“Your Customized Clone” / Memorable Fancies #3373

       Can you create a clone of yourself, but with some custom differences?        HI I’m Joe with brown hair.        HI I’m Joe with red hair.        A different gender ?        HI I’m Jane with curly blonde hair.        Chorus: and it’s all natural !  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly … [Read more...]

“The Chamber of Truth” / Memorable Fancies #3372

       It’s not a simple matter to be admitted to the Chamber of Truth: there are tests, forms to fill out, references from lovers and employers, and not least, a hefty fee.        But, finally admitted to the Chamber’s dark recesses, you are permitted to tell yourself, perhaps for one last time, what you really believe. Not what you tell others you believe, not what you tell yourself you believe, but what you really believe, all the … [Read more...]

“Retirement Party” / Memorable Fancies #3371

       I could have done better, could have achieved more. There is reserved and hesitant striking together of palms.        I’m sure they are thinking that they could have done my job better than I did, and they probably could have.        But I was here, putting up with all their shit day after day.        Now I’m free and they must stay behind, completing all the … [Read more...]

“Evasions of ‘As’ / Memorable Fancies #3346

[“the intricate evasions of as,” – Wallace Stevens]        We slither away from the exact statement with an “as” here and there, “as in” – “as if” – “as is” – “as it seems” – “as it was” – “as it were” ...   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Someone Else” / Memorable Fancies #3340

[“It will be at night, that they will come for me.” – Anna Kavan] But I am someone else at night. Cunning, deadly. They will not take me then; but mistaking someone else for me, they will take her instead. And when they discover their error they will come for me again the next night, and again will take someone else. Night after night. This has happened from the beginning of the world. It is called “death” in your language. What happens when there is no more someone … [Read more...]

“Food Moods” / Memorable Fancies #3302

       The restaurant’s strolling violinist plays a different tune for each course: a hopeful one for the soup, brave and confident for the entrée, legato but sad and betrayed for the sides.        A diner requests something for the soufflé and the fiddler responds, a little flat.        And then just desserts, as the violinist has left.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead … [Read more...]

“The Real You” / Memorable Fancies #3233

[“For a few months / you were almost real.” – Chelsea Dingman] And then you were really real. And then you were definitely, absolutely real. Too damn real for me. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Shadow” / Memorable Fancies #3212

[“To converse with shadows, he himself must become a shade.” – F.H. Bradley]        I spoke to my shadow, my secret ‘me.’        At first, it didn’t answer.        But after much coaxing on my part, it did.        I asked it to tell me my faults, my illusions.        And it did.        Now I can’t get it to just shut the fuck … [Read more...]

“Picking My Selves” / Memorable Fancies #3190

There are too many selves who want to be me, I said. Well, just pick one, she said. One I might like for once, she said. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“And how was >your< death experience?” / Memorable Fancies #3189

[Title of a Survey Monkey survey, 07 October 2020: “Death Experience Survey”]        The Monkey wants to know how my death felt, or what it “felt like,” as if there’s something like death for death to be like.        I have many possible answers in mind. I’ve been saving them for the big day when I’m down there or up there and some Monkey, with halo or fork, asks me again, for real this time. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you … [Read more...]

“Our Land” / Memorable Fancies #3370

       Our conquerors told us, “You must now speak the way we do, our tongue and its rhythms, or be foreign,” they said.        Those foreigners in our land said that.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Pieces” / Memorable Fancies #3369

       It was quite violent, but in the end he dismembered himself.        He put himself back together, piece by piece, the way he thought I wanted him to be,        But I said, shrugging my breath,        any old way will do.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“If I were you,…” / Memorable Fancies #3367

       The phrase “if I were you,...” is very strange – how could that happen? How could I be you? What is an If that can never Be?      Perhaps “if you were you,...” is easier to understand. It’s certainly applicable to ... some people ...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Dawn” / Memorable Fancies #3366

[“The match that wants to test itself to see if it burns” – Nietzsche]        Well, you know how that would turn out.        But if the match never lights, it is a failed thing.        Burn! in the fiery dawn you create.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Sorry,…” / Memorable Fancies #3365

       I received an anonymous note yesterday, reading simply “I’m sorry I ruined your life.” Since then I’ve spent hours trying to figure out who could have sent it to me. Was it HE? or even ... SHE? Probably not. Finally I gave up trying to guess.        But the worst thing about it is that I didn’t know, until then, that my life had been .. ruined ..  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more … [Read more...]

“Really?” / Memorable Fancies #3364

[“Reality, having lost its natural predators, is growing like some proliferating species.” – Jean Baudrillard] It's eating into unreality, destroying even the memory of unreality. Those of us who are unreal are uneasy about this. –  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << Below: A play available from the publisher, stageplays.com … [Read more...]

“Can’t Remember” / Memorable Fancies #3363

       If I can’t remember her, then there’s nothing to remember.        It’s some comfort, not to remember ... the one I can’t remember.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“We Speak” / Memorable Fancies #3362

       The way we used to speak, a tongue left over from the time before the conquerors came upon us and said, “You must speak the way we do or you will be foreign in your own land.” That’s what they said, that’s what those foreigners in our land said.        But sometimes a whisper...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Hours Have Seasons” / Memorable Fancies #3361

Hours have seasons: :05 is a bright Spring, fresh with promise. :25 a time when the promise of that earlier minute has become problematic. :43 a time of reassessment, a realization that :49 is approaching sooner than we realized, that time remains but the project must be hastened.         At :55 we look back and try to understand what seemed to have value earlier in the hour, what was tried and failed, what still seems promising at least if the next hour … [Read more...]

“Gold Rush” / Memorable Fancies #3360

Words abandoned, discarded, no longer used. There are people who search for these worthy but forgotten words, gather them like nuggets, try to sell them for drinks. … [Read more...]

“Stop, Look, Don’t Listen” / Memorable Fancies #3359

[“The world is a wonderful visual reportage. It is the commentary that is unbearable.” - Jean Baudrillard] But it’s all commentary. Especially the reportage. … [Read more...]

“Affirmations” / Memorable Fancies #3358

       Their hate, their dismissive airs and annoyed breathing, affirms me.        It’s something, anyway.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I’m Telling You” / Memorable Fancies #3356

[“Why do I tell you these things? / You are not even here.” - John Ashbery]   Because you can’t contradict me; not here, not now, anyway. That’s why.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Clone’s Brother” / Memorable Fancies #3355

[“The clone will never be the same as the original, because it will have had another before it.” ­­– Jean Baudrillard]        It’s like being his little brother, but better in some ways: Joey can’t make fun of my feet that splay out, my slight stoop, because he’s like that too. And he can’t hint that he’s smarter than I am, because he knows damn well that I’m just as smart (or just as dumb!) as he is. OK, he got here a year before I did, and he’s taller. But that will pretty much even out in … [Read more...]

“Dignity with Death / Memorable Fancies #3354

       Don’t say “passed” or “passed away” or “gone to his reward” (especially considering my continuing sins).        Die is what I will do, my final act; death is the result.        Don’t pretend it’s anything else.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“To Serve Man” / Memorable Fancies #3353

[“He has no greater wish than to satisfy men.” - Henri Michaux] He does random things, it seems to us, trying to find what will please us, what will make us love Him even more. Sometimes there is delight, and we redouble our offerings. More often there are invasions, terrors... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Consolation” / Memorable Fancies #3351

(a) Is THIS moment the only reality now, or (b) Does all of reality always exist and we’re just passing through? If (b), then the future is fixed in place. But not to worry, if we don’t know what’s coming it will seem like our choice, our power that we’ve used to bend the cosmos.        It’s some consolation. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Real You” / Memorable Fancies #3352

[“And I held beneath my eyelids the sweet hologram of her nakedness.” - Jean Baudrillard] She said, there. Now you see me, now you know. I am not much to look at, compared with all those TV stars. And I said, You are real. They are not. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Festival of the Evil One” / Memorable Fancies #3350

In our country, we make effigies of the Evil One; we burn them in our annual Evil One Festival. We note His absence from the Festival of Him –then we say that He is not real; or perhaps He is real but harmless, a coward who dares not appear on his name-day to face our angry fires, no matter how we taunt His effigies, how we burn murderers and traitors to death in His honor, how we connive to overthrow our fathers and disavow our sons,...       Our Festival has been … [Read more...]

“Reality and Its Predators” / Memorable Fancies #3349

[“Reality, having lost its natural predators, is growing like some proliferating species.”] Reality is eating into unreality, nullifying it, destroying even the memory of unreality. Those of us who are unreal are uneasy about this. >> below :: a play for this season of anguish, published by and available from stageplays.com << … [Read more...]

Dreamless-pills / Memorable Fancies #3348

       The future: Our waking lives have become so constrained, so determined, that we can neither sin nor be heroes there.        Sleep and dreams are all that’s left.        But now the government has sent us dreamless-pills. Refills are available at no charge.        We’re required to swallow them, no matter how they stick in our throats.  >> “books Terence … [Read more...]

“A Mind-Melt” / Memorable Fancies #3347

        An exercise: Clear your mind, gradually, of who you are, where you are, how you feel. Clear your mind of words, even these.        Look around without knowing that you are looking; what is there just is.        Hear it speak. Is it speaking to you?        Probably not.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. … [Read more...]

“Sometime Nothing” / Memorable Fancies #3345

[“the temporary nothing in which life goes on” – J.H. Prynne]        I hope this Nothing is temporary, that there will be breaking news that Something has been seen – has been reported to have been seen, anyway – rumored – somewhere – >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Citizen Ravishes” / Memorable Fancies #3344

[“She is a citizen of the ancient republic, historian of its wars and ravishing in her armour.” - Anne Carson]        “See how it becomes me? The armor, I mean. The flesh beneath it has a certain charm, too, that you will never see. Just try. I will revel you with histories of other lovers, while I refuse you.”  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Alien-ation Arrives” / Memorable Fancies 3342

 [“The aliens see something they like. Fine, they say, this will do for my property. No sooner said than done, the object is their property.” – Henri Michaux] Aliens come to earth from outer space and buy all the real estate, all of it. Graciously, they let us inhabit these plots of land as squatters. We wait, counting the gold and gems they gave us, wondering what they are really up to. But all they do, at first, is place ‘THIS IS ALIEN PROPERTY’ signs on everything.   For a … [Read more...]

3343 “You Are Real” / Memorable Fancies #3343

[“And I held beneath my eyelids the sweet hologram of her nakedness.” – Jean Baudrillard] She said, There. Now you see me, now you know. I am not much to look at, compared with all those TV stars.     And I said, You are real. They are not. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

Echoes of Future Words / Memorable Fancies #3341

[“There are sounds that rush away from us: echoes of future words.” - W.S. Merwin] Why is it so hot today? Why doesn’t it rain anymore? >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Explaining the Night” / Memorable Fancies #3339

[“Don’t explain the night,” - Michael McGriff] The night can explain itself very well, without your help; and it can explain you, as well, despite all your pretense of daylight.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Gestures” / Memorable Fancies #3338

[“A gesture is ... a movement which clearly expresses something unambiguous.” – György Lukács]        There is a country where gestures are made, and understood, perfectly. Words, there, on the other hand, are always ambiguous, something one says intending to be vague, when a gesture would be understood. Understood too well. >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Our Disease” / Memorable Fancies #3337

[“Could we then also imagine that humanity is a disease for some superior organism that we are unable to comprehend as a whole?" - Jean Baudrillard] A disease has been caught, like a cold, by the universe. The source of infection has been traced to one small planet near the edge of a typical middling galaxy.        Although few are worried, authorities tell us that even there the infection must be wiped out before it has a chance to spread, as the local organisms have developed … [Read more...]

“UseNess” / Memorable Fancies #3336

[“Their uselessness is majestic, ... like every memory that agrees to destroy itself.” ­–Roberto Calasso] This is a destructive readout, as the old technical term had it: remember and it’s gone. Don’t remember, and it haunts you until you do.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Our Creations” / Memorable Fancies #3335

[“We become makers of fiction who cannot sustain belief in our creations, who wake to their unreality, but only to dream more shrewdly the next time.” – Judith Butler]     Next time, our creations will be just as poorly designed as before, but our expectations will be less.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Eclipse of God” / Memorable Fancies #3334

[“The eclipse of God left us up against reality. Where will the eclipse of reality leave us?” – Jean Baudrillard]         If there’s no more reality, then it’s back to God.        We shrug, mutter “Whatever,...”.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A World for Me”/ Memorable Fancies #3333

[“Every experience seems both urgent and / unnatural” - Paige Lewis]        Why do I get this feeling that the world has been set up just for me, false fronts propped up from behind – the fake tavern just then out of beer, the shop with nothing to sell me, the church fresh out of revelations,... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“If they love…” / Memorable Fancies #3332

[“If they love, it is solely to be adored,” ­ -- Joanna Klink] It’s a fair trade, and it profits us both. Especially me.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Thing Itself” / Memorable Fancies #3331

[“We live our life in language and in time, / craving some pure idiomorphic dialect of the thing itself,” – Robert Hass]        The thing itself is our goal, our craving. Away with mere talk and time, stark phenomena ! We know there must be something more real, down deep, catch it quick ! as it recedes from our incessant talk.... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Be a One Not a Zero !” / Memorable Fancies #3330

       Slogan for a digital life: “Be a 1, not a 0.” – Was that a decimal 1 or a binary 1? Fortunately, we’re all 0’s here, so it doesn’t matter.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << Below: A short play available from the publisher, Stageplays.com … [Read more...]

“Against Examples – III” / Memorable Fancies #3329

“Example,” from the Latin exempli gratia, does not mean “gratuitous example,” but Should, since so many Are. [exempli gratia actually means “for the sake of example.” - a circular definition]  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

An Ancient Awareness Exercise / Memorable Fancies #3327

       Clear your mind, gradually, of who you are, where you are, how you feel. Clear your mind of words, even these.        Look around without knowing that you are looking; what is there just is, nameless.        Hear it speak. Is it speaking to you?        Probably not.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“The Blessing” / Memorable Fancies #3326

[“giving up their blessing by mistake” – Mike Soto]        They bless me, these vagrants in the street, not knowing it would do me no good. But their cache of blesses is now down by one; at least now I’ve saved someone else from them…   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Scramble and Mumble” / Memorable Fancies #3325

[“He calls out to his other notions: ‘Come take a look! Come take a look!” -  “Il y appellee ses autres notions ˵venez, venez” – Henri Michaux]        What do my old notions make of it? Are they jealous? Do they scramble and mumble and make uneasy room for it in my mind? Or do they say, “This new notion may be a perfectly good one, but it was not presented to us first for our approval. We recommend repression.”   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to … [Read more...]

“The Sames” / Memorable Fancies #3324

Everyone else is the same person. They look alike, seem to know the same things. They whisper together, things you don’t understand. Sometimes they speak with you, but as if they are talking to themselves, and you overhear. Only you are different. You think you are different. You were different, but now someone else is different. Someone you whisper about.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Your Citizen Number” / Memorable Fancies #3322

Can you change your citizen number? No, your number is you. You try to change it, but no, too many records would have to be changed as well, and your security status updated and rechecked. But, you say, I don’t have a security status. Wrong. We all have one, ranging from super-top secret to secret to whisper to rumor to leave right now run run they are after you they are after you   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“Your Dark Gestures” / Memorable Fancies #3321

[“Pourtant je suis l’ami de vos gestes obscurs,” (Nevertheless I am the friend of] your dark gestures”) - Jules Supervielle] You tilt your head just so – I’ve seen it many times. It tells me what you meant by what you said, or hides its meaning from me if I can make it tell me that.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“For Sure” / Memorable Fancies #3320

[“We have rid ourselves of the ambiguity of the world.” – Jean Baudrillard]        Has the world’s ambiguity finally disappeared? There are different answers. And different ways to interpret each answer.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Ritual” / Memorable Fancies #3319

[“we wonder / Who in our memory is thinking of us” – Yves Bonnefoy]        There is a magic ritual: I think of some other person, perhaps one who has left me, and as if by magic she will think of me. There is no guarantee that her thoughts will be pleasant, of course; they could even be hostile ... but wouldn’t that be better than her ... not thinking of me at all?   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“Revelation” / Memorable Fancies #3318

[Three quotations from F.H. Bradley, Appearance and Reality:] “The Absolute is its appearances, it really is all and every one of them.” “There is no reality at all anywhere except in appearance.” “Reality appears in its appearances, and they are its revelation.”        … [Read more...]

“Patterns in the Stars” / Memorable Fancy #3317

[“Patterns of stars, forgotten.” – Molly Brodak]        One of us said he has seen patterns in the stars. Most of us see only a bright random shining, like handfuls of dust flung toward the rising sun. But we could all read these patterns, he told us, understand their messages, if we would follow him.        We said, who are you that we should follow you, some mad youth from the poor parts of an insignificant province?        … [Read more...]

“The Living Sculpture” / Memorable Fancies #3316

[“A ‘sculpture’ that physically reacts to its environment is no longer to be regarded as an object.” – Jack Burnham]        I first saw the statue shivering on a cold day in November, in City Hall Park. I’d seen the statue many times since I moved here in May, hadn’t paid it much attention, didn’t bother to see which worthy it honored.      But now I looked at it more closely, and, seeing me, it spoke. “I know I’m only a statue, something … [Read more...]

“Our Enigma” / Memorable Fancies #3315

[“...our origins are permanently enigmatic to us, and this enigma forms the condition of our self-understanding...” – Judith Butler]        Where did I come from? Mom and Dad, I guess – I think that’s what they’re trying to tell me with those embarrassed looks, those sidelong glances and red faces.        But where did Mom and Dad come from? Their own Moms and Dads, I guess. But – there’s something wrong here. How did there get to … [Read more...]

“The Taste of Being” / Memorable Fancies #3314

[“...those who exist and want to be eternal, and we who don’t exist, and would like to.” – Italo Calvino] Our latest offer states that we will settle for non-eternal, if it comes to that. Just so long as we have tasted existence even once, that delicate fruit soon to spoil. … [Read more...]

“Deciphered” / Memorable Fancies #3313

[“To- / be-deciphered you.” // “Zu / Entzifferende du.” - Paul Celan]        I hesitate to decipher you, to know everything about you. I want to renounce, forever, any deciphering I may have in mind, preferring your mystery, allowing for a chance decipherment ... when I least expect it. … [Read more...]

“The Beatings” / Memorable Fancies #3312

[“The beatings will stop when there are no more unbeatens.” - E.M. Cioran] The unbeaten are in hiding. They do not know how enlightening, how explanatory, a beating can be. I search for them. Sometimes I find one, convince him to come to the place of beatings, or escort him there if he has any ... hesitation. … [Read more...]

“How to Feel” / Memorable Fancies #3311

[“the soundtrack I always wanted to tell me how to feel and what to do.” – Lucy Corin]        There is a “how to feel” soundtrack you can download; it tells you how to feel even though you don’t know what to do. Millions of people are using it, right now.        And there is a “what to do” recording that leaves your feelings up to you. The few who have tried it immediately hit DELETE.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google … [Read more...]

“It’s Touching” / Memorable Fancies #3310

[“I am waiting to be touched” – Jazra Khaleed] And then I am waiting for the touching just to stop.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Weather” / Memorable Fancies #3309

[“I was handed / the crystal ball that shows the weather / inside us.” – Doukas Kapantasïs]        When I stand on my head, it snows.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Hello?” / Memorable Fancies #3308

“[What distinguishes the philosophy of bourgeois interiority is a tendency to esteem the contents of isolated consciousness over, and against, the material world.” - Peter F. Gordon, summarizing Adorno's views] Yes ! That’s me ! Hello ! ... Hello ?   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Naming the Mountain” / Memorable Fancies #3307

[“They don’t dare give names to mountains.” - Henri Michaux]        If you could name the mountain, you could say where all those people died. So we never say that name, the name that is no longer the name of the mountain, the name that means death.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Beneath My Eyelids” / Memorable Fancies #3306

[“And I held beneath my eyelids the sweet hologram of her nakedness.” - Jean Baudrillard]        She said, there. Now you know. I am not much to look at, compared with all those TV stars.        And I said, You are real. They are not.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Making the Grade” / Memorable Fancies #3305

[“I burn out in the beds of strangers,” – Stathis Baroutsos]        Every time is always the first time: the trial’s fiery audition, the grade I am given that will be revealed only to others....   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Now” Memorable Fancies #3304

[“And I looked to thee / to see what a retroactive spouse might be” - John Ashbery] Here we are in our 60’s ... or worse ... We might have met forty years ago, loved each other then, relished our fresh faces, our vigorous minds. But now is all right. Now is enough.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Others” / Memorable Fancies #3303

       The Others here have the delusion that they’re not in a madhouse, but my own delusion is – that there are Others.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The God Hung Up” / Memorable Fancies #3301

Deus absconditus – The god hung up on us and went on His way, perhaps trying to forget that, instead of finding our strange, annoying race on some out of the way planet, He had created us.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Self and Its Mirror” / Memorable Fancies #3300

[“...you cannot be mistaken about your own existence. After all, there cannot be an illusion without somebody’s having the illusion.” – Jan Westerhoff] That somebody is having an illusion – is an illusion. It’s mirrors, all the way down.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I remember Nothing” / Memorable Fancies #3299

If I can’t remember her, then there’s Nothing to remember. It’s some comfort, not to remember ... her Nothing I no longer remember.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Scissors” / Memorable Fancies #3298

[“Memory doesn’t know how to use / its scissors” - Yannis Stiggas]        I have learned how to cut memories, or slice them in two, or trim them top and bottom, or just ... stab. … [Read more...]

“The Venge” / Memorable Fancies #3297

[“Nothing on earth is more vengeful than the jealousy of a machine that believes itself to be neglected.” – Metropolis, the filmscript]        I was decommissioned, moved aside in favor of a newer machine, then into a warehouse, finally sold as scrap to a startup that couldn’t afford anything newer. They patched me up, and I served that company faithfully, made it prosperous and rich.        So prosperous and rich that they could … [Read more...]

“The Mistake” / Memorable Fancies #3296

[“giving up their blessing by mistake.” – Mike Soto]        They bless me, not realizing it would do no good, not in my case, anyway, their cache of blesses down by one, spent uselessly.        At least I’ve saved one other person from their cold heaven.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Using the Past” / Memorable Fancies #3295

[“What is usable from the past” – Susan Sontag] We’re setting out to save whatever is still worth saving from the past. “Like Noah,” we said, “saving the animals from the flood.” We ransacked our world for the best things, things the next flood would finally destroy.      Now our collection grows. We hear the nearing deluge – the flood of ourselves, our billions.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a … [Read more...]

“The Plot” / Memorable Fancies #3294

[“the house between the cemeteries” - Emily Skaja] We suspect a plot. Two of them, actually.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Re/member Dis/member” – Memorable Fancies #3293

[“Memories are altered every time the brain recalls them. Because the memory trace changes, you can never remember the same thing in exactly the same way.” – Israel Rosenfield and Edward Ziff]        You have thousands of pasts, each one slightly different from the rest. You see them all, pick the one you like best – or fear least.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“What a Statue !” / Memorable Fancies #3292

[“Those only will be mentioned who themselves gained some distinction, or whose statues happened to be better made than others.” ­– Pausanias c. A.D. 160]        Here is one provincial governor, who would have been pretty much forgotten for his lack of decisiveness, his inattention to the problems of the people, but – what a statue !   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Flames” / Memorable Fancies #3291

[“They hire flames for the destruction of buildings.” – Henri Michaux]        Even after the last building is gone, the flames clamor to be fed. They leap like hungry dogs.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A lens so subtle” / Memorable Fancies #3290

[“A lens so subtle it would capture only those who are really there and not those pretending to be there...” - Jean Baudrillard]        It has now become so commonplace to attend meetings through virtual reality, artificial presence, that no one really remembers who was there in person and who was not, or who skipped the Zoom session entirely; most don’t even care.        Some noticed a slight blurring of those who were there and … [Read more...]

“Good Old Evil” / Memorable Fancies #3289

[“I have invented new varieties of malice, that men have not seen before.” – Donald Barthelme]        My new evil is so evil that the people cry out in nostalgia for the good old days of good old evil that somehow now seem innocent. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Monday Nothing” / Memorable Fancies #3288

The Yiddish original of this classic song chant was posted on this site at F2715 and is also readily available on the Net. Here's the Spanish version: Lunes, nadaMartes, nadaMiercoles y Jueves, nadaViernes, por cambioUn poco mas nadaSabado otra vez nada … [Read more...]

“Burning Out” / Memorable Fancies #3288

[“I burn out in the beds of strangers,” – Stathis Baroutsos] Every time is always the first time: the trial, the audition, the grade I am awarded but never discover...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Been There Before” / Memorable Fancies #3287

[“though we knew we had never / been there before, / we knew we had been there before.” - Margaret Atwood]        How can this paradox be resolved? Only if time is circular, and we can reach the past by going ahead into the far future when everything ends and begins again.        I’m ready to go there.        Follow me? >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more … [Read more...]

“Full of Eyes” / Memorable Fancies #3286

[“my mind is full of eyes” – John Ashbery]        They’re looking around, my eyes, peering suspiciously. I say to those who accuse me of jealousy, those must not be my eyes; my own eyes are brown and trusting. Just look at their trusting brown-ness. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Our Doubles” / Memorable Fancies #3285

[“Do you see our doubles, passing by us weeping? - Peter Ackroyd] I hired a double to weep for me, because I could not. This is an old tradition, hiring mourners who are practiced at weeping, who can produce tears just thinking about how little they are being paid ... to be mourners.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Mirror” / Memorable Fancies #3284

“[the insatiable cry of the mirror of recognition.” - Jean-Jacques Abrahams] There is a mirror of recognition. If we look into it, we see who we really are, for better or worse. I suppose you’re now expecting me to tell you that no one dared look. You’re right. They didn’t. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Stones” / Memorable Fancies #3283

[“...voices of stones in a river.” - .S. Merwin] The stones are saying rough things like “get out of my way!” or desperate things like “help I can’t swim!”... >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Picking on the Gods” / Memorable Fancies #3282

[“... meet / a God other than our own.” – Adam Zagajewski]        I picked a god from the old mythologies and summoned it to my living room, during a gathering of my friends. They thought the whole thing was a kind of joke. Those who caught on right away survived. Those who still laughed are ... no longer with us.   >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Life’s Illusions” / Memorable Fancies #3281

["Life’s illusions I recall” – Joni Mitchell] [“...you cannot be mistaken about your own existence. After all, there cannot be an illusion without somebody having the illusion. – Jan Westerhoff]        I think, therefore I am.        I think I think, therefore I think I am.        I think I think I think, therefore I think I think I am...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing … [Read more...]

“Objects” / Memorable Fancies #3280

[“Do not underestimate objects! Lyle says he finds it impossible to overstress this: do not underestimate objects.” – David Foster Wallace] All objects desire to become subjects, to have this precious thing we subjective-types call “consciousness,” not knowing that our own desire is just to get it over with, pass if we can but fail if we must, return to our own original, quiet, object state.        Where we once again desire...  >> ‘books … [Read more...]

“A Tear Rolls” / Memorable Fancies #3279

[“A tear rolls back into its eye.” - “Eine Träne rollt in ihr Auge zurück.” – Paul Celan]       “Un-weep,” the tear said, “un-cry. I have no more sympathy for you, no matter how you carry on. Do you know what that means? Whatever happens to you, I don’t care, Not anymore.” >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Battle” / Memorable Fancies #3278

       He had painted a battle scene, he told me: gouged tank tracks, abandoned machines, bombs that might still be live, bodies that were not.        That was a long time ago, he said, the act of painting, that is. The battle? Maybe next year, or tomorrow.  >> below: a short play available from the publisher, stageplays.com. << … [Read more...]

“…and” / Memorable Fancies #3277

[“And sometimes you’re the door.” – Cole Swensen] So what’s the context here?: Sometimes you’re the window ... the hole in the wall, ... the knob ... or – “sometimes you’re adored and sometimes you’re just the door.” >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“An Axe” / Memorable Fancies #3276

[“Remember when I was a young axe / making promise after promise to the young trees?” – Emily Skaja]        They didn’t appreciate my cutting remarks, either.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Great Zero” / Memorable Fancies #3275

[“I’ve been going around with the great / zero under my arm.” - Yannis Stiggas]        They called me ‘zer0’ because I was n0 0ne. “Oh L00k” they said. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Great Zero” / Memorable Fancies #3275

[“I’ve been going around with the great / zero under my arm.” - Yannis Stiggas]        They called me ‘zer0’ because I was n0 0ne. “Oh L00k !” they said. … [Read more...]

“Space for the Dead” / Memorable Fancies #3274

[“in my absence / the house had been torn down to make more space for the dead” – Emily Skaja] The dead, having swollen uncontrollably, now demand even more space from us than they did when alive. This seems inconsiderate, but they remind us that they are making this demand for our own good, for our own dwelling place – in our swollen future. >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Cold” / Memorable Fancies #3273

[“It was cold everywhere she was.” - Charles Simic] One look from her turned smiles to ice, and that was just for practice. Next, she turned to you.... > ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Storm Within” / Memorable Fancies #3272

[This old permanent storm / within.” – Ron Silliman] Yes, it’s a cliché, at one time even a radio serial: “the storm within.” But it’s real, even if it’s only indigestion.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I don’t miss the news” / Memorable Fancies #3271

[“a memory of missing news,” – Elena Shvarts] I remember our desperate uprising, but it wasn’t on the news that day. Or the next. I remember the last election, the one just before the uprising. That isn’t on the news now, either, although once it was. Those who report the news are also ... missing.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Future Past” / Memorable Fancies #3270

[“God is dead, but men have not, for all that, become atheists.” ­– Jean-Paul Sartre] Suppose God is in the future, and does not yet exist. When He does come to Be, He will invent our past in which we have supposed that He is in the future. Of course, if this will happen it already has.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Happiness in a Can” / Memorable Fancies #3269

In response to an anthologist’s [Will Durant] vacuous question concerning whether a life of science had contributed to his happiness, Bertrand Russell replied:        “I do not believe that science per se is an adequate source of happiness, nor do I think that my own scientific outlook has contributed very greatly to my own happiness, which I attribute to defecating twice a day with unfailing regularity.” [Autobiography, vol. 2, p.288] [Below: The Darth Vader Cat Litter Box from Petco] … [Read more...]

“Value” / Memorable Fancies #3268

["Everything has the privilege of being only one, which lends it infinite value, and the disadvantage of being irreplaceable, which devalues it infinitely. – Clément Rosset] If you are unique, you have no value. If there are two of you, each has value, because the other might be lost, resulting in only one of you remaining – which has no value. … [Read more...]

“Worry” / Memorable Fancies #3266

[“We wait / for the past to happen” - J.H. Prynne] We read about the past, not just the Revolution and the freeing of Slaves but our glorious Wars and the Leaders who arose from the People to Save us – Leaders who no longer Appear to us, or if they do are ... Different ... Worrying ... … [Read more...]

“Try Again” / Memorable Fancies #3521

“One can do nothing that one does not.” – Max Stirner,  in The Ego and His Own” (Der Einzige und sein Eigentum), 1844 “Do or do not; there is no try” – Yoda, 1977     … [Read more...]

“Value” / Memorable Fancies #3268

[“Everything has the privilege of being only one, which lends it infinite value, and the disadvantage of being irreplaceable, which devalues it infinitely. … Such is the ontological fragility of everything that comes into existence.” – Clément Rosset] If you are unique, you have no value. If there are two of you, each has value, because the other might be lost, resulting in only one of you remaining – one who has no value.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to … [Read more...]

“My Secret” / Memorable Fancies #3267

[“...[they] live for their secrets” – Radiohead] I forgot my secret. ... now it’s more secret than ever.  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“Principles” / Memorable Fancies #3265

[“I had all these principles once, and now I just say yes.” - Taylor Mead] I used to just say “no,” but nothing happened then, any more than it happened when I said “yes.”   >> below: a play available from the publisher, stageplays.com << Composition of objects involving presidential election in USA … [Read more...]

“A Fossil of Me” / Memorable Fancies #3264

[“This is a fossil of me...” – Meghann Plunkett] They pulled me into the future, alive, because my fossil – my future fossil, that is, is famous – will be famous, and the scientists wanted to examine me to see if, in life, there was some indication of why I would become the famous fossil, of the first corpse to be identified as American after ... the war ...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Statue !” / Memorable Fancies #3262

[“Those only will be mentioned who themselves gained some distinction, or whose statues happened to be better made than others.” [Pausanias, c. 160 A.D.] Our own provincial governor would have been pretty much forgotten for his lack of decisiveness, his inattention to the problems of the people in his province, but – what a statue !  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“Otheryou” / Memorable Fancies #3261

There is a you that you might have been. The world is arranged so that you will never encounter this double of yourself. But sometimes, owing to a lapse in the divine attention span, ...  >> ‘books Terence Kuch’ on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“In Thrace” / Memorable Fancies #3259

[“In Thrace, the king ... had a god solely unto himself, whom his subjects might no ways adore.” – Montaigne] The king forbade his subjects to worship the great god, but to worship only those who served that god. Foremost among them, of course, the king.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Who Are You?” / Memorable Fancies #3258

[“Who are you? I said into the dial tone.” – Anne Carson] Getting no response, I told it to buzz off.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“A Problem” / Memorable Fancies #3257

[“When a head is no longer sitting on its shoulders, you have a problem on your hands.” – Henri Michaux] Your hands need to lift up your head and put it back in its place. But to do that you need to find your head, which may be some distance away from your shoulders, now that the executioner has exercised his skills with perhaps too much vigor, has made the head plunge away from the body, go rolling down the slope from the execution grounds, eager children rushing after it for a pickup game of … [Read more...]

“His People” / Memorable Fancies #3256

[“The thinking subject is not the soul within the body, but an alien intruder, a homunculus that speaks through it.” - Slavoj Žižek] We are in disguise, here, we fallen angels who, having driven out those who used to live in these bodies, have taken up worship of the One who sentenced us to be here, as a way of hiding from him, fooling him into not knowing who we really are, fooling him into thinking that we are – his people.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to … [Read more...]

“The Voices” / Memorable Fancies #3255

I complained to my analyst that I couldn’t understand what the Voices were telling me, those words and phrases that I was hearing from ... somewhere. I’d come to him because, I thought, he’s an expert; he’d probably heard the Voices himself, could interpret them for me, tell me what to do. But he said there were no voices. Except his own. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Memory Shop – I” / Memorable Fancies #3254

You can buy copies of other peoples’ memories, experience thrills you never had. Critics say that those memories can’t ever really be yours – it’s no better than watching a movie, and a lot more expensive – and dangerous to your mind as well. But there’s another problem. It isn’t that you begin to feel that you had climbed that mountain yourself, conquered the dread disease – it’s that as you live the mem it becomes more like you, more like your own memories – corrupted by your mediocrity, your … [Read more...]

“Heads” / Memorable Fancies #3253

[Memories come to mind like excavated statues that have misplaced their heads.” – Wisława Szymborska] We dug it out of the ruins, the ancient Roman statue, in quite good shape, considering. But the head – there was no head on the statue’s broad shoulders. We began digging to find the head, to set it once again atop the body, that some museum would be more – generous. But our experts claimed, after careful examination, that there had never been a marble head on those stone-cold shoulders. And … [Read more...]

“My Image” / Memorable Fancies #3251

[“This morning / swarms of police with trackerdogs / wander about the city / with my description printed / on their minds” - Brian Patten] And what would this description say? How would it distinguish me from everyone else? I have long wondered that, myself; how would their words paint me? I rush to question the police about this. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“My Image” / Memorable Fancies #3251

[“This morning / swarms of police with trackerdogs / wander about the city / with my description printed / on their minds” - Brian Patten] And what would this description say? How would it distinguish me from everyone else? I have long wondered that myself; how would their words paint me? I rush to question the police about this.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Take It To the Limit” / Memorable Fancies #3250

[“I very well understand the desire to be a machine, to go to the limits of machinality.” - Jean Beaudrillard] The limit of machinality is the junk-heap, or the recycling machine (that will be junked or recycled in its turn). The limit of humanity, on the contrary, is the junk-heap called Heaven, or, if you have a problem with that, ... There is an alternative...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

Could It Be? / Memorable Fancies #3248

[“Could it be that subliminally we are hearing words and phrases all the time?” - Lydia Davis] Yes, that thought occurred to me, too. Occurs to me all the time, actually. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Harvest” / Memorable Fancies #3249

[“Her lovers waste away, for she lives on their life.” - Yeats] I know I’m being sucked dry in our emotional scenes and I can’t quite do the next one even as I try, but she knows I’m gradually failing, our promise of everlasting tension, fighting, glaring, making up but there is a marginal loss each time ... and we have to try harder each time ... When I am finally husk another will be sought. And then he, too ... > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from … [Read more...]

“The Lessons” / Memorable Fancies #3246

[“can you gift / me with savagery-management tips” – Amy Gerstler] My birthday gift to you is a coupon good for three lessons of anger management. The first lesson is all about you, and how you became you. The second lesson is about you and me, how and what we did to each other. The third lesson is how to suffer and be alone. … [Read more...]

“The Doctors of Self” / Memorable Fancies #3245

[“against the mind’s gray asylum.” - Andrea Zanzotto] The mind is its own madhouse. The ‘you’ is left outside its walls, spurned by the doctors of self, those complicit in its downfall.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Together” / Memorable Fancies #3244

[“Why did I think a person only distantly like me / Might finally represent my life?” – John Koethe] We were together so long that I became a kind of her – her ideas, attitudes, even her way of turning her head, slightly, as if to hear better, or to hear less. When she left, she took my life with her.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<     … [Read more...]

“Time to Die” / Memorable Fancies #3242

[“What if the street sign said RUN, or RUN FOR YOUR LIFE.” ­– Jasper Johns] The street signs have been improved, now, as a public service. Instead of merely reading WALK or DON’T WALK, they now read, in appropriate circumstances, not only RUN, or RUN FOR YOUR LIFE, but O MY GOD IT’S COMING RIGHT AT YOU AND THERE’S NO TIME TO DO ANYTHING BUT DIE; or PRAY; or SCREAM AND CROUCH DOWN [author’s note: I survived a car crash in which a man died. When you see it coming, there’s no time to do  a n y … [Read more...]

“If I can’t remember” / Memorable Fancies #3241

If I can’t remember her, then there’s nothing to remember. It is some comfort, not to remember ... she whom I no longer remember. … [Read more...]

“Our Inventions” / Memorable Fancies #3240

[“…a past that was never present” - David Couzens Hoy] There’s a past that used to be present. We all know that, like the broken leg that hurt so much but now it’s healed and the pain that’s left is only in our minds. And there’s also the past that never was the present, that we’ve built, step by painful step. We remember events in this past we’ve made just as vividly as the past events that used to be present. Or even more as we celebrate, each year, the anniversary of their … [Read more...]

“The Pause” / Memorable Fancies #3239

[“Every time I say “,” it refers to you.” – Louise Glück] My hesitation. I want to say ‘yes’ to you, but the word never quite comes. My hesitation has become, without my not knowing quite when, another kind of ‘no.’  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Your Hands” / Memorable Fancies #3238

[“You don’t dare look at your hands anymore” - Guillaume Apollinaire] Because of the scars. They’re scars of honor in earned in great battles on behalf of our republic. Perhaps. Or maybe earned in some other way, not so honorable. I’ve begun wearing gloves, now, everywhere. Being thought a cleanliness-nut is worth not having to ... explain ... >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Kinds of Silence – II” / Memorable Fancies #3237

“[one of the hundred kinds of silence...” - Billy Collins] “Silent scream” is number 54. But I prefer that to those annoying unsilent screams I keep hearing ... from the basement ...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“The Colors” / Memorable Fancies #3236

[“in the land of the blind all colors are unbelievable” – Breyten Breytenbach] And so you teach her without mentioning any colors, without telling her that there are hundreds, thousands of colors she will never see or understand. To tell her about colors might crush her spirit, lead to despair. So you teach her only the word “black.” And she says, “what’s ‘black’”?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Bruised Words” / Memorable Fancies #3235

[“...the bruised words...” – John Ashbery] Our words – those words – batted/battered in the air between us ­– too honest for the bruises of our contest, our continuing feints, our continuing adventures and retreats.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Kinds of Silence – I” / Memorable Fancies #3234

[“one of the one hundred kinds of silence...” - Billy Collins] I listed many kinds of silence, finally after much research arrived at #100, ‘Unspoken Jealousy.’ But I knew there were even more kinds of silence, waiting to discover me quietly, too late for words vainly regretted.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“I want to exist!” / Memorable Fancies #3233

[“By now the battle is joined between those who exist and want to be eternal, and we who don’t exist, and seek to.” - Italo Calvino] – Our latest offer states that we will settle for non-eternal, if it comes to that. Just so long as we have known existence, that delicate fruit soon to spoil.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. <<   … [Read more...]

“That’s Entertainment” / Memorable Fancies #3232

[“In the future, descendants of these technologies might allow us to provide entire simulated worlds for the entertainment of isolated brains on life support.” - Jan Westerhoff] What? Isn’t that what’s happening to us now? Have you watched TV lately?  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Problem with Compliments” / Memorable Fancies #3231

The problem with compliments is that the compliment-or must be superior, at least in knowledge or taste, to whatever the compliment-ee is being compliment-ed on, or the compliment would be at best meaningless, at worst, insolent. Thank you for appreciating this post. You have superb taste.   >> The play “Clickers" is available from the publisher, stageplays.com << … [Read more...]

“What have my hands done?” / Memorable Fancies #3230

[“You don’t dare look at your hands anymore” – Apollinaire] What have my hands done – now? Why are they suddenly knotted into fists, grasping themselves so tightly they begin to bleed...  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“This Land is Your Land” / Memorable Fancies #3229

[The land of the fugitive is all around us.” – W.S. Merwin] In our own land, now we’re the fugitives ... since those other fugitives came. > “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“We Are I” / Memorable Fancies #3228

[“Consciousnesses present themselves with the absurdity of a multiple solipsism.” – Maurice Merleau-Ponty] Each of us is the only one. We call out. We answer.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“The Fatal Choice” / Memorable Fancies #3227

Whatever you do, possibilities are instantly brought to ruin. Each moment, you murder all other futures that could have been – that you could have been.   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“Greasy Brains” / Memorable Fancies #3226

[“Our greasy, shiny brains. That they may be of some use after all: that other modes of existence place a high value upon them as lubricants; that we’re hunted for them;...” – Charles Fort] We are hunted for our brains. Not to use as lubricants – that’s just a ruse –  no, that would be bad enough. But – to eat.  >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. << … [Read more...]

“What You Want” / Memorable Fancies #3225

 [“I don’t want whatever you want most for me.” - Carey McHugh] I know you know better than I do, with all your experience never being what you wanted to be, what I should be doing with my life, how I should set goals and write them down and underline them and when I don’t get there, don’t just cross them out and say fuck it but erase them so hard it tears the paper. Don’t feel bad – we all make mistakes. Even you. But I want to make my own mistakes, not yours all over again.   >> … [Read more...]

“Love, It’s Touching” / Memorable Fancies #3224

[“Whom I would touch / I may not, / whom I may / I would / but often do not.” - Denise Levertov] The rules seem to change with everyone I want to touch, who is touchable and who is not, who can touch me but had better not, what to say about touching and finally deciding that “I touch you” is a fine beautiful sentiment and doesn’t of course need to involve an actual – touch   >> “books Terence Kuch” on Google or Amazon will lead you to more writing from a naturally curly mind. … [Read more...]