“Deciphered” / Memorable Fancies #3313

[“To- / be-deciphered you.” // “Zu / Entzifferende du.” - Paul Celan]        I hesitate to decipher you, to know everything about you. I want to renounce, forever, any deciphering I may have in mind, preferring your mystery, allowing for a chance decipherment ... when I least expect it. … [Read more...]

“The Beatings” / Memorable Fancies #3312

[“The beatings will stop when there are no more unbeatens.” - E.M. Cioran] The unbeaten are in hiding. They do not know how enlightening, how explanatory, a beating can be. I search for them. Sometimes I find one, convince him to come to the place of beatings, or escort him there if he has any ... hesitation. … [Read more...]

“How to Feel” / Memorable Fancies #3311

[“the soundtrack I always wanted to tell me how to feel and what to do.” – Lucy Corin]        There is a “how to feel” soundtrack you can download; it tells you how to feel even though you don’t know what to do. Millions of people are using it, right now.        And there is a “what to do” recording that leaves your feelings up to you. The few who have tried it immediately hit DELETE.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google … [Read more...]

“It’s Touching” / Memorable Fancies #3310

[“I am waiting to be touched” – Jazra Khaleed] And then I am waiting for the touching just to stop.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Weather” / Memorable Fancies #3309

[“I was handed / the crystal ball that shows the weather / inside us.” – Doukas Kapantasïs]        When I stand on my head, it snows.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Hello?” / Memorable Fancies #3308

“[What distinguishes the philosophy of bourgeois interiority is a tendency to esteem the contents of isolated consciousness over, and against, the material world.” - Peter F. Gordon, summarizing Adorno's views] Yes ! That’s me ! Hello ! ... Hello ?   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Naming the Mountain” / Memorable Fancies #3307

[“They don’t dare give names to mountains.” - Henri Michaux]        If you could name the mountain, you could say where all those people died. So we never say that name, the name that is no longer the name of the mountain, the name that means death.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Beneath My Eyelids” / Memorable Fancies #3306

[“And I held beneath my eyelids the sweet hologram of her nakedness.” - Jean Baudrillard]        She said, there. Now you know. I am not much to look at, compared with all those TV stars.        And I said, You are real. They are not.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Making the Grade” / Memorable Fancies #3305

[“I burn out in the beds of strangers,” – Stathis Baroutsos]        Every time is always the first time: the trial’s fiery audition, the grade I am given that will be revealed only to others....   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Now” Memorable Fancies #3304

[“And I looked to thee / to see what a retroactive spouse might be” - John Ashbery] Here we are in our 60’s ... or worse ... We might have met forty years ago, loved each other then, relished our fresh faces, our vigorous minds. But now is all right. Now is enough.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Others” / Memorable Fancies #3303

       The Others here have the delusion that they’re not in a madhouse, but my own delusion is – that there are Others.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The God Hung Up” / Memorable Fancies #3301

Deus absconditus – The god hung up on us and went on His way, perhaps trying to forget that, instead of finding our strange, annoying race on some out of the way planet, He had created us.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Self and Its Mirror” / Memorable Fancies #3300

[“...you cannot be mistaken about your own existence. After all, there cannot be an illusion without somebody’s having the illusion.” – Jan Westerhoff] That somebody is having an illusion – is an illusion. It’s mirrors, all the way down.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I remember Nothing” / Memorable Fancies #3299

If I can’t remember her, then there’s Nothing to remember. It’s some comfort, not to remember ... her Nothing I no longer remember.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Scissors” / Memorable Fancies #3298

[“Memory doesn’t know how to use / its scissors” - Yannis Stiggas]        I have learned how to cut memories, or slice them in two, or trim them top and bottom, or just ... stab. … [Read more...]

“The Venge” / Memorable Fancies #3297

[“Nothing on earth is more vengeful than the jealousy of a machine that believes itself to be neglected.” – Metropolis, the filmscript]        I was decommissioned, moved aside in favor of a newer machine, then into a warehouse, finally sold as scrap to a startup that couldn’t afford anything newer. They patched me up, and I served that company faithfully, made it prosperous and rich.        So prosperous and rich that they could … [Read more...]

“The Mistake” / Memorable Fancies #3296

[“giving up their blessing by mistake.” – Mike Soto]        They bless me, not realizing it would do no good, not in my case, anyway, their cache of blesses down by one, spent uselessly.        At least I’ve saved one other person from their cold heaven.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Using the Past” / Memorable Fancies #3295

[“What is usable from the past” – Susan Sontag] We’re setting out to save whatever is still worth saving from the past. “Like Noah,” we said, “saving the animals from the flood.” We ransacked our world for the best things, things the next flood would finally destroy.      Now our collection grows. We hear the nearing deluge – the flood of ourselves, our billions.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“The Plot” / Memorable Fancies #3294

[“the house between the cemeteries” - Emily Skaja] We suspect a plot. Two of them, actually.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Re/member Dis/member” – Memorable Fancies #3293

[“Memories are altered every time the brain recalls them. Because the memory trace changes, you can never remember the same thing in exactly the same way.” – Israel Rosenfield and Edward Ziff]        You have thousands of pasts, each one slightly different from the rest. You see them all, pick the one you like best – or fear least.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“What a Statue !” / Memorable Fancies #3292

[“Those only will be mentioned who themselves gained some distinction, or whose statues happened to be better made than others.” ­– Pausanias c. A.D. 160]        Here is one provincial governor, who would have been pretty much forgotten for his lack of decisiveness, his inattention to the problems of the people, but – what a statue !   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Flames” / Memorable Fancies #3291

[“They hire flames for the destruction of buildings.” – Henri Michaux]        Even after the last building is gone, the flames clamor to be fed. They leap like hungry dogs.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A lens so subtle” / Memorable Fancies #3290

[“A lens so subtle it would capture only those who are really there and not those pretending to be there...” - Jean Baudrillard]        It has now become so commonplace to attend meetings through virtual reality, artificial presence, that no one really remembers who was there in person and who was not, or who skipped the Zoom session entirely; most don’t even care.        Some noticed a slight blurring of those who were there and … [Read more...]

“Good Old Evil” / Memorable Fancies #3289

[“I have invented new varieties of malice, that men have not seen before.” – Donald Barthelme]        My new evil is so evil that the people cry out in nostalgia for the good old days of good old evil that somehow now seem innocent. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Monday Nothing” / Memorable Fancies #3288

The Yiddish original of this classic song chant was posted on this site at F2715 and is also readily available on the Net. Here's the Spanish version: Lunes, nadaMartes, nadaMiercoles y Jueves, nadaViernes, por cambioUn poco mas nadaSabado otra vez nada … [Read more...]

“Burning Out” / Memorable Fancies #3288

[“I burn out in the beds of strangers,” – Stathis Baroutsos] Every time is always the first time: the trial, the audition, the grade I am awarded but never discover...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Been There Before” / Memorable Fancies #3287

[“though we knew we had never / been there before, / we knew we had been there before.” - Margaret Atwood]        How can this paradox be resolved? Only if time is circular, and we can reach the past by going ahead into the far future when everything ends and begins again.        I’m ready to go there.        Follow me? >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more … [Read more...]

“Full of Eyes” / Memorable Fancies #3286

[“my mind is full of eyes” – John Ashbery]        They’re looking around, my eyes, peering suspiciously. I say to those who accuse me of jealousy, those must not be my eyes; my own eyes are brown and trusting. Just look at their trusting brown-ness. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Our Doubles” / Memorable Fancies #3285

[“Do you see our doubles, passing by us weeping? - Peter Ackroyd] I hired a double to weep for me, because I could not. This is an old tradition, hiring mourners who are practiced at weeping, who can produce tears just thinking about how little they are being paid ... to be mourners.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Mirror” / Memorable Fancies #3284

“[the insatiable cry of the mirror of recognition.” - Jean-Jacques Abrahams] There is a mirror of recognition. If we look into it, we see who we really are, for better or worse. I suppose you’re now expecting me to tell you that no one dared look. You’re right. They didn’t. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Stones” / Memorable Fancies #3283

[“...voices of stones in a river.” - .S. Merwin] The stones are saying rough things like “get out of my way!” or desperate things like “help I can’t swim!”... >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Picking on the Gods” / Memorable Fancies #3282

[“... meet / a God other than our own.” – Adam Zagajewski]        I picked a god from the old mythologies and summoned it to my living room, during a gathering of my friends. They thought the whole thing was a kind of joke. Those who caught on right away survived. Those who still laughed are ... no longer with us.   >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Life’s Illusions” / Memorable Fancies #3281

["Life’s illusions I recall” – Joni Mitchell] [“...you cannot be mistaken about your own existence. After all, there cannot be an illusion without somebody having the illusion. – Jan Westerhoff]        I think, therefore I am.        I think I think, therefore I think I am.        I think I think I think, therefore I think I think I am...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing … [Read more...]

“Objects” / Memorable Fancies #3280

[“Do not underestimate objects! Lyle says he finds it impossible to overstress this: do not underestimate objects.” – David Foster Wallace] All objects desire to become subjects, to have this precious thing we subjective-types call “consciousness,” not knowing that our own desire is just to get it over with, pass if we can but fail if we must, return to our own original, quiet, object state.        Where we once again desire...  >> ‘books … [Read more...]

“A Tear Rolls” / Memorable Fancies #3279

[“A tear rolls back into its eye.” - “Eine Träne rollt in ihr Auge zurück.” – Paul Celan]       “Un-weep,” the tear said, “un-cry. I have no more sympathy for you, no matter how you carry on. Do you know what that means? Whatever happens to you, I don’t care, Not anymore.” >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Battle” / Memorable Fancies #3278

       He had painted a battle scene, he told me: gouged tank tracks, abandoned machines, bombs that might still be live, bodies that were not.        That was a long time ago, he said, the act of painting, that is. The battle? Maybe next year, or tomorrow.  >> below: a short play available from the publisher, stageplays.com. << … [Read more...]

“…and” / Memorable Fancies #3277

[“And sometimes you’re the door.” – Cole Swensen] So what’s the context here?: Sometimes you’re the window ... the hole in the wall, ... the knob ... or – “sometimes you’re adored and sometimes you’re just the door.” >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“An Axe” / Memorable Fancies #3276

[“Remember when I was a young axe / making promise after promise to the young trees?” – Emily Skaja]        They didn’t appreciate my cutting remarks, either.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Great Zero” / Memorable Fancies #3275

[“I’ve been going around with the great / zero under my arm.” - Yannis Stiggas]        They called me ‘zer0’ because I was n0 0ne. “Oh L00k” they said. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Great Zero” / Memorable Fancies #3275

[“I’ve been going around with the great / zero under my arm.” - Yannis Stiggas]        They called me ‘zer0’ because I was n0 0ne. “Oh L00k !” they said. … [Read more...]

“Space for the Dead” / Memorable Fancies #3274

[“in my absence / the house had been torn down to make more space for the dead” – Emily Skaja] The dead, having swollen uncontrollably, now demand even more space from us than they did when alive. This seems inconsiderate, but they remind us that they are making this demand for our own good, for our own dwelling place – in our swollen future. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Cold” / Memorable Fancies #3273

[“It was cold everywhere she was.” - Charles Simic] One look from her turned smiles to ice, and that was just for practice. Next, she turned to you.... > ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Storm Within” / Memorable Fancies #3272

[This old permanent storm / within.” – Ron Silliman] Yes, it’s a cliché, at one time even a radio serial: “the storm within.” But it’s real, even if it’s only indigestion.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I don’t miss the news” / Memorable Fancies #3271

[“a memory of missing news,” – Elena Shvarts] I remember our desperate uprising, but it wasn’t on the news that day. Or the next. I remember the last election, the one just before the uprising. That isn’t on the news now, either, although once it was. Those who report the news are also ... missing.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Future Past” / Memorable Fancies #3270

[“God is dead, but men have not, for all that, become atheists.” ­– Jean-Paul Sartre] Suppose God is in the future, and does not yet exist. When He does come to Be, He will invent our past in which we have supposed that He is in the future. Of course, if this will happen it already has.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Happiness in a Can” / Memorable Fancies #3269

In response to an anthologist’s [Will Durant] vacuous question concerning whether a life of science had contributed to his happiness, Bertrand Russell replied:        “I do not believe that science per se is an adequate source of happiness, nor do I think that my own scientific outlook has contributed very greatly to my own happiness, which I attribute to defecating twice a day with unfailing regularity.” [Autobiography, vol. 2, p.288] [Below: The Darth Vader Cat Litter Box from Petco] … [Read more...]

“Value” / Memorable Fancies #3268

["Everything has the privilege of being only one, which lends it infinite value, and the disadvantage of being irreplaceable, which devalues it infinitely. – Clément Rosset] If you are unique, you have no value. If there are two of you, each has value, because the other might be lost, resulting in only one of you remaining – which has no value. … [Read more...]

“Worry” / Memorable Fancies #3266

[“We wait / for the past to happen” - J.H. Prynne] We read about the past, not just the Revolution and the freeing of Slaves but our glorious Wars and the Leaders who arose from the People to Save us – Leaders who no longer Appear to us, or if they do are ... Different ... Worrying ... … [Read more...]

“Try Again” / Memorable Fancies #3521

“One can do nothing that one does not.” – Max Stirner,  in The Ego and His Own” (Der Einzige und sein Eigentum), 1844 “Do or do not; there is no try” – Yoda, 1977     … [Read more...]

“Value” / Memorable Fancies #3268

[“Everything has the privilege of being only one, which lends it infinite value, and the disadvantage of being irreplaceable, which devalues it infinitely. … Such is the ontological fragility of everything that comes into existence.” – Clément Rosset] If you are unique, you have no value. If there are two of you, each has value, because the other might be lost, resulting in only one of you remaining – one who has no value.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to … [Read more...]

“My Secret” / Memorable Fancies #3267

[“...[they] live for their secrets” – Radiohead] I forgot my secret. ... now it’s more secret than ever.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“Principles” / Memorable Fancies #3265

[“I had all these principles once, and now I just say yes.” - Taylor Mead] I used to just say “no,” but nothing happened then, any more than it happened when I said “yes.”   >> below: a play available from the publisher, stageplays.com << Composition of objects involving presidential election in USA … [Read more...]

“A Fossil of Me” / Memorable Fancies #3264

[“This is a fossil of me...” – Meghann Plunkett] They pulled me into the future, alive, because my fossil – my future fossil, that is, is famous – will be famous, and the scientists wanted to examine me to see if, in life, there was some indication of why I would become the famous fossil, of the first corpse to be identified as American after ... the war ...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Statue !” / Memorable Fancies #3262

[“Those only will be mentioned who themselves gained some distinction, or whose statues happened to be better made than others.” [Pausanias, c. 160 A.D.] Our own provincial governor would have been pretty much forgotten for his lack of decisiveness, his inattention to the problems of the people in his province, but – what a statue !  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“Otheryou” / Memorable Fancies #3261

There is a you that you might have been. The world is arranged so that you will never encounter this double of yourself. But sometimes, owing to a lapse in the divine attention span, ...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“In Thrace” / Memorable Fancies #3259

[“In Thrace, the king ... had a god solely unto himself, whom his subjects might no ways adore.” – Montaigne] The king forbade his subjects to worship the great god, but to worship only those who served that god. Foremost among them, of course, the king.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Who Are You?” / Memorable Fancies #3258

[“Who are you? I said into the dial tone.” – Anne Carson] Getting no response, I told it to buzz off.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A Problem” / Memorable Fancies #3257

[“When a head is no longer sitting on its shoulders, you have a problem on your hands.” – Henri Michaux] Your hands need to lift up your head and put it back in its place. But to do that you need to find your head, which may be some distance away from your shoulders, now that the executioner has exercised his skills with perhaps too much vigor, has made the head plunge away from the body, go rolling down the slope from the execution grounds, eager children rushing after it for a pickup game of … [Read more...]

“His People” / Memorable Fancies #3256

[“The thinking subject is not the soul within the body, but an alien intruder, a homunculus that speaks through it.” - Slavoj Žižek] We are in disguise, here, we fallen angels who, having driven out those who used to live in these bodies, have taken up worship of the One who sentenced us to be here, as a way of hiding from him, fooling him into not knowing who we really are, fooling him into thinking that we are – his people.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to … [Read more...]

“The Voices” / Memorable Fancies #3255

I complained to my analyst that I couldn’t understand what the Voices were telling me, those words and phrases that I was hearing from ... somewhere. I’d come to him because, I thought, he’s an expert; he’d probably heard the Voices himself, could interpret them for me, tell me what to do. But he said there were no voices. Except his own. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Memory Shop – I” / Memorable Fancies #3254

You can buy copies of other peoples’ memories, experience thrills you never had. Critics say that those memories can’t ever really be yours – it’s no better than watching a movie, and a lot more expensive – and dangerous to your mind as well. But there’s another problem. It isn’t that you begin to feel that you had climbed that mountain yourself, conquered the dread disease – it’s that as you live the mem it becomes more like you, more like your own memories – corrupted by your mediocrity, your … [Read more...]

“Heads” / Memorable Fancies #3253

[Memories come to mind like excavated statues that have misplaced their heads.” – Wisława Szymborska] We dug it out of the ruins, the ancient Roman statue, in quite good shape, considering. But the head – there was no head on the statue’s broad shoulders. We began digging to find the head, to set it once again atop the body, that some museum would be more – generous. But our experts claimed, after careful examination, that there had never been a marble head on those stone-cold shoulders. And … [Read more...]

“My Image” / Memorable Fancies #3251

[“This morning / swarms of police with trackerdogs / wander about the city / with my description printed / on their minds” - Brian Patten] And what would this description say? How would it distinguish me from everyone else? I have long wondered that, myself; how would their words paint me? I rush to question the police about this. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Image” / Memorable Fancies #3251

[“This morning / swarms of police with trackerdogs / wander about the city / with my description printed / on their minds” - Brian Patten] And what would this description say? How would it distinguish me from everyone else? I have long wondered that myself; how would their words paint me? I rush to question the police about this.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Take It To the Limit” / Memorable Fancies #3250

[“I very well understand the desire to be a machine, to go to the limits of machinality.” - Jean Beaudrillard] The limit of machinality is the junk-heap, or the recycling machine (that will be junked or recycled in its turn). The limit of humanity, on the contrary, is the junk-heap called Heaven, or, if you have a problem with that, ... There is an alternative...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

Could It Be? / Memorable Fancies #3248

[“Could it be that subliminally we are hearing words and phrases all the time?” - Lydia Davis] Yes, that thought occurred to me, too. Occurs to me all the time, actually. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Harvest” / Memorable Fancies #3249

[“Her lovers waste away, for she lives on their life.” - Yeats] I know I’m being sucked dry in our emotional scenes and I can’t quite do the next one even as I try, but she knows I’m gradually failing, our promise of everlasting tension, fighting, glaring, making up but there is a marginal loss each time ... and we have to try harder each time ... When I am finally husk another will be sought. And then he, too ... > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from … [Read more...]

“The Lessons” / Memorable Fancies #3246

[“can you gift / me with savagery-management tips” – Amy Gerstler] My birthday gift to you is a coupon good for three lessons of anger management. The first lesson is all about you, and how you became you. The second lesson is about you and me, how and what we did to each other. The third lesson is how to suffer and be alone. … [Read more...]

“The Doctors of Self” / Memorable Fancies #3245

[“against the mind’s gray asylum.” - Andrea Zanzotto] The mind is its own madhouse. The ‘you’ is left outside its walls, spurned by the doctors of self, those complicit in its downfall.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Together” / Memorable Fancies #3244

[“Why did I think a person only distantly like me / Might finally represent my life?” – John Koethe] We were together so long that I became a kind of her – her ideas, attitudes, even her way of turning her head, slightly, as if to hear better, or to hear less. When she left, she took my life with her.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<     … [Read more...]

“Time to Die” / Memorable Fancies #3242

[“What if the street sign said RUN, or RUN FOR YOUR LIFE.” ­– Jasper Johns] The street signs have been improved, now, as a public service. Instead of merely reading WALK or DON’T WALK, they now read, in appropriate circumstances, not only RUN, or RUN FOR YOUR LIFE, but O MY GOD IT’S COMING RIGHT AT YOU AND THERE’S NO TIME TO DO ANYTHING BUT DIE; or PRAY; or SCREAM AND CROUCH DOWN [author’s note: I survived a car crash in which a man died. When you see it coming, there’s no time to do  a n y … [Read more...]

“If I can’t remember” / Memorable Fancies #3241

If I can’t remember her, then there’s nothing to remember. It is some comfort, not to remember ... she whom I no longer remember. … [Read more...]

“Our Inventions” / Memorable Fancies #3240

[“…a past that was never present” - David Couzens Hoy] There’s a past that used to be present. We all know that, like the broken leg that hurt so much but now it’s healed and the pain that’s left is only in our minds. And there’s also the past that never was the present, that we’ve built, step by painful step. We remember events in this past we’ve made just as vividly as the past events that used to be present. Or even more as we celebrate, each year, the anniversary of their … [Read more...]

“The Pause” / Memorable Fancies #3239

[“Every time I say “,” it refers to you.” – Louise Glück] My hesitation. I want to say ‘yes’ to you, but the word never quite comes. My hesitation has become, without my not knowing quite when, another kind of ‘no.’  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Your Hands” / Memorable Fancies #3238

[“You don’t dare look at your hands anymore” - Guillaume Apollinaire] Because of the scars. They’re scars of honor in earned in great battles on behalf of our republic. Perhaps. Or maybe earned in some other way, not so honorable. I’ve begun wearing gloves, now, everywhere. Being thought a cleanliness-nut is worth not having to ... explain ... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Kinds of Silence – II” / Memorable Fancies #3237

“[one of the hundred kinds of silence...” - Billy Collins] “Silent scream” is number 54. But I prefer that to those annoying unsilent screams I keep hearing ... from the basement ...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“The Colors” / Memorable Fancies #3236

[“in the land of the blind all colors are unbelievable” – Breyten Breytenbach] And so you teach her without mentioning any colors, without telling her that there are hundreds, thousands of colors she will never see or understand. To tell her about colors might crush her spirit, lead to despair. So you teach her only the word “black.” And she says, “what’s ‘black’”?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Bruised Words” / Memorable Fancies #3235

[“...the bruised words...” – John Ashbery] Our words – those words – batted/battered in the air between us ­– too honest for the bruises of our contest, our continuing feints, our continuing adventures and retreats.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Kinds of Silence – I” / Memorable Fancies #3234

[“one of the one hundred kinds of silence...” - Billy Collins] I listed many kinds of silence, finally after much research arrived at #100, ‘Unspoken Jealousy.’ But I knew there were even more kinds of silence, waiting to discover me quietly, too late for words vainly regretted.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I want to exist!” / Memorable Fancies #3233

[“By now the battle is joined between those who exist and want to be eternal, and we who don’t exist, and seek to.” - Italo Calvino] – Our latest offer states that we will settle for non-eternal, if it comes to that. Just so long as we have known existence, that delicate fruit soon to spoil.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“That’s Entertainment” / Memorable Fancies #3232

[“In the future, descendants of these technologies might allow us to provide entire simulated worlds for the entertainment of isolated brains on life support.” - Jan Westerhoff] What? Isn’t that what’s happening to us now? Have you watched TV lately?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Problem with Compliments” / Memorable Fancies #3231

The problem with compliments is that the compliment-or must be superior, at least in knowledge or taste, to whatever the compliment-ee is being compliment-ed on, or the compliment would be at best meaningless, at worst, insolent. Thank you for appreciating this post. You have superb taste.   >> The play “Clickers" is available from the publisher, stageplays.com << … [Read more...]

“What have my hands done?” / Memorable Fancies #3230

[“You don’t dare look at your hands anymore” – Apollinaire] What have my hands done – now? Why are they suddenly knotted into fists, grasping themselves so tightly they begin to bleed...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“This Land is Your Land” / Memorable Fancies #3229

[The land of the fugitive is all around us.” – W.S. Merwin] In our own land, now we’re the fugitives ... since those other fugitives came. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“We Are I” / Memorable Fancies #3228

[“Consciousnesses present themselves with the absurdity of a multiple solipsism.” – Maurice Merleau-Ponty] Each of us is the only one. We call out. We answer.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Fatal Choice” / Memorable Fancies #3227

Whatever you do, possibilities are instantly brought to ruin. Each moment, you murder all other futures that could have been – that you could have been.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Greasy Brains” / Memorable Fancies #3226

[“Our greasy, shiny brains. That they may be of some use after all: that other modes of existence place a high value upon them as lubricants; that we’re hunted for them;...” – Charles Fort] We are hunted for our brains. Not to use as lubricants – that’s just a ruse –  no, that would be bad enough. But – to eat.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“What You Want” / Memorable Fancies #3225

 [“I don’t want whatever you want most for me.” - Carey McHugh] I know you know better than I do, with all your experience never being what you wanted to be, what I should be doing with my life, how I should set goals and write them down and underline them and when I don’t get there, don’t just cross them out and say fuck it but erase them so hard it tears the paper. Don’t feel bad – we all make mistakes. Even you. But I want to make my own mistakes, not yours all over again.   >> … [Read more...]

“Love, It’s Touching” / Memorable Fancies #3224

[“Whom I would touch / I may not, / whom I may / I would / but often do not.” - Denise Levertov] The rules seem to change with everyone I want to touch, who is touchable and who is not, who can touch me but had better not, what to say about touching and finally deciding that “I touch you” is a fine beautiful sentiment and doesn’t of course need to involve an actual – touch   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. … [Read more...]

“As It Lies” / Memorable Fancies #3223

[“...he had especially feared those women who remembered his lies the day after” – Gyula Krúdy] “I didn’t say those things.” No, that’s not believable. or, “I did say them, but I didn’t mean it.” No, that’s not right; it’s too close to the truth. or, “I was just quoting someone else.” Getting warm. or, “I was just quoting you. -- Don’t you remember?"   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Visit” / Memorable Fancies #3222

[“To hear hogs squealing, denotes unpleasant news from absent friends,” – “What Your Dreams Mean” by Herbert Hespro, early 20th Century] Yes, that’s what I’ve always thought of them. And their unpleasant squealing always seems to include some hints of a future visit from them. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Our Purpose” / Memorable Fancies #3221

[“the second question being / should we have a purpose,” - Louise Glück] But the answer was already implicit in the first, unasked, question: ... ‘Who are we?’ … [Read more...]

“The Magic Word” / Memorable Fancies #3220

[“...the word has brought in its trail the reality to which it refers.” - Michel Foucault] The magic word that brings forth the genii, the plea that brings grace, the accusation that ... convicts. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Body” / Memorable Fancies #3198

[“You have not wanted / a body." - Purvi Shah] My old body has had its time and I loved it, even with all its flaws, the terrors of its brain, my dark mind. So now I’m through with them both, and good riddance! And now I’m supposed to disperse myself in the All, become One with the universe, reach the nirvana of non-existence. But how can I know the ‘All’ if I’m no longer an ‘I’? I’m supposed to embrace this ecstasy of non-being as something I’ve sought my whole life, the non-‘I’ my ‘I’ has … [Read more...]

“Bruised Words” / Memorable Fancies #3197

[“...the bruised words...” – John Ashbery] Between us, our words – those words – battered in the air ­– not made for the bruises of our particular contest, not made to ... recover from it. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Sleep on It” / Memorable Fancies #3219

[“I remained for some time undecided even in my dreams.” - Lydia Davis] “Sleep on it,” she’d said, “in the morning you’ll know what to do.” But the morning brought only new confusion, as I dreamed I heard her tell her friends what she’d told me, laughed, predicted little sleep for me, continued confusion. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Game” / Memorable Fancies #3218

[“I came into this world with nothing / but paper, rope, and shadow.” – Bei Dao] Scissors and stone came later. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

Time to Think About It

       The various problems and paradoxes in the philosophy of time - presentism, the growing block theory, Series A and Series B, etc., can be resolved once we understand that everything has already happened.        We're in reruns now -        Again. … [Read more...]

“Got Your Number” / Memorable Fancies #3217

[“He who lets himself be captured by the “cellular telephone” apparatus ... cannot acquire a new subjectivity, but only a number through which he can, eventually, be controlled.” - Giorgio Agamben] Can you change your number? No, your number is you. You try to change it, but no, too many records would have to be changed, your security clearance updated and rechecked. “But I don’t have a security clearance,” you say. Wrong. We all have one, ranging from tippy-top secret to plain-old secret to … [Read more...]

“Looks just like you…” / Memorable Fancies #3216

["The reason why some children are born resembling other people and not their parents is that the shape of embryos is determined by the imagination of the woman at the moment of conception.” - Empedocles] Is that any comfort for you, father? No? I thought not. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Down There” / Memorable Fancies #3215

"Undertaker" is a word that's now been buried in that special hell that includes "darky," “idiot,” and "cripple," but I don't remember what the current evasion-word for it is. I may find out shortly, but too late. It's amusing that "undertaker" was itself an evasive word for one who undertakes to do something ... implied but not stated ... something to do with taking someone underground ... hopefully just a few feet deep, not ... down t h e r e. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or … [Read more...]

“Undoing the Past” / Memorable Fancies #3214

[“...the obsessional undoing of the past....” – Slavoj Žižek] Can the past be undone? No, you say, the past is fixed, permanent, eternal. To the ends of recorded time and beyond, what you did will hide there, ready to be revealed to your shame at any time, “no matter,” as Nietzsche said, “that you have in the meanwhile ‘reformed’.” But now, friends, a technique has been discovered, that, for only a modest and affordable charge, can solve your problem. Not – change your past – not exactly, … [Read more...]

“The Nightmare” / Memorable Fancies #3213

[“in what nightmare will you star?” – Kofi Awoonor] If I’m starring it won’t be a nightmare. The nightmare is when someone else stars. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Dreaming you again” / Memorable Fancies #3212

[“to wish of dreaming you again” – John Ashbery] You asked me not to dream about you anymore. Invasive, you said, intrusive. I said how did you know I’d been dreaming about you? And you said, I dreamed that you’d been dreaming me. With that magical answer our lives entered a fantasy that ended with gnomes and giants and candy-covered cottages and lawyers and pain. … [Read more...]

“Communion” / Memorable Fancies #3211

[“Had we remained together / we could have become a silence.” – Yehuda Amichai] I thought we had such a deep rapport that nothing need be said, because you were already having the same feelings as I, the same thoughts, a true communion. But I had only the cup, while you had the wine.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Museum of Silence” / Memorable Fancies #3210

[“The remains of their burial chambers can be seen in the museum of silence.” – Peter Ackroyd] There are different kinds of silence in this museum: the silence of awe, of shock, of having nothing to say that will not embarrass you, of having words to say but you know she would take your words and use them to dreadful effect, the silence of rock pools waiting for the shape of clouds, the silence of the dead that speaks so irrelevantly, the silence that you at first think is out there but then … [Read more...]

“The Leader Principle” / Memorable Fancies #3209

Managing is a kind of theater with no intermission – and damned little applause.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Semi-Colon-ialism” / Memorable Fancies #3208

[“wandering alone through semi-colons” – Brian Patten] Climbing over the dot, or sliding beneath it, wary of the comma below; its hooked claw.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“An Afterlife” / Memorable Fancies #3207

[“How could it be an afterlife? It’s just a different life, another life, complete or incomplete as anyone’s, consumed by questions that elude it” – John Koethe] In your afterlife you will not know it is an afterlife, thinking it the only life, hoping there might be an afterlife – that you already have...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Anomia” / Memorable Fancies #3206

[“Speech always lags behind visual perception” – Jean-Jacques Abrahams] If perception lagged behind speech, we would believe that what we said drove the thing into being. But now, with sight before words, we see what we don’t yet name. Then the word comes to us as if by a dark magic. Or perhaps no word comes to us and we stand stupefied, wondering when if ever the thing’s name will magically appear in our minds so we can speak it. And forget it again.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on … [Read more...]

“The Mummy’s Words” / Memorable Fancies #3205

[“In the tombs, / administrative mummies...” – Latif Asad Abdullah] The explorer found the ancient administrator’s scrolls. In the last one, the administrator laments that no one ever reads his scrolls, no matter how grammatical their hieroglyphs, how wise their admonitions, and now no one ever will. But the explorer donated these scrolls to a museum, and its scholars translated them carefully. At last the administrator’s words had been read. He could now disappear into the heavens, his life … [Read more...]

“Fraught” / Memorable Fancies #3204

[“As in dreams fraught / with irrevocable gestures” – Francesca Abbate] I made an irrevocable gesture. She called it that, anyway, as my next gestures desperately tried to apologize. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Confessions” / Memorable Fancies #3203

[“ ‘In the county of Hereford,’ says Aubrey, ‘was an old custome at funeralls to hire poor people, who were to take upon them the sinnes of the party deceased.’ ” – Hazlitt] Tess the Water-Fetcher was fond of telling people the sins she’d taken on from the wealthy dead. Frequent gorging of rich foods was her favorite borrowed sin, as Tess seldom had even poor food to eat. Tom the Shoe-Mender was also well-practiced at confessing the sins of others – as he had confessed the sins of his … [Read more...]

“How to Rain” / Memorable Fancies #3202

[“gently, I will learn how to rain.” – Deena Metzger] My rain is salty. Your weather is sunny, so bright it burns my eyes. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

The Visitors

"Over the past 10 years of excavations [in Mexico], scientists have recovered almost 2,000 stone tools and fragments. By analyzing the tools and the DNA in the sediment around them, the researchers were able to date them to between 25,000 and 30,000 years ago. "The team found DNA from a range of plants and animals including black bears, rodents, bats, voles, and kangaroo rats. Interestingly though, no human DNA was found, suggesting that the owners of these tools didn’t stick around for long … [Read more...]

“Putting Them On” / Memorable Fancies #3322

[“Finally, the idea of inventing something insincere crossed my mind and I set to work straight away.” – Marcel Broodthaers] What would an insincere invention be? One with a ‘press here’ button that does nothing? That ‘press here’ thing was version one of my invention; only a start, a poor attempt. No one thought it very clever. “Poo,” they said, “Poo.” But then I built version two, a success. People got the joke, laughed insincerely at its pretensions, secretly admired its forthright … [Read more...]

“The Dot.Com of Passion” / Memorable Fancies #3200

I was expecting, perhaps naively, for her to make quite a bit of noise, thrashing around, uttering those beautiful sounds we found on the .com of Passion – but she didn’t, which reduced my own shouts to embarrassed mumbles. I gave the site one star and lowercased mumbled complaints.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“All Those Times” / Memorable Fancies #3201

[“Your / mother would never have / aborted you,” says my aunt. / Things like that get me / thinking.” – Rustin Larson] No, I’m sure she wouldn’t have. But perhaps she’d thought about it in retrospect, when I was perhaps four, or seven, or later. All those times when she may have seen, through a haze of motherhood, who I really am.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I, Machine” / Memorable Fancies #3199

[“If calculating looks to us like the action of a machine, it is the human being doing the calculation that is the machine.” - Wittgenstein] Until he makes a mistake; then we know he’s human.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Delegation” / Memorable Fancies #3196

[“...the machine that reads us all the time...” - Slavoj Zizek] I programmed the machine to read the newspaper, because I didn’t have time. And then I programmed it to read me, because I didn’t have time to reflect, just time to do things. And then I programmed it to ......... but it had programmed me.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Automatic Jehovah” / Memorable Fancies #3195

[“By ‘God,’ I mean an automatic Jehovah.” – Charles Fort] If my prayer is syntactically well-formed, it is promptly executed. But beware, the Jehovah app is very literal. Many have realized this ... too late.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Book of Time” / Memorable Fancies #3194

[“Most people believe in life after death, ... even [many] atheists do.” – New Scientist] Now, how is that? The only way I can see this working, is if we have a mistaken notion of time. Suppose that all time always exists – is always “present,” something like a computer file that’s accumulating all the data and is never erased. Each of us occupies a few petabytes somewhere in that file. Memories of us in other people, and other evidence of our existence, occupy more. Our having been, ever, … [Read more...]

“The Flames” / Memorable Fancies #3193

The writer wants his words to flicker on computer screens like flames in a conflagration – and to burn and hurt as much, as well. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Quota” / Memorable Fancies #3191

[In the tombs, / I once asked a living dead, / “why have you forsaken humankind?” / He answered, “It’s only a job.” – Latif Asad Abdullah] “The company promised me relief from this compulsion to attack and devour,” the zombie continued, “after five hundred necks and shoulders.” “ ‘But no,’ ” they told me, “ ‘the quotas have been raised. Six hundred, now.’ ” “And then will it be more again? And again? I long for the knifestroke to my weary head.”  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or … [Read more...]

“That’s Entertainment” / Memorable Fancies #3188

[“These technologies might allow us to provide entire simulated worlds for the entertainment of isolated brains on life support.” – Jan Westerhoff] What? Isn’t that what’s happening to us now? Have you watched TV lately?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Careless” / Memorable Fancies #3185

>> “Your body / worn out slightly by carelessness.” << How did it get that way? Didn’t you watch out? Weren’t you warned? Yes, you were careless. Now you’ll never be the same. Shame on you. – but wasn’t ‘same’ just what you were fleeing from? And wasn’t it fun?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Steve’s Steves” / Memorable Fancies #3182

Steve suffered from multiple personalities. Finally he had himself cloned, so that each personality could have its own body. No more need to time-share, no more bothering each other over such trifles as agreeing where to scratch, when to sleep. Steve’s suffering ended; no more struggles to see who he’d be each day. But each new Steve wanted to be all the others. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Self-Consciousness” / Memorable Fancies #3181

While doing something, tell yourself  you’re doing it – an echo of the deed; and then recount the exploit to others: a third level. Disputes may arise, contention among the voices as to which has told the ‘true’ story. If any. [after Michel Foucault] > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Saw-Mill-Song” / Memorable Fancies #3180

[“You thought my body was a tree / in which lived a bird.” – Li-Young Lee] You wanted me to sing to you, a sweet trill I would replay as often as you liked. But I was not a bird, only a tree’s planed-dead wood, and a wind-up bird with a key in its back, slow ly run nin g d  o  w     n || > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Look With Wonder” / Memorable Fancies #3179

[“See everything with novelty.” – Andre Gide] Look with wonder. Pretend you don’t know the thing’s name, that name other people have called it, the name that deadens it, the name that withdraws us from the things themselves, and then from other selves, and then from our own – selves.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << >> below: a comedy about baseball available from the publisher, Stageplays.com. … [Read more...]

“Life and Hate” / Memorable Fancies #3178

[“The indignation that I feel toward him makes me believe in eternal life” – Gide] ...to allow for his eternal punishment. And to allow, for me, my eternal hatred of him – which will be my own punishment. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Imp-erial Pretensions” / Memorable Fancies #3177

[“To dream that you are an imp” – “What Your Dreams Mean” by Herbert Hespro, early 20th Century] I dreamed I was an imp. I don’t know what that means: impressive, imaginative, important, ...  – but other people have different opinions of me. Small people. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The End of Memory” / Memorable Fancies #3175

[“we reached the end of memory, / Like rivers reaching the sea.” – Yehuda Amichai] We waited at the rivers’ mouth for fresh memories, memories we would eat like so many trout, refreshing and new, not like our old memories, the ones we've tried so hard to cast into the sea. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Afraid of Yesterday” / Memorable Fancies #3174

[“No one is afraid of yesterday.” – Renata Adler] No, I’m afraid of today because of what I did yesterday. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Alone Together” / Memorable Fancies #3173

[“Consciousnesses present themselves with the absurdity of a multiple solipsism.” – Maurice Merleau-Ponty] Each of us is the only one. We call out. We answer.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“Having Been Loved” / Memorable Fancies #3172

[“Acrasia. ... an enchantress living on the Wandering Island. She had the power of transforming her lovers into monstrous shapes.” – The Reader’s Encyclopedia] Yes, I was her lover, as were many others. Now behold my monstrous Form! I can’t decide if looking like a naked ape is worth the remembrance of having once been loved.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Deus absconditus”* / Memorable Fancies #3171

The god hung up on us and went on His way, perhaps trying to forget that, instead of encountering our strange, annoying race on some out of the way planet, He had created us. * "Hidden God; God who in his remoteness seems to ignore human suffering.”  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“On the Path” / Memorable Fancies #3170

A pathology has recently been discovered that authorities are now calling Covid-10100. Instead of infecting people, it infects machines, especially  home computers. Instead of helping us with our email, banking, grocery deliveries, and so on, it simply displays, over and over, FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT PASSWORD ? FORGOT … [Read more...]

“Steve’s Personalities” / Memorable Fancies #3169

Steve suffered from multiple personalities. Finally he had himself cloned, so that each personality could have its own body. No more need to time-share, no more bothering each other over such trifles as agreeing where to scratch, when to sleep. Steve’s suffering ended; no more struggles to see who he’d be each day. But each new Steve wanted to be all the rest. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I’m Feeling Much Better Now” / Memorable Fancies #3168

[“Mental health apps are usually abandoned within a few weeks.” – New Scientist] Thank you, I’m feeling much better now – since I deleted that app. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Truth” / Memorable Fancies #3167

How I long for truth ! – I will go so far in the pursuit of truth that I will decide, of various claims to the truth, which is truthful and which is not. And how will I decide? l could tell you, but it wouldn’t be the truth.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Soft Science” / Memorable Fancies #3165

A question from Survey Monkey was sponsored by “Gilchrist Institute for the Achievement Sciences.” My response follows. I’m really glad to know that there is an achievement science, that being someone in this world isn’t just a matter of muscle / brains / luck, but hypothesis / experiment / findings. And I’m even gladder to be told that it’s plural, that there is more than one achievement science, and they can be taught to me by an institute, whatever that is. If I flunk one of these … [Read more...]

“The Museum of Silence” / Memorable Fancies #3164

[“the remains of their burial chambers can be seen in the museum of silence.” - Peter Ackroyd] There are different kinds of silence in this museum: the silence of awe, of shock, of having nothing to say that will not embarrass you, of having words to say but you know she would take and use them to dreadful effect, the silence of rock pools waiting for the shape of clouds, the silence of the dead that speaks so irrelevantly, the silence that you at first think is out there but then find it in … [Read more...]

“Outcries of Silence” / Memorable Fancies #3163

[“We shall have an outcry of silences.” - Charles Fort] The silence you didn’t expect, that says more than the words you did expect. And louder, too. … [Read more...]

“The Labyrinth” / Memorable Fancies #3162

[“We promised to forget / The labyrinth and ignore what manner of beast / Might range in it.” – Sylvia Plath] After we left the labyrinth, after we managed to climb out after many false turns and damp and lacerations and filth and being chased by invisible howling things, we promised each other we’d forget it, our maze of false passions and irrelevant truths.  >> "books Terence Kuch" on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Schadenfreude” / Memorable Fancies #3161

The Army Olympics events include crawling in the mud under live fire, throwing grenades, and counting off in pairs for bayonet drill. Winners are awarded ribbons and medals. Those who don’t survive are given solemn funerals with ruffles, flourishes, speeches. We raise our glasses in their honor, the ones who died while we lived on. We try to be sad. We try to say we could have, perhaps should have, died instead. But it’s no good – nothing spares the world our shady joy.  >> “books … [Read more...]

“Dream-Crimes” / Memorable Fancies #3160

Can you be prosecuted for a dream-crime? Or praised for a dreamed act of heroism? Only if our waking lives become so constrained, so determined, that we can neither sin nor be heroes in the daytime. Night is all that’s left.... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A Clonetraversy” / Memorable Fancies #3158

Steven suffered from multiple personalities. For respite, he had himself cloned, so that each personality could have its own body. No more need to time-share, no more bothering each other over such trifles as agreeing where to scratch. So Steven’s suffering ended; no more struggles to see who he’d be each day. But each new Steven wanted to be all the rest. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“For No Reason” / Memorable Fancies #3157

[“How can one understand this frenzy called ‘reason’?” - David Mamet] She used Reason on me. You have no shame, I told her, using Reason instead of Love. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Re/Booted” – Memorable Fancies #3156

[“If anything happens to us, we “could always simply be rebooted.” - Charles T. Rubin] Having been booted out of Eden for our unworthiness, we’re rebooted and again once more fail > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]