[“Why am I not frightened? Why am I thinking about you?” – Lucy Corin]
I should be fearful, thinking about what you – not quite did, but almost – or said you might – and started to do… but then I was saved by the IF you uttered, the great IF that gave me lease, so that IF I ever did the IF-thing, then what you would do to me would be my doing: my decision, my power; not yours.
It is some consolation. It helps me sleep, sometimes.
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