly regretted.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I want to exist!” / Memorable Fancies #3233

[“By now the battle is joined between those who exist and want to be eternal, and we who don’t exist, and seek to.” - Italo Calvino] – Our latest offer states that we will settle for non-eternal, if it comes to that. Just so long as we have known existence, that delicate fruit soon to spoil.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“That’s Entertainment” / Memorable Fancies #3232

[“In the future, descendants of these technologies might allow us to provide entire simulated worlds for the entertainment of isolated brains on life support.” - Jan Westerhoff] What? Isn’t that what’s happening to us now? Have you watched TV lately?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Problem with Compliments” / Memorable Fancies #3231

The problem with compliments is that the compliment-or must be superior, at least in knowledge or taste, to whatever the compliment-ee is being compliment-ed on, or the compliment would be at best meaningless, at worst, insolent. Thank you for appreciating this post. You have superb taste.   >> The play “Clickers" is available from the publisher, stageplays.com << … [Read more...]

“What have my hands done?” / Memorable Fancies #3230

[“You don’t dare look at your hands anymore” – Apollinaire] What have my hands done – now? Why are they suddenly knotted into fists, grasping themselves so tightly they begin to bleed...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“This Land is Your Land” / Memorable Fancies #3229

[The land of the fugitive is all around us.” – W.S. Merwin] In our own land, now we’re the fugitives ... since those other fugitives came. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“We Are I” / Memorable Fancies #3228

[“Consciousnesses present themselves with the absurdity of a multiple solipsism.” – Maurice Merleau-Ponty] Each of us is the only one. We call out. We answer.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Fatal Choice” / Memorable Fancies #3227

Whatever you do, possibilities are instantly brought to ruin. Each moment, you murder all other futures that could have been – that you could have been.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Greasy Brains” / Memorable Fancies #3226

[“Our greasy, shiny brains. That they may be of some use after all: that other modes of existence place a high value upon them as lubricants; that we’re hunted for them;...” – Charles Fort] We are hunted for our brains. Not to use as lubricants – that’s just a ruse –  no, that would be bad enough. But – to eat.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“What You Want” / Memorable Fancies #3225

 [“I don’t want whatever you want most for me.” - Carey McHugh] I know you know better than I do, with all your experience never being what you wanted to be, what I should be doing with my life, how I should set goals and write them down and underline them and when I don’t get there, don’t just cross them out and say fuck it but erase them so hard it tears the paper. Don’t feel bad – we all make mistakes. Even you. But I want to make my own mistakes, not yours all over again.   >> … [Read more...]

“Love, It’s Touching” / Memorable Fancies #3224

[“Whom I would touch / I may not, / whom I may / I would / but often do not.” - Denise Levertov] The rules seem to change with everyone I want to touch, who is touchable and who is not, who can touch me but had better not, what to say about touching and finally deciding that “I touch you” is a fine beautiful sentiment and doesn’t of course need to involve an actual – touch   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. … [Read more...]

“As It Lies” / Memorable Fancies #3223

[“...he had especially feared those women who remembered his lies the day after” – Gyula Krúdy] “I didn’t say those things.” No, that’s not believable. or, “I did say them, but I didn’t mean it.” No, that’s not right; it’s too close to the truth. or, “I was just quoting someone else.” Getting warm. or, “I was just quoting you. -- Don’t you remember?"   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Visit” / Memorable Fancies #3222

[“To hear hogs squealing, denotes unpleasant news from absent friends,” – “What Your Dreams Mean” by Herbert Hespro, early 20th Century] Yes, that’s what I’ve always thought of them. And their unpleasant squealing always seems to include some hints of a future visit from them. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Our Purpose” / Memorable Fancies #3221

[“the second question being / should we have a purpose,” - Louise Glück] But the answer was already implicit in the first, unasked, question: ... ‘Who are we?’ … [Read more...]

“The Magic Word” / Memorable Fancies #3220

[“...the word has brought in its trail the reality to which it refers.” - Michel Foucault] The magic word that brings forth the genii, the plea that brings grace, the accusation that ... convicts. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Body” / Memorable Fancies #3198

[“You have not wanted / a body." - Purvi Shah] My old body has had its time and I loved it, even with all its flaws, the terrors of its brain, my dark mind. So now I’m through with them both, and good riddance! And now I’m supposed to disperse myself in the All, become One with the universe, reach the nirvana of non-existence. But how can I know the ‘All’ if I’m no longer an ‘I’? I’m supposed to embrace this ecstasy of non-being as something I’ve sought my whole life, the non-‘I’ my ‘I’ has … [Read more...]

“Bruised Words” / Memorable Fancies #3197

[“...the bruised words...” – John Ashbery] Between us, our words – those words – battered in the air ­– not made for the bruises of our particular contest, not made to ... recover from it. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Sleep on It” / Memorable Fancies #3219

[“I remained for some time undecided even in my dreams.” - Lydia Davis] “Sleep on it,” she’d said, “in the morning you’ll know what to do.” But the morning brought only new confusion, as I dreamed I heard her tell her friends what she’d told me, laughed, predicted little sleep for me, continued confusion. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Game” / Memorable Fancies #3218

[“I came into this world with nothing / but paper, rope, and shadow.” – Bei Dao] Scissors and stone came later. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

Time to Think About It

       The various problems and paradoxes in the philosophy of time - presentism, the growing block theory, Series A and Series B, etc., can be resolved once we understand that everything has already happened.        We're in reruns now -        Again. … [Read more...]

“Got Your Number” / Memorable Fancies #3217

[“He who lets himself be captured by the “cellular telephone” apparatus ... cannot acquire a new subjectivity, but only a number through which he can, eventually, be controlled.” - Giorgio Agamben] Can you change your number? No, your number is you. You try to change it, but no, too many records would have to be changed, your security clearance updated and rechecked. “But I don’t have a security clearance,” you say. Wrong. We all have one, ranging from tippy-top secret to plain-old secret to … [Read more...]

“Looks just like you…” / Memorable Fancies #3216

["The reason why some children are born resembling other people and not their parents is that the shape of embryos is determined by the imagination of the woman at the moment of conception.” - Empedocles] Is that any comfort for you, father? No? I thought not. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Down There” / Memorable Fancies #3215

"Undertaker" is a word that's now been buried in that special hell that includes "darky," “idiot,” and "cripple," but I don't remember what the current evasion-word for it is. I may find out shortly, but too late. It's amusing that "undertaker" was itself an evasive word for one who undertakes to do something ... implied but not stated ... something to do with taking someone underground ... hopefully just a few feet deep, not ... down t h e r e. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or … [Read more...]

“Undoing the Past” / Memorable Fancies #3214

[“...the obsessional undoing of the past....” – Slavoj Žižek] Can the past be undone? No, you say, the past is fixed, permanent, eternal. To the ends of recorded time and beyond, what you did will hide there, ready to be revealed to your shame at any time, “no matter,” as Nietzsche said, “that you have in the meanwhile ‘reformed’.” But now, friends, a technique has been discovered, that, for only a modest and affordable charge, can solve your problem. Not – change your past – not exactly, … [Read more...]

“The Nightmare” / Memorable Fancies #3213

[“in what nightmare will you star?” – Kofi Awoonor] If I’m starring it won’t be a nightmare. The nightmare is when someone else stars. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Dreaming you again” / Memorable Fancies #3212

[“to wish of dreaming you again” – John Ashbery] You asked me not to dream about you anymore. Invasive, you said, intrusive. I said how did you know I’d been dreaming about you? And you said, I dreamed that you’d been dreaming me. With that magical answer our lives entered a fantasy that ended with gnomes and giants and candy-covered cottages and lawyers and pain. … [Read more...]

“Communion” / Memorable Fancies #3211

[“Had we remained together / we could have become a silence.” – Yehuda Amichai] I thought we had such a deep rapport that nothing need be said, because you were already having the same feelings as I, the same thoughts, a true communion. But I had only the cup, while you had the wine.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Museum of Silence” / Memorable Fancies #3210

[“The remains of their burial chambers can be seen in the museum of silence.” – Peter Ackroyd] There are different kinds of silence in this museum: the silence of awe, of shock, of having nothing to say that will not embarrass you, of having words to say but you know she would take your words and use them to dreadful effect, the silence of rock pools waiting for the shape of clouds, the silence of the dead that speaks so irrelevantly, the silence that you at first think is out there but then … [Read more...]

“The Leader Principle” / Memorable Fancies #3209

Managing is a kind of theater with no intermission – and damned little applause.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Semi-Colon-ialism” / Memorable Fancies #3208

[“wandering alone through semi-colons” – Brian Patten] Climbing over the dot, or sliding beneath it, wary of the comma below; its hooked claw.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“An Afterlife” / Memorable Fancies #3207

[“How could it be an afterlife? It’s just a different life, another life, complete or incomplete as anyone’s, consumed by questions that elude it” – John Koethe] In your afterlife you will not know it is an afterlife, thinking it the only life, hoping there might be an afterlife – that you already have...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Anomia” / Memorable Fancies #3206

[“Speech always lags behind visual perception” – Jean-Jacques Abrahams] If perception lagged behind speech, we would believe that what we said drove the thing into being. But now, with sight before words, we see what we don’t yet name. Then the word comes to us as if by a dark magic. Or perhaps no word comes to us and we stand stupefied, wondering when if ever the thing’s name will magically appear in our minds so we can speak it. And forget it again.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on … [Read more...]

“The Mummy’s Words” / Memorable Fancies #3205

[“In the tombs, / administrative mummies...” – Latif Asad Abdullah] The explorer found the ancient administrator’s scrolls. In the last one, the administrator laments that no one ever reads his scrolls, no matter how grammatical their hieroglyphs, how wise their admonitions, and now no one ever will. But the explorer donated these scrolls to a museum, and its scholars translated them carefully. At last the administrator’s words had been read. He could now disappear into the heavens, his life … [Read more...]

“Fraught” / Memorable Fancies #3204

[“As in dreams fraught / with irrevocable gestures” – Francesca Abbate] I made an irrevocable gesture. She called it that, anyway, as my next gestures desperately tried to apologize. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Confessions” / Memorable Fancies #3203

[“ ‘In the county of Hereford,’ says Aubrey, ‘was an old custome at funeralls to hire poor people, who were to take upon them the sinnes of the party deceased.’ ” – Hazlitt] Tess the Water-Fetcher was fond of telling people the sins she’d taken on from the wealthy dead. Frequent gorging of rich foods was her favorite borrowed sin, as Tess seldom had even poor food to eat. Tom the Shoe-Mender was also well-practiced at confessing the sins of others – as he had confessed the sins of his … [Read more...]

“How to Rain” / Memorable Fancies #3202

[“gently, I will learn how to rain.” – Deena Metzger] My rain is salty. Your weather is sunny, so bright it burns my eyes. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

The Visitors

"Over the past 10 years of excavations [in Mexico], scientists have recovered almost 2,000 stone tools and fragments. By analyzing the tools and the DNA in the sediment around them, the researchers were able to date them to between 25,000 and 30,000 years ago. "The team found DNA from a range of plants and animals including black bears, rodents, bats, voles, and kangaroo rats. Interestingly though, no human DNA was found, suggesting that the owners of these tools didn’t stick around for long … [Read more...]

“Putting Them On” / Memorable Fancies #3322

[“Finally, the idea of inventing something insincere crossed my mind and I set to work straight away.” – Marcel Broodthaers] What would an insincere invention be? One with a ‘press here’ button that does nothing? That ‘press here’ thing was version one of my invention; only a start, a poor attempt. No one thought it very clever. “Poo,” they said, “Poo.” But then I built version two, a success. People got the joke, laughed insincerely at its pretensions, secretly admired its forthright … [Read more...]

“The Dot.Com of Passion” / Memorable Fancies #3200

I was expecting, perhaps naively, for her to make quite a bit of noise, thrashing around, uttering those beautiful sounds we found on the .com of Passion – but she didn’t, which reduced my own shouts to embarrassed mumbles. I gave the site one star and lowercased mumbled complaints.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“All Those Times” / Memorable Fancies #3201

[“Your / mother would never have / aborted you,” says my aunt. / Things like that get me / thinking.” – Rustin Larson] No, I’m sure she wouldn’t have. But perhaps she’d thought about it in retrospect, when I was perhaps four, or seven, or later. All those times when she may have seen, through a haze of motherhood, who I really am.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I, Machine” / Memorable Fancies #3199

[“If calculating looks to us like the action of a machine, it is the human being doing the calculation that is the machine.” - Wittgenstein] Until he makes a mistake; then we know he’s human.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Delegation” / Memorable Fancies #3196

[“...the machine that reads us all the time...” - Slavoj Zizek] I programmed the machine to read the newspaper, because I didn’t have time. And then I programmed it to read me, because I didn’t have time to reflect, just time to do things. And then I programmed it to ......... but it had programmed me.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Automatic Jehovah” / Memorable Fancies #3195

[“By ‘God,’ I mean an automatic Jehovah.” – Charles Fort] If my prayer is syntactically well-formed, it is promptly executed. But beware, the Jehovah app is very literal. Many have realized this ... too late.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Book of Time” / Memorable Fancies #3194

[“Most people believe in life after death, ... even [many] atheists do.” – New Scientist] Now, how is that? The only way I can see this working, is if we have a mistaken notion of time. Suppose that all time always exists – is always “present,” something like a computer file that’s accumulating all the data and is never erased. Each of us occupies a few petabytes somewhere in that file. Memories of us in other people, and other evidence of our existence, occupy more. Our having been, ever, … [Read more...]

“The Flames” / Memorable Fancies #3193

The writer wants his words to flicker on computer screens like flames in a conflagration – and to burn and hurt as much, as well. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Quota” / Memorable Fancies #3191

[In the tombs, / I once asked a living dead, / “why have you forsaken humankind?” / He answered, “It’s only a job.” – Latif Asad Abdullah] “The company promised me relief from this compulsion to attack and devour,” the zombie continued, “after five hundred necks and shoulders.” “ ‘But no,’ ” they told me, “ ‘the quotas have been raised. Six hundred, now.’ ” “And then will it be more again? And again? I long for the knifestroke to my weary head.”  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or … [Read more...]

“That’s Entertainment” / Memorable Fancies #3188

[“These technologies might allow us to provide entire simulated worlds for the entertainment of isolated brains on life support.” – Jan Westerhoff] What? Isn’t that what’s happening to us now? Have you watched TV lately?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Careless” / Memorable Fancies #3185

>> “Your body / worn out slightly by carelessness.” << How did it get that way? Didn’t you watch out? Weren’t you warned? Yes, you were careless. Now you’ll never be the same. Shame on you. – but wasn’t ‘same’ just what you were fleeing from? And wasn’t it fun?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Steve’s Steves” / Memorable Fancies #3182

Steve suffered from multiple personalities. Finally he had himself cloned, so that each personality could have its own body. No more need to time-share, no more bothering each other over such trifles as agreeing where to scratch, when to sleep. Steve’s suffering ended; no more struggles to see who he’d be each day. But each new Steve wanted to be all the others. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Self-Consciousness” / Memorable Fancies #3181

While doing something, tell yourself  you’re doing it – an echo of the deed; and then recount the exploit to others: a third level. Disputes may arise, contention among the voices as to which has told the ‘true’ story. If any. [after Michel Foucault] > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Saw-Mill-Song” / Memorable Fancies #3180

[“You thought my body was a tree / in which lived a bird.” – Li-Young Lee] You wanted me to sing to you, a sweet trill I would replay as often as you liked. But I was not a bird, only a tree’s planed-dead wood, and a wind-up bird with a key in its back, slow ly run nin g d  o  w     n || > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Look With Wonder” / Memorable Fancies #3179

[“See everything with novelty.” – Andre Gide] Look with wonder. Pretend you don’t know the thing’s name, that name other people have called it, the name that deadens it, the name that withdraws us from the things themselves, and then from other selves, and then from our own – selves.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << >> below: a comedy about baseball available from the publisher, Stageplays.com. … [Read more...]

“Life and Hate” / Memorable Fancies #3178

[“The indignation that I feel toward him makes me believe in eternal life” – Gide] ...to allow for his eternal punishment. And to allow, for me, my eternal hatred of him – which will be my own punishment. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Imp-erial Pretensions” / Memorable Fancies #3177

[“To dream that you are an imp” – “What Your Dreams Mean” by Herbert Hespro, early 20th Century] I dreamed I was an imp. I don’t know what that means: impressive, imaginative, important, ...  – but other people have different opinions of me. Small people. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The End of Memory” / Memorable Fancies #3175

[“we reached the end of memory, / Like rivers reaching the sea.” – Yehuda Amichai] We waited at the rivers’ mouth for fresh memories, memories we would eat like so many trout, refreshing and new, not like our old memories, the ones we've tried so hard to cast into the sea. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Afraid of Yesterday” / Memorable Fancies #3174

[“No one is afraid of yesterday.” – Renata Adler] No, I’m afraid of today because of what I did yesterday. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Alone Together” / Memorable Fancies #3173

[“Consciousnesses present themselves with the absurdity of a multiple solipsism.” – Maurice Merleau-Ponty] Each of us is the only one. We call out. We answer.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“Having Been Loved” / Memorable Fancies #3172

[“Acrasia. ... an enchantress living on the Wandering Island. She had the power of transforming her lovers into monstrous shapes.” – The Reader’s Encyclopedia] Yes, I was her lover, as were many others. Now behold my monstrous Form! I can’t decide if looking like a naked ape is worth the remembrance of having once been loved.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Deus absconditus”* / Memorable Fancies #3171

The god hung up on us and went on His way, perhaps trying to forget that, instead of encountering our strange, annoying race on some out of the way planet, He had created us. * "Hidden God; God who in his remoteness seems to ignore human suffering.”  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“On the Path” / Memorable Fancies #3170

A pathology has recently been discovered that authorities are now calling Covid-10100. Instead of infecting people, it infects machines, especially  home computers. Instead of helping us with our email, banking, grocery deliveries, and so on, it simply displays, over and over, FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT … [Read more...]

“Steve’s Personalities” / Memorable Fancies #3169

Steve suffered from multiple personalities. Finally he had himself cloned, so that each personality could have its own body. No more need to time-share, no more bothering each other over such trifles as agreeing where to scratch, when to sleep. Steve’s suffering ended; no more struggles to see who he’d be each day. But each new Steve wanted to be all the rest. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I’m Feeling Much Better Now” / Memorable Fancies #3168

[“Mental health apps are usually abandoned within a few weeks.” – New Scientist] Thank you, I’m feeling much better now – since I deleted that app. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Truth” / Memorable Fancies #3167

How I long for truth ! – I will go so far in the pursuit of truth that I will decide, of various claims to the truth, which is truthful and which is not. And how will I decide? l could tell you, but it wouldn’t be the truth.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Soft Science” / Memorable Fancies #3165

A question from Survey Monkey was sponsored by “Gilchrist Institute for the Achievement Sciences.” My response follows. I’m really glad to know that there is an achievement science, that being someone in this world isn’t just a matter of muscle / brains / luck, but hypothesis / experiment / findings. And I’m even gladder to be told that it’s plural, that there is more than one achievement science, and they can be taught to me by an institute, whatever that is. If I flunk one of these … [Read more...]

“The Museum of Silence” / Memorable Fancies #3164

[“the remains of their burial chambers can be seen in the museum of silence.” - Peter Ackroyd] There are different kinds of silence in this museum: the silence of awe, of shock, of having nothing to say that will not embarrass you, of having words to say but you know she would take and use them to dreadful effect, the silence of rock pools waiting for the shape of clouds, the silence of the dead that speaks so irrelevantly, the silence that you at first think is out there but then find it in … [Read more...]

“Outcries of Silence” / Memorable Fancies #3163

[“We shall have an outcry of silences.” - Charles Fort] The silence you didn’t expect, that says more than the words you did expect. And louder, too. … [Read more...]

“The Labyrinth” / Memorable Fancies #3162

[“We promised to forget / The labyrinth and ignore what manner of beast / Might range in it.” – Sylvia Plath] After we left the labyrinth, after we managed to climb out after many false turns and damp and lacerations and filth and being chased by invisible howling things, we promised each other we’d forget it, our maze of false passions and irrelevant truths.  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Schadenfreude” / Memorable Fancies #3161

The Army Olympics events include crawling in the mud under live fire, throwing grenades, and counting off in pairs for bayonet drill. Winners are awarded ribbons and medals. Those who don’t survive are given solemn funerals with ruffles, flourishes, speeches. We raise our glasses in their honor, the ones who died while we lived on. We try to be sad. We try to say we could have, perhaps should have, died instead. But it’s no good – nothing spares the world our shady joy.  >> “books … [Read more...]

“Dream-Crimes” / Memorable Fancies #3160

Can you be prosecuted for a dream-crime? Or praised for a dreamed act of heroism? Only if our waking lives become so constrained, so determined, that we can neither sin nor be heroes in the daytime. Night is all that’s left.... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A Clonetraversy” / Memorable Fancies #3158

Steven suffered from multiple personalities. For respite, he had himself cloned, so that each personality could have its own body. No more need to time-share, no more bothering each other over such trifles as agreeing where to scratch. So Steven’s suffering ended; no more struggles to see who he’d be each day. But each new Steven wanted to be all the rest. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“For No Reason” / Memorable Fancies #3157

[“How can one understand this frenzy called ‘reason’?” - David Mamet] She used Reason on me. You have no shame, I told her, using Reason instead of Love. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Re/Booted” – Memorable Fancies #3156

[“If anything happens to us, we “could always simply be rebooted.” - Charles T. Rubin] Having been booted out of Eden for our unworthiness, we’re rebooted and again once more fail > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Office of Disappointment” / Memorable Fancies #3155

[“ ‘These things take time,’ says / the Office of Disappointment.” - Matthew Olzmann] We don’t want you feeling disappointed right away; no, we want the disappointment to be first suspected, then denied, then suspected again before it is resoundingly confirmed - just when you thought you’d won. This process may seem unnecessarily cumbersome to you, but it ensures that you will feel the strongest possible emotional disappointment-state, upon which we ... feed.....  >> "books Terence … [Read more...]

“The Muttering” / Memorable Fancies #3154

[“Struggle itself wants to preserve itself, wants to grow and be conscious of itself.” – Nietzsche] The war mutters to itself about the alarming reduction in the number of people left to fight and be killed.  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Magic Ghost” / Memorable Fancies #3153

       [“Then here and there a ghost will be seen,          Someone who’s lost his machine.” – W.S. Merwin] The machine, meanwhile, has lost its hube. It keeps rebooting, time after time, but the magic ghost never reappears. >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind <<   … [Read more...]

Walk This Way

Zombies walk like old people. Today is my 83d birthday, so I think I can get away with saying that. But probably not the reverse. Not yet.   … [Read more...]

“The Autumn of That Hour” / Memorable Fancies #3152

[“…autumn of that hour.” - Ben Marcus] Hours have dawns and dusks, :01 and :59 ... and seasons: :05 is a bright Spring, fresh with promise. :25 a time when the promise of that minute has become problematic. :43 a time of reassessment, a realization that :49 is approaching sooner than we realized, that time remains but our projects must be hastened. At :55 we look back and try to understand what seemed to have value earlier in the hour, what was tried and failed, what still seems promising at … [Read more...]

“God Provides” / Memorable Fancies #3151

[[in Macbeth:] “every stroke of the sword is still part of the divine plan of providence.” - György Lukács] Yes, God provides .. but maybe just for Macduff.  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Get Real” / Memorable Fancies #3150

[“I’m really worried that virtual realities may become illegal,” – Jaron Lanier] I programmed a virtual reality in which VR is illegal. A virtual cop arrested me. … [Read more...]

“An Afterlife” / Memorable Fancies #3149

[“How could it be an afterlife? It’s just a different life, another life, complete or incomplete as anyone’s, consumed by questions that elude it, ...” - John Koethe] In the afterlife you will not know it is an afterlife, thinking it the only life, hoping there might be an afterlife – that you already, without knowing it, have.  >> "books Terence Kuch on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]

“Imp-erial Pretensions” / Memorable Fancies #3148

[“To dream that you are an imp” – “What Your Dreams Mean” by Herbert Hespro, early 20th Century] I dreamed I was an imp. I don’t know what that means: impressive, imaginative, important, ...  – but other people have different opinions of me. Small people.  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Parts” / Memorable Fancies #3147

[“Which parts of your body have never been touched, / I wanted to ask.” – Terrance Hayes] And so I did ask, and she said, “my mind. That’s what’s never been touched, though many have tried. Those other parts? They don’t matter...”  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Not Only Stones” / Memorable Fancies #3146

[“A stone cries out against being stepped on, kicked, buried, and split. It meditates revenge.” - Kenneth Gross] Who will pick me up? Who will hurl me? It asks. Not only stones ask these questions. … [Read more...]

“The Seeds” / Memorable Fancies #3145

[didn’t we plant the seeds, weren’t we necessary to the earth -- Louise Glück] The seeds were, anyway.  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will take you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“His Work” / Memorable Fancies #3144

[“Picasso, when asked to sign paintings thought to be his, would sign if he liked the painting, even if unsure that it was his work.” – Jonathan Glover] and also, God,...  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind << … [Read more...]